Hey Girlfriend!
Almost read for Christmas? I am and I'm not. All the shopping had been done since Dec 1 but I can't start the wrapping until I get those 90 Christmas cards in the mail! I'm done about 60 of them. I'll get the rest done this morning so I can move on!
Now. Let's get real. Healthy Living? Ya no. Quite the shit show going on this week, I have to admit! I KNEW it was a mistake to do all that yummy baking with the girls last weekend. Ugh. I THOUGHT I could do it. I THOUGHT I could have cookies, marshmallow logs and butter tarts in the house and resist. I was wrong. WTF is WRONG with me???? I DO find the psychology of it all very interesting. I start the day off right. Every. Single. Morning. I have a nutritious shake. I am proud of myself and have grand visions of working out, eating right and staying in control. I actually DID work out twice this week. Monday and Tuesday. Lunch rolls around. I have a healthy one. Then, around 3:00 the kids are home. Two day in a row they didn't eat their marshmallow rolls … so I did. Then dinner happens. I eat my dinner … too MUCH dinner … then I have a butter tart … and maybe a cookie. Well … why stop now? Might as well have a handful of M&M's. Did someone say popcorn? I'm in!
Sigh.
Yesterday I was better. Had a wee chat with myself. Do NOT wanna gain back the 10 I lost this year so I reeled it in. I was still far from perfect. I still overate at dinner but I resisted all the baking. "Just for Today", I kept telling myself. Around 8:00 I was trolling through the pantry for something yummy. I had an Isagenix chocolate instead of the butter tart. Just for today.
Today I feel stronger, knowing I made better choices yesterday. Again, the psychology interests me. When the downward slide starts it picks up momentum and I (use to) slide for a week … or a month. Now I recognize the slide and CHOOSE to stop it. Sure, it took me two days to stop it but it's better than a week or a month. Once I start the UPWARD slide (by that I don't mean a tedious uphill climb but rather a positive slide) it TOO gains momentum. Yesterday was tough but I was strong … and today I feel stronger. SO much of success is in our self-talk and attitude. I have been a little harder on myself this week when I look in the mirror. I'm very wide! That is the truth … but I recognize it as fact .. then say something nice to myself about my curves … realize thousands of women would love to have these curves!
So today … just for today … I'm going to do my best. I'm going to try to avoid the treats and drink my water. I'm going to try to make healthy choices … but I'm also going to enjoy the season without the guilt. I do plan to have popcorn with a movie tonight with the family. I do plan to have some "naughty food" at the Open House we're going to on Sunday. But I also plan to be kind to myself. I plan to plan moderation … and I plan to maintain. i'm not chucking in the towel and I WILL do better in the new year. Until then I plan to enjoy and give myself a break.
I hope you are enjoying the run up to Christmas! It only happens once a year (I'm a little glad about that *lol*) Stay warm, Girlfriend and I'll ttys xoxo
Tam
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