Thursday, December 29, 2016

It's a New Day

Hey Girlfriend!

Happy Between-Christmas-and-New-Year!

I COULD ramble on and on and on … but I'm not gunna.  Not very chatty these days (I know - NOT my norm! *lol*).

Let's just draw a line under the last two weeks.
Let's just recognize that Christmas is Christmas and (thank God) it's only once a year.
Let's just say I thoroughly enjoyed my butter tarts … and cookies … and fudge … and Craig's baklava … and chocolates … and egg nog … and bacon.
Let's just say I'm THRILLED that I no longer beat myself up over the not-so-good choices.  Those were yesterday, those are over.
Let's just say Today is a New Day.

I had a bit of a pity party yesterday.  Lack of sleep and achy body had me in a FOWL mood.  This morning I bitch slapped myself.  I made the choices.  The unhealthy choices.  Did I relaly expect good results from bad decisions?  Did I really expect to maintain when eating my bodyweight in butter and fat?  Did I really expect my jeans to fit the same as they did 2 weeks ago.

Seriously.

It's a New Day.

I got some good sleep.  I DECIDED to get a grip.  I DECIDED to have a better attitude and I DECIDED to do better.

In 3 weeks I'm going to Toronto for a conference.

This morning my jeans are cutting off the circulation to my belly button.

This morning I weighed myself.

This morning I was 198.6 pounds.

This morning I'm starting anew.

This morning I am not just going with "Just for Today I Choose" as my mantra.  This morning I am going with "Just for this HOUR I choose".

3 weeks.

Watch this space.

Have an inspired day My Friend.

I'll touch base in 2 weeks.


Tam

Friday, December 16, 2016

Tis the Season ...

Hey Girlfriend!

Almost read for Christmas?  I am and I'm not.  All the shopping had been done since Dec 1 but I can't start the wrapping until I get those 90 Christmas cards in the mail!  I'm done about 60 of them.  I'll get the rest done this morning so I can move on!

Now.  Let's get real.  Healthy Living?  Ya no.  Quite the shit show going on this week, I have to admit!  I KNEW it was a mistake to do all that yummy baking with the girls last weekend.  Ugh.  I THOUGHT I could do it.  I THOUGHT I could have cookies, marshmallow logs and butter tarts in the house and resist.  I was wrong.  WTF is WRONG with me????  I DO find the psychology of it all very interesting.  I start the day off right.  Every.  Single.  Morning.  I have a nutritious shake.  I am proud of myself and have grand visions of working out, eating right and staying in control.  I actually DID work out twice this week.  Monday and Tuesday.  Lunch rolls around.  I have a healthy one.  Then, around 3:00 the kids are home.  Two day in a row they didn't eat their marshmallow rolls … so I did.  Then dinner happens.  I eat my dinner … too MUCH dinner … then I have a butter tart … and maybe a cookie.  Well … why stop now?  Might as well have a handful of M&M's.  Did someone say popcorn?  I'm in!

Sigh.

Yesterday I was better.  Had a wee chat with myself.  Do NOT wanna gain back the 10 I lost this year so I reeled it in.  I was still far from perfect. I still overate at dinner but I resisted all the baking.  "Just for Today", I kept telling myself.  Around 8:00 I was trolling through the pantry for something yummy.  I had an Isagenix chocolate instead of the butter tart.  Just for today.

Today I feel stronger, knowing I made better choices yesterday.  Again, the psychology interests me.  When the downward slide starts it picks up momentum and I (use to) slide for a week … or a month.  Now I recognize the slide and CHOOSE to stop it.  Sure, it took me two days to stop it but it's better than a week or a month.  Once I start the UPWARD slide (by that I don't mean a tedious uphill climb but rather a positive slide) it TOO gains momentum.  Yesterday was tough but I was strong … and today I feel stronger.  SO much of success is in our self-talk and attitude.  I have been a little harder on myself this week when I look in the mirror.  I'm very wide!  That is the truth … but I recognize it as fact .. then say something nice to myself about my curves … realize thousands of women would love to have these curves!

So today … just for today … I'm going to do my best.  I'm going to try to avoid the treats and drink my water.  I'm going to try to make healthy choices … but I'm also going to enjoy the season without the guilt.  I do plan to have popcorn with a movie tonight with the family.  I do plan to have some "naughty food" at the Open House we're going to on Sunday.  But I also plan to be kind to myself.  I plan to plan moderation … and I plan to maintain.  i'm not chucking in the towel and I WILL do better in the new year. Until then I plan to enjoy and give myself a break.

I hope you are enjoying the run up to Christmas!  It only happens once a year (I'm a little glad about that *lol*)  Stay warm, Girlfriend and I'll ttys  xoxo


Tam

Thursday, December 8, 2016

Just Keep Swimming ...

Hey Girlfriend!

Figured it was high time I posted! … plus I'm procrastinating on what I SHOULD be doing, which is prepping for my kid's class in a few hours.  Meh.  It'll get done!

So!  How am I doing?  Pretty good, I'd say.  Did I hit my goal of 187 by Dec 1st?  Nope.  Not even close.  Weighed myself this morning.  192.8.  Am I happy?  Yup.  Very!  Why?  A few reasons.  The main one is that I'm MAINTAINING!  Why I'm happy about THAT is because I've been slipping a bit - at least in my mind.  By maintaining it's allowing me to let go of the beating-myself-up-for-having-a-cookie mentality I've had for so many years.  I'm allowing myself the odd nibble or treat here and there.  I'm VERY proud that I have a LITTLE.  Not 5 cookies (which happened in the past more than I would like to admit!) but ONE cookie.  Or ONE chocolate .. controlled.  I enjoy and then move on.  Every morning I have a "new" day clean piece of paper.  I almost always have my shake for breakfast.  If I'm home I have a healthy lunch - if not a protein bar.  I'm slipping on my pre-dinner snacking (eating the kids' lunch leftovers .. which really is gross, when I think about it …) and I overeat at dinner.  I eat my HEALTHY dinner … but can't seem to resist the kids uneaten food.  Again - gross.  On the bright side, despite me eating too much it is still much less than in the past.  Where I get disappointed in myself is that the kids' food isn't the healthy choice.  Better for me to eat more quinoa than the kids' breaded chicken strip.  Again - not disastrous and at least I recognize the error of my ways *lol*.  I know, a gal can't live on kale and quinoa alone … but there is not good reason for me to be eating what I am.  I'm not hungry and, truth be told, it usually isn't even that tasty!  I do like the clean foods!  Heck, yesterday I made fried zucchini in some olive oil with Craig's home-grow garlic, salt and pepper.  Had two eggs to go with it.  De-LICIOUS!  It's odd that I'm "good" when I'm alone but "Naughty" when the family is around.  I'm sure a psychologist would have a few thoughts on THAT! *lol*
So!  What's the plan for December?  Well - there will definitely be a few "cheats".  Going for lunch next week with friends, movie ad drinks with friends and baking tarts.  Craig will be making his baklava and .. well … on it goes.  It's Christmas.  I'm gunna enjoy.  My goal is to MAINTAIN through it all!  I just got my new Country Heat DVD (for the send time - the first one got lost somewhere in the house somewhere before I even OPENED it!).  I'm excited to try it out … and Becca said she'd do it with me.

I'm moving more, eating healthier and feeling pretty good overall.  Think my hormones are all OVER the place with pre-menapause … given Aunt Flo hasn't been around for a few months so pretty sure that's going to stall any real gain, despite any efforts to lose.

Whatever.  January always brings me 2 or 3 months of free time in the morning so I plan to exercise a lot more.  Only 30 weeks until the big 5-0 … would like to be down at least 30 pounds by then.  It's a tall order so I need to dig deeper very soon!

Gotta run - time to take Leeshy to school.

Have a great day.  Stay warm - TTYS  xo


Tam