Hey Girlfriend!
Happy Between-Christmas-and-New-Year!
I COULD ramble on and on and on … but I'm not gunna. Not very chatty these days (I know - NOT my norm! *lol*).
Let's just draw a line under the last two weeks.
Let's just recognize that Christmas is Christmas and (thank God) it's only once a year.
Let's just say I thoroughly enjoyed my butter tarts … and cookies … and fudge … and Craig's baklava … and chocolates … and egg nog … and bacon.
Let's just say I'm THRILLED that I no longer beat myself up over the not-so-good choices. Those were yesterday, those are over.
Let's just say Today is a New Day.
I had a bit of a pity party yesterday. Lack of sleep and achy body had me in a FOWL mood. This morning I bitch slapped myself. I made the choices. The unhealthy choices. Did I relaly expect good results from bad decisions? Did I really expect to maintain when eating my bodyweight in butter and fat? Did I really expect my jeans to fit the same as they did 2 weeks ago.
Seriously.
It's a New Day.
I got some good sleep. I DECIDED to get a grip. I DECIDED to have a better attitude and I DECIDED to do better.
In 3 weeks I'm going to Toronto for a conference.
This morning my jeans are cutting off the circulation to my belly button.
This morning I weighed myself.
This morning I was 198.6 pounds.
This morning I'm starting anew.
This morning I am not just going with "Just for Today I Choose" as my mantra. This morning I am going with "Just for this HOUR I choose".
3 weeks.
Watch this space.
Have an inspired day My Friend.
I'll touch base in 2 weeks.
Tam
Thursday, December 29, 2016
Friday, December 16, 2016
Tis the Season ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Almost read for Christmas? I am and I'm not. All the shopping had been done since Dec 1 but I can't start the wrapping until I get those 90 Christmas cards in the mail! I'm done about 60 of them. I'll get the rest done this morning so I can move on!
Now. Let's get real. Healthy Living? Ya no. Quite the shit show going on this week, I have to admit! I KNEW it was a mistake to do all that yummy baking with the girls last weekend. Ugh. I THOUGHT I could do it. I THOUGHT I could have cookies, marshmallow logs and butter tarts in the house and resist. I was wrong. WTF is WRONG with me???? I DO find the psychology of it all very interesting. I start the day off right. Every. Single. Morning. I have a nutritious shake. I am proud of myself and have grand visions of working out, eating right and staying in control. I actually DID work out twice this week. Monday and Tuesday. Lunch rolls around. I have a healthy one. Then, around 3:00 the kids are home. Two day in a row they didn't eat their marshmallow rolls … so I did. Then dinner happens. I eat my dinner … too MUCH dinner … then I have a butter tart … and maybe a cookie. Well … why stop now? Might as well have a handful of M&M's. Did someone say popcorn? I'm in!
Sigh.
Yesterday I was better. Had a wee chat with myself. Do NOT wanna gain back the 10 I lost this year so I reeled it in. I was still far from perfect. I still overate at dinner but I resisted all the baking. "Just for Today", I kept telling myself. Around 8:00 I was trolling through the pantry for something yummy. I had an Isagenix chocolate instead of the butter tart. Just for today.
Today I feel stronger, knowing I made better choices yesterday. Again, the psychology interests me. When the downward slide starts it picks up momentum and I (use to) slide for a week … or a month. Now I recognize the slide and CHOOSE to stop it. Sure, it took me two days to stop it but it's better than a week or a month. Once I start the UPWARD slide (by that I don't mean a tedious uphill climb but rather a positive slide) it TOO gains momentum. Yesterday was tough but I was strong … and today I feel stronger. SO much of success is in our self-talk and attitude. I have been a little harder on myself this week when I look in the mirror. I'm very wide! That is the truth … but I recognize it as fact .. then say something nice to myself about my curves … realize thousands of women would love to have these curves!
So today … just for today … I'm going to do my best. I'm going to try to avoid the treats and drink my water. I'm going to try to make healthy choices … but I'm also going to enjoy the season without the guilt. I do plan to have popcorn with a movie tonight with the family. I do plan to have some "naughty food" at the Open House we're going to on Sunday. But I also plan to be kind to myself. I plan to plan moderation … and I plan to maintain. i'm not chucking in the towel and I WILL do better in the new year. Until then I plan to enjoy and give myself a break.
I hope you are enjoying the run up to Christmas! It only happens once a year (I'm a little glad about that *lol*) Stay warm, Girlfriend and I'll ttys xoxo
Tam
Almost read for Christmas? I am and I'm not. All the shopping had been done since Dec 1 but I can't start the wrapping until I get those 90 Christmas cards in the mail! I'm done about 60 of them. I'll get the rest done this morning so I can move on!
Now. Let's get real. Healthy Living? Ya no. Quite the shit show going on this week, I have to admit! I KNEW it was a mistake to do all that yummy baking with the girls last weekend. Ugh. I THOUGHT I could do it. I THOUGHT I could have cookies, marshmallow logs and butter tarts in the house and resist. I was wrong. WTF is WRONG with me???? I DO find the psychology of it all very interesting. I start the day off right. Every. Single. Morning. I have a nutritious shake. I am proud of myself and have grand visions of working out, eating right and staying in control. I actually DID work out twice this week. Monday and Tuesday. Lunch rolls around. I have a healthy one. Then, around 3:00 the kids are home. Two day in a row they didn't eat their marshmallow rolls … so I did. Then dinner happens. I eat my dinner … too MUCH dinner … then I have a butter tart … and maybe a cookie. Well … why stop now? Might as well have a handful of M&M's. Did someone say popcorn? I'm in!
Sigh.
Yesterday I was better. Had a wee chat with myself. Do NOT wanna gain back the 10 I lost this year so I reeled it in. I was still far from perfect. I still overate at dinner but I resisted all the baking. "Just for Today", I kept telling myself. Around 8:00 I was trolling through the pantry for something yummy. I had an Isagenix chocolate instead of the butter tart. Just for today.
Today I feel stronger, knowing I made better choices yesterday. Again, the psychology interests me. When the downward slide starts it picks up momentum and I (use to) slide for a week … or a month. Now I recognize the slide and CHOOSE to stop it. Sure, it took me two days to stop it but it's better than a week or a month. Once I start the UPWARD slide (by that I don't mean a tedious uphill climb but rather a positive slide) it TOO gains momentum. Yesterday was tough but I was strong … and today I feel stronger. SO much of success is in our self-talk and attitude. I have been a little harder on myself this week when I look in the mirror. I'm very wide! That is the truth … but I recognize it as fact .. then say something nice to myself about my curves … realize thousands of women would love to have these curves!
So today … just for today … I'm going to do my best. I'm going to try to avoid the treats and drink my water. I'm going to try to make healthy choices … but I'm also going to enjoy the season without the guilt. I do plan to have popcorn with a movie tonight with the family. I do plan to have some "naughty food" at the Open House we're going to on Sunday. But I also plan to be kind to myself. I plan to plan moderation … and I plan to maintain. i'm not chucking in the towel and I WILL do better in the new year. Until then I plan to enjoy and give myself a break.
I hope you are enjoying the run up to Christmas! It only happens once a year (I'm a little glad about that *lol*) Stay warm, Girlfriend and I'll ttys xoxo
Tam
Thursday, December 8, 2016
Just Keep Swimming ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Figured it was high time I posted! … plus I'm procrastinating on what I SHOULD be doing, which is prepping for my kid's class in a few hours. Meh. It'll get done!
So! How am I doing? Pretty good, I'd say. Did I hit my goal of 187 by Dec 1st? Nope. Not even close. Weighed myself this morning. 192.8. Am I happy? Yup. Very! Why? A few reasons. The main one is that I'm MAINTAINING! Why I'm happy about THAT is because I've been slipping a bit - at least in my mind. By maintaining it's allowing me to let go of the beating-myself-up-for-having-a-cookie mentality I've had for so many years. I'm allowing myself the odd nibble or treat here and there. I'm VERY proud that I have a LITTLE. Not 5 cookies (which happened in the past more than I would like to admit!) but ONE cookie. Or ONE chocolate .. controlled. I enjoy and then move on. Every morning I have a "new" day clean piece of paper. I almost always have my shake for breakfast. If I'm home I have a healthy lunch - if not a protein bar. I'm slipping on my pre-dinner snacking (eating the kids' lunch leftovers .. which really is gross, when I think about it …) and I overeat at dinner. I eat my HEALTHY dinner … but can't seem to resist the kids uneaten food. Again - gross. On the bright side, despite me eating too much it is still much less than in the past. Where I get disappointed in myself is that the kids' food isn't the healthy choice. Better for me to eat more quinoa than the kids' breaded chicken strip. Again - not disastrous and at least I recognize the error of my ways *lol*. I know, a gal can't live on kale and quinoa alone … but there is not good reason for me to be eating what I am. I'm not hungry and, truth be told, it usually isn't even that tasty! I do like the clean foods! Heck, yesterday I made fried zucchini in some olive oil with Craig's home-grow garlic, salt and pepper. Had two eggs to go with it. De-LICIOUS! It's odd that I'm "good" when I'm alone but "Naughty" when the family is around. I'm sure a psychologist would have a few thoughts on THAT! *lol*
So! What's the plan for December? Well - there will definitely be a few "cheats". Going for lunch next week with friends, movie ad drinks with friends and baking tarts. Craig will be making his baklava and .. well … on it goes. It's Christmas. I'm gunna enjoy. My goal is to MAINTAIN through it all! I just got my new Country Heat DVD (for the send time - the first one got lost somewhere in the house somewhere before I even OPENED it!). I'm excited to try it out … and Becca said she'd do it with me.
I'm moving more, eating healthier and feeling pretty good overall. Think my hormones are all OVER the place with pre-menapause … given Aunt Flo hasn't been around for a few months so pretty sure that's going to stall any real gain, despite any efforts to lose.
Whatever. January always brings me 2 or 3 months of free time in the morning so I plan to exercise a lot more. Only 30 weeks until the big 5-0 … would like to be down at least 30 pounds by then. It's a tall order so I need to dig deeper very soon!
Gotta run - time to take Leeshy to school.
Have a great day. Stay warm - TTYS xo
Tam
Figured it was high time I posted! … plus I'm procrastinating on what I SHOULD be doing, which is prepping for my kid's class in a few hours. Meh. It'll get done!
So! How am I doing? Pretty good, I'd say. Did I hit my goal of 187 by Dec 1st? Nope. Not even close. Weighed myself this morning. 192.8. Am I happy? Yup. Very! Why? A few reasons. The main one is that I'm MAINTAINING! Why I'm happy about THAT is because I've been slipping a bit - at least in my mind. By maintaining it's allowing me to let go of the beating-myself-up-for-having-a-cookie mentality I've had for so many years. I'm allowing myself the odd nibble or treat here and there. I'm VERY proud that I have a LITTLE. Not 5 cookies (which happened in the past more than I would like to admit!) but ONE cookie. Or ONE chocolate .. controlled. I enjoy and then move on. Every morning I have a "new" day clean piece of paper. I almost always have my shake for breakfast. If I'm home I have a healthy lunch - if not a protein bar. I'm slipping on my pre-dinner snacking (eating the kids' lunch leftovers .. which really is gross, when I think about it …) and I overeat at dinner. I eat my HEALTHY dinner … but can't seem to resist the kids uneaten food. Again - gross. On the bright side, despite me eating too much it is still much less than in the past. Where I get disappointed in myself is that the kids' food isn't the healthy choice. Better for me to eat more quinoa than the kids' breaded chicken strip. Again - not disastrous and at least I recognize the error of my ways *lol*. I know, a gal can't live on kale and quinoa alone … but there is not good reason for me to be eating what I am. I'm not hungry and, truth be told, it usually isn't even that tasty! I do like the clean foods! Heck, yesterday I made fried zucchini in some olive oil with Craig's home-grow garlic, salt and pepper. Had two eggs to go with it. De-LICIOUS! It's odd that I'm "good" when I'm alone but "Naughty" when the family is around. I'm sure a psychologist would have a few thoughts on THAT! *lol*
I'm moving more, eating healthier and feeling pretty good overall. Think my hormones are all OVER the place with pre-menapause … given Aunt Flo hasn't been around for a few months so pretty sure that's going to stall any real gain, despite any efforts to lose.
Whatever. January always brings me 2 or 3 months of free time in the morning so I plan to exercise a lot more. Only 30 weeks until the big 5-0 … would like to be down at least 30 pounds by then. It's a tall order so I need to dig deeper very soon!
Gotta run - time to take Leeshy to school.
Have a great day. Stay warm - TTYS xo
Tam
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