Hey Girlfriend!
Right. Enough is enough already! Time to give my head a shake and get real again! So remember last post I was all proud about how "good" I was? Rocking the clean eating, healthy choices etc etc. Ya. Well I don't know WTF goes on in my head but I'm seeing a pattern … every time I make a post like that I go off the rails! What. The. Fuck??? I've seen this pattern in me before. I lose a few pounds, I eat. Is it celebrate eating? Is it sabotage eating? WTF??? Someone mentions I'm looking good, or asks if I've lost weight … I go off the rails! So I posted last week and then started sliding! Oh I'd START the day off right, with a shake but then, usually mid afternoon I'd have a treat of some sort. Now I WILL admit I think SOME of it was stress eating. My schedule was all out of whack with Rebecca and all health issues and appointments. No excuse. Grow up! Get a grip!
Tomorrow is November 1st. I need a mini goal. That mini goal is to eat "to plan" (meaning healthy choices, stay out of the Halloween toxins!) from Monday to Friday. The "bigger goal" is December 1st. To make thing realistic I am striving to be 187 by December 1. This morning I weighed myself just so I had a starting point. 195. All good. I'm floating between 192 and 195. Haven't been drinking enough water etc etc. I figure 187 is doable and reasonable. I got this.
So! JUST FOR TODAY I choose to have a shake for breakfast, bar for lunch and cucumbers for snack. I choose to have a SMALL bowl of my taco soup for dinner … and JUST FOR TODAY I am committing to not having even ONE piece of Halloween Shit!
Right. Gotta run. I'm starving! Shake, tidy, walk Doodles, GO!
Have a great day Girlfriend. Stay awesome!
Tam
Monday, October 31, 2016
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Still Here!
Hey Girlfriend! Yes, I'm still here.
Been MEANING to post for a few days but the days have just been flying by! My calendar swings between totally empty and totally full. On the empty days I have great plans to get x, y, z done but instead j, p, c gets done. You know me - do everything but what NEEDS to be done! All good. I always seem to manage to get 'er done eventually!
Let's see …. when last we chatted I was just getting over my coughing "thing". I was more or less better by Wednesday so decided to do a ONE day cleanse on Friday. Ugh. I really really REALLY can't stand the products I have to take on a cleanse day … other than the chocolates I get (super yum!) After whining to Wanda about the "Scooby Snacks", as I call them, we found a way to make them yummy. They are not-so-little chocolate (or vanilla or berry) "candy". They are VERY chalky and I can't bear them. I'd rather go hungry than eat them but they are necessary for maintaining blood sugar levels and I guess they have some protein in them. I mentioned maybe I could smash them into a powder, add some water and "shoot" it. Wanda remembered seeing a hot chocolate recipe using them. Yes, smash two or three of the snacks, add one ore chocolates we get and add hot water. It was YUMMY! So THAT part was conquered without gagging. The only other thing I can't bear is the Cleanse For Life "gack", as I call it. Truly horrible. I almost can't keep it down … and I have to take it 4 times during the day. It turns into 8 times for me because I take one scoop, add a bit of water and shoot it … then do the second scoop, add some water and shoot it. Seriously. The last shot of the day almost came back up. SO yuck! Now I don't actually get hungry on cleanse days but I DO get SOOOOO bitchy! Im fine until about 6:00 pm and then I morph into a very, very angry woman! *lol*. I had stamp class Friday night and the gals were sure to move the scissors away from me! SERIOUSLY bitchy!!
I was glad when Saturday morning rolled around. I started the day off with my usual shake and life was good. Craig and I went to a "beginners course for making sausage" class … so I did have a home-made sausage. When we got home I decided against another shake - I kind craved actual chewing! I didn't eat BADLY but not the BEST choices. I had a bit of left over pasta and just kind of snacked throughout the day. At dinner I fried up some pea pods, peppers and onions. I confess I *might* have had 3 mini chocolate bars from the Halloween stash … and then I *might* have had a small glass of wine … alate snack of 2 eggs (i had no protein at dinner so was hungry) and then *might* have had a bowl of Boom Chicka Pop popcorn before bed. In hindsight that was NOT a good combo of food products!!! I HAD to get up at 6:30 am with … shall we say "issues". Shall we also say I had "issues" ALL day (at least 8 "issues") and by bedtime was not a happy bunny. I was in a bad frame of mind, super tired, whiny, cranky and fed up. I was pretty convinced I would never do another cleanse and started seriously wondering WTH I was doing to my body on this plan! I texted Wanda. She talked me off the ledge and said it WASN'T uncommon to have "issues" like I was today. Everyone is different and it appears I have/had a lot of toxins. She pointed out Ive lost weight and inches (I'm now 192 pounds, so down almost 12 pounds in 30 days). I asked when I was gunna start feeling GOOD as everyone always seems to say they feel. I felt good the first week - the let 3 I've felt like CRAP and it was making me cranky! We agreed I would just stay the course and get some sleep.
Yes, everything seemed better in the morning. Actually, I'm quite happy to say that have FINALLY started feeling pretty good! Yes, I do have more energy and walk Koda a lot faster than I did a month ago (but I'm pretty sure that's mainly due to the caffeine in the one pill I take). I HAVE lost weight and inches. My knees AREN'T as sore (even though it'n "only" 12 pounds). I still don't sleep well but I do feel SO much lighter! I'm WAY less bloated and haven't had gas since I started. I do like the way I feel … so I'm gunna keep going :)
I have been eating REALLY healthy and NO snacking! I haven't been hungry. I'm not drinking as much water as I should but, to be honest, I'm sick of going to the bathroom 100 times a day and/or peeing every time I sneeze! I manage 1.5 - 2 litres a day. If I'm home all day I drink more (cause there's a toilet near by!) but other than that I'm cutting back in the day.
My portions have been great. My snacks have been ridiculously healthy and I have't been snacking in the evenings. I just haven't wanted to! I haven't had the kids leftovers and I haven't had desserts. It's crazy! After dinner I usually WANT more food (not because i'm hungry but because I lie to eat!) but instead of seconds or dessert I boil the kettle while washing the dishes and then sit with a cup of tea. Distracts me long enough to stay out of the fridge and mindless eating. Score!
So - yes, I'm down to 192. I REALLY want to hit 190 … and to be honest am surprised Im not that already. My stomach is much flatter and the jeans are loose. I'm not dwelling or obsessing - it will come - but I want to be at that 190 mark very soon. I'm actually WANTING to start exercising soon - my schedule is pretty nuts until November 2nd but after that I want to start my DVDs again.
So there you have it! I'm on a roll and am making progress. Losing some weight and CRUSHING the healthy eating! Well on my way to a healthier me. Can't wait to see what the next 30 days brings!
Hope you're well - I'll update again when I have something to report.
TTYL - have great evening! <3
Tam
Been MEANING to post for a few days but the days have just been flying by! My calendar swings between totally empty and totally full. On the empty days I have great plans to get x, y, z done but instead j, p, c gets done. You know me - do everything but what NEEDS to be done! All good. I always seem to manage to get 'er done eventually!
Let's see …. when last we chatted I was just getting over my coughing "thing". I was more or less better by Wednesday so decided to do a ONE day cleanse on Friday. Ugh. I really really REALLY can't stand the products I have to take on a cleanse day … other than the chocolates I get (super yum!) After whining to Wanda about the "Scooby Snacks", as I call them, we found a way to make them yummy. They are not-so-little chocolate (or vanilla or berry) "candy". They are VERY chalky and I can't bear them. I'd rather go hungry than eat them but they are necessary for maintaining blood sugar levels and I guess they have some protein in them. I mentioned maybe I could smash them into a powder, add some water and "shoot" it. Wanda remembered seeing a hot chocolate recipe using them. Yes, smash two or three of the snacks, add one ore chocolates we get and add hot water. It was YUMMY! So THAT part was conquered without gagging. The only other thing I can't bear is the Cleanse For Life "gack", as I call it. Truly horrible. I almost can't keep it down … and I have to take it 4 times during the day. It turns into 8 times for me because I take one scoop, add a bit of water and shoot it … then do the second scoop, add some water and shoot it. Seriously. The last shot of the day almost came back up. SO yuck! Now I don't actually get hungry on cleanse days but I DO get SOOOOO bitchy! Im fine until about 6:00 pm and then I morph into a very, very angry woman! *lol*. I had stamp class Friday night and the gals were sure to move the scissors away from me! SERIOUSLY bitchy!!
I was glad when Saturday morning rolled around. I started the day off with my usual shake and life was good. Craig and I went to a "beginners course for making sausage" class … so I did have a home-made sausage. When we got home I decided against another shake - I kind craved actual chewing! I didn't eat BADLY but not the BEST choices. I had a bit of left over pasta and just kind of snacked throughout the day. At dinner I fried up some pea pods, peppers and onions. I confess I *might* have had 3 mini chocolate bars from the Halloween stash … and then I *might* have had a small glass of wine … alate snack of 2 eggs (i had no protein at dinner so was hungry) and then *might* have had a bowl of Boom Chicka Pop popcorn before bed. In hindsight that was NOT a good combo of food products!!! I HAD to get up at 6:30 am with … shall we say "issues". Shall we also say I had "issues" ALL day (at least 8 "issues") and by bedtime was not a happy bunny. I was in a bad frame of mind, super tired, whiny, cranky and fed up. I was pretty convinced I would never do another cleanse and started seriously wondering WTH I was doing to my body on this plan! I texted Wanda. She talked me off the ledge and said it WASN'T uncommon to have "issues" like I was today. Everyone is different and it appears I have/had a lot of toxins. She pointed out Ive lost weight and inches (I'm now 192 pounds, so down almost 12 pounds in 30 days). I asked when I was gunna start feeling GOOD as everyone always seems to say they feel. I felt good the first week - the let 3 I've felt like CRAP and it was making me cranky! We agreed I would just stay the course and get some sleep.
Yes, everything seemed better in the morning. Actually, I'm quite happy to say that have FINALLY started feeling pretty good! Yes, I do have more energy and walk Koda a lot faster than I did a month ago (but I'm pretty sure that's mainly due to the caffeine in the one pill I take). I HAVE lost weight and inches. My knees AREN'T as sore (even though it'n "only" 12 pounds). I still don't sleep well but I do feel SO much lighter! I'm WAY less bloated and haven't had gas since I started. I do like the way I feel … so I'm gunna keep going :)
I have been eating REALLY healthy and NO snacking! I haven't been hungry. I'm not drinking as much water as I should but, to be honest, I'm sick of going to the bathroom 100 times a day and/or peeing every time I sneeze! I manage 1.5 - 2 litres a day. If I'm home all day I drink more (cause there's a toilet near by!) but other than that I'm cutting back in the day.
My portions have been great. My snacks have been ridiculously healthy and I have't been snacking in the evenings. I just haven't wanted to! I haven't had the kids leftovers and I haven't had desserts. It's crazy! After dinner I usually WANT more food (not because i'm hungry but because I lie to eat!) but instead of seconds or dessert I boil the kettle while washing the dishes and then sit with a cup of tea. Distracts me long enough to stay out of the fridge and mindless eating. Score!
So - yes, I'm down to 192. I REALLY want to hit 190 … and to be honest am surprised Im not that already. My stomach is much flatter and the jeans are loose. I'm not dwelling or obsessing - it will come - but I want to be at that 190 mark very soon. I'm actually WANTING to start exercising soon - my schedule is pretty nuts until November 2nd but after that I want to start my DVDs again.
So there you have it! I'm on a roll and am making progress. Losing some weight and CRUSHING the healthy eating! Well on my way to a healthier me. Can't wait to see what the next 30 days brings!
Hope you're well - I'll update again when I have something to report.
TTYL - have great evening! <3
Tam
Saturday, October 15, 2016
Still going strong ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Nothing too epic to report … just keeping on keeping on!
I've been sick as all get out the week with this stupid cough! Well, I SAY sick but I DID got to the doctor Wednesday and, according to her, I'm NOT sick. Ohhhhhh Kayyyyyyy. I was all over my "detoxing, not sick" theory but this has been going on for over a week now. Yesterday I think I may have coughed up my spleen … so I"m starting to think I may be sick after all. Whatever. Doesn't really matter … as long as my back doesn't go out (which I can't believe hasn't happened yet!) On the bright side my tummy muscles are getting QUITE the workout! I have a yummy cough syrup to take at bedtime - it has codeine in it. Apparently I really LIKE codeine! lol. I'll get there … Every day I think I'm a little better …. although Craig disagrees and whilst he was VERY patient and empathetic the first few days he is now ready for me to be done this gig!
So … how has this all affected my master health plan? It really hasn't! … aside from the fact that I can't do a cleanse until I'm 100% again (too hard on the body).
I am thrilled to report I have been 100% NAILING the healthy eating! Shake for breakfast, either a shake, a bar or a super healthy lunch and controlled, reasonable dinners! No snacking either! All week I have had the opportunity to eat crap (leftover potato chips and candy from Alicia's party, ice-cream, girl guide cookies, Costco sized bag of M&M peanuts AND HAlloween chocolate!) but I haven't had ANY! No, I don't have massive amounts of willpower. I don't WANT it! It's the weirdest thing! Historically, I RARELY eat or snack because I'm hungry. I usually do so because I'm bored or procrastinating on something. I also like to mindlessly pop Smarties in my mouth while crafting. This week … nuthin! Wanda TOLD me that on Isagenix you wouldn't have cravings. I didn't think much of it as I don't usually CRAVE the crap .. I just eat it! This week that hasn't happened. the BIGGEST surprise was Tuesday. I made ribs for dinner. Ribs have always been one of my favourites. I boil the ribs for a few hours. I then LOVE to have a few of them just freshly out of the pot (yes, just boiled meat) with some salt and pepper. I then usually have one when I put the sauce on … and then of course about 5 with dinner. So Tuesday I boiled them up. I ad a little nibble (like one bite) of the boiled meat. It was ok … didn't have more. Did't sneak any pre-dinner. Had 6 with dinner. Blech! I ATE them .. but as I was nearing the end I realized (when I slowed down and actually though about the taste) I wasn't really enjoying them! Afterwords I felt GROSS! SO greasy/fatty and heavy!! I guess my tastes/loves for fatty foods is changing. I guess I should be happy about that … I just don't know how to sea with it! lol. I've ALWAYS loved fatty foods - especially FAT! Steak fat, bacon fat, pork fat. Wow. This new me is going to take a whir to get to know! The way I SEE myself is starting to change. I'm starting to be one of "those" people. The ones who make good choices all the time … because they truly LIKE the healthy food.
Humph. Who'd'a'thunk?
(Oh! FY 0 weighed myself today as my jeans almost literally fall down when I walk now. I was 195.6. Thought I'd be less … but all good. My system isn't right this week - little "backed up" and Aunt Flo is just leaving … not sure why I stepped on the scale, actually but it's ok. I'm not bothered by it … just confirming I'm down from where I started.)
Off I go to start my Saturday. Craig is making hoe made hash browns and eggs. Hmmm. It IS the weekend … mane I'll have some eggs today.
Have a great weeked. TTYS!
Tam
Nothing too epic to report … just keeping on keeping on!
I've been sick as all get out the week with this stupid cough! Well, I SAY sick but I DID got to the doctor Wednesday and, according to her, I'm NOT sick. Ohhhhhh Kayyyyyyy. I was all over my "detoxing, not sick" theory but this has been going on for over a week now. Yesterday I think I may have coughed up my spleen … so I"m starting to think I may be sick after all. Whatever. Doesn't really matter … as long as my back doesn't go out (which I can't believe hasn't happened yet!) On the bright side my tummy muscles are getting QUITE the workout! I have a yummy cough syrup to take at bedtime - it has codeine in it. Apparently I really LIKE codeine! lol. I'll get there … Every day I think I'm a little better …. although Craig disagrees and whilst he was VERY patient and empathetic the first few days he is now ready for me to be done this gig!
So … how has this all affected my master health plan? It really hasn't! … aside from the fact that I can't do a cleanse until I'm 100% again (too hard on the body).
I am thrilled to report I have been 100% NAILING the healthy eating! Shake for breakfast, either a shake, a bar or a super healthy lunch and controlled, reasonable dinners! No snacking either! All week I have had the opportunity to eat crap (leftover potato chips and candy from Alicia's party, ice-cream, girl guide cookies, Costco sized bag of M&M peanuts AND HAlloween chocolate!) but I haven't had ANY! No, I don't have massive amounts of willpower. I don't WANT it! It's the weirdest thing! Historically, I RARELY eat or snack because I'm hungry. I usually do so because I'm bored or procrastinating on something. I also like to mindlessly pop Smarties in my mouth while crafting. This week … nuthin! Wanda TOLD me that on Isagenix you wouldn't have cravings. I didn't think much of it as I don't usually CRAVE the crap .. I just eat it! This week that hasn't happened. the BIGGEST surprise was Tuesday. I made ribs for dinner. Ribs have always been one of my favourites. I boil the ribs for a few hours. I then LOVE to have a few of them just freshly out of the pot (yes, just boiled meat) with some salt and pepper. I then usually have one when I put the sauce on … and then of course about 5 with dinner. So Tuesday I boiled them up. I ad a little nibble (like one bite) of the boiled meat. It was ok … didn't have more. Did't sneak any pre-dinner. Had 6 with dinner. Blech! I ATE them .. but as I was nearing the end I realized (when I slowed down and actually though about the taste) I wasn't really enjoying them! Afterwords I felt GROSS! SO greasy/fatty and heavy!! I guess my tastes/loves for fatty foods is changing. I guess I should be happy about that … I just don't know how to sea with it! lol. I've ALWAYS loved fatty foods - especially FAT! Steak fat, bacon fat, pork fat. Wow. This new me is going to take a whir to get to know! The way I SEE myself is starting to change. I'm starting to be one of "those" people. The ones who make good choices all the time … because they truly LIKE the healthy food.
Humph. Who'd'a'thunk?
(Oh! FY 0 weighed myself today as my jeans almost literally fall down when I walk now. I was 195.6. Thought I'd be less … but all good. My system isn't right this week - little "backed up" and Aunt Flo is just leaving … not sure why I stepped on the scale, actually but it's ok. I'm not bothered by it … just confirming I'm down from where I started.)
Off I go to start my Saturday. Craig is making hoe made hash browns and eggs. Hmmm. It IS the weekend … mane I'll have some eggs today.
Have a great weeked. TTYS!
Tam
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Post Thanksgiving Post
Hey Girlfriend!
Just a quickie before I wake the kids …
So I went into the weekend with a good state of mind … until about 7:00 pm Friday night *lol*. Gunna admit I had a *few* gummies and candies that were staring me down at Alicia's birthday party. I also had a teeny tiny piece of pizza.
I was a little mad t myself for eating the candy. Did't care about the calories but rather that I had just cleansed my body of a tonne of toxins and then willingly put those little bombs of sugary poison in my mouth.
Then I go over it.
Rome wasn't built in a day. Given that I've been AWESOME for 2 weeks I didn't dwell. I now know a lot of the reason was that Aunt Flo was on her way. I sense that Saturday and Sunday when I craved carbs. For the most part I resisted. Friday, I think I mentioned, I was getting sick … or detoxing - wasn't sure which. I might have to admit I am/was sick. Saturday I slept ALL DAY! Seriously! Haven't done that since I was in my 20s! I obviously needed it! I didn't have shakes but made mostly good choices.
Sunday was Thanksgiving. I was SO "good". I didn't deprive myself but passed on wine (not really into alcohol), has 1 bite of pumpkin pie and passed on potatoes. I had mainly veg and a bit of turkey. Only "cheat" was that the veg were all swimming in butter … but hey! You have to have fat, right? lol
Yesterday I did have a shake for breakfast but I did have some unnecessary food in the day - half a bun with butter (normally would be a whole one … or two) and MAYBE a few smarties. I blame Aunt Flo … and feeling sorry for my sick self!
The plan was to do a one-day cleans starting Thursday but it's not advised to cleanse when you are sick so I'll be laying it by ear. As much as the cleanse tastes yuck Im kind of looking forward to it. I DID feel lighter and less toxic and think I could use another system reboot.
Today the plan is a shake for breakfast AND lunch - and no candy for SURE. I have LOTS of cucumbers in the fridge so no excuses. I've got this!
Gotta run - TTYS
have a great day! xox
Tam
Just a quickie before I wake the kids …
So I went into the weekend with a good state of mind … until about 7:00 pm Friday night *lol*. Gunna admit I had a *few* gummies and candies that were staring me down at Alicia's birthday party. I also had a teeny tiny piece of pizza.
I was a little mad t myself for eating the candy. Did't care about the calories but rather that I had just cleansed my body of a tonne of toxins and then willingly put those little bombs of sugary poison in my mouth.
Then I go over it.
Rome wasn't built in a day. Given that I've been AWESOME for 2 weeks I didn't dwell. I now know a lot of the reason was that Aunt Flo was on her way. I sense that Saturday and Sunday when I craved carbs. For the most part I resisted. Friday, I think I mentioned, I was getting sick … or detoxing - wasn't sure which. I might have to admit I am/was sick. Saturday I slept ALL DAY! Seriously! Haven't done that since I was in my 20s! I obviously needed it! I didn't have shakes but made mostly good choices.
Sunday was Thanksgiving. I was SO "good". I didn't deprive myself but passed on wine (not really into alcohol), has 1 bite of pumpkin pie and passed on potatoes. I had mainly veg and a bit of turkey. Only "cheat" was that the veg were all swimming in butter … but hey! You have to have fat, right? lol
Yesterday I did have a shake for breakfast but I did have some unnecessary food in the day - half a bun with butter (normally would be a whole one … or two) and MAYBE a few smarties. I blame Aunt Flo … and feeling sorry for my sick self!
The plan was to do a one-day cleans starting Thursday but it's not advised to cleanse when you are sick so I'll be laying it by ear. As much as the cleanse tastes yuck Im kind of looking forward to it. I DID feel lighter and less toxic and think I could use another system reboot.
Today the plan is a shake for breakfast AND lunch - and no candy for SURE. I have LOTS of cucumbers in the fridge so no excuses. I've got this!
Gotta run - TTYS
have a great day! xox
Tam
Friday, October 7, 2016
Ugh...
Hey Girlfriend.
I lied. Posting today. Sitting here drinking my chocolate and berry shake ... kinda a gross combo ... but tolerable. Next time I'll use vanilla powder instead.
Speaking of gross, that's how I feel today. Not just gross but like a flaming pile of poo. My chest feels like I was in a smoky bar all night. Ugh. Funny thing is I'm not sick! No cold, no other symptoms - just a super crazy tight chest.
I figure I'm detoxing BIG time.
Maybe I'm wrong, but that;s my theory ... since I don't DO sick!
Started to feel a little ick Wednesday - after my cleanse. Figured I wouldn't feel great - not a big deal, though - just a slight tinge of a sore throat. Yesterday I could feel the vice taking hold and some coughing. This morning I sound like a man. Sexy? Doubtful *lol*. Doesnt help that I didn't get to sleep until around 3:00 am! That is VERY unusual for me. I usually fall asleep the second my head hits the pillow (and then wake UP around 3 am). Last night was BRUTAL! I dozed a little here and there but not a deep sleep. I got up at 2:00, took a shot of melatonin spray and feel asleep around 3:00. Again, feel like poo.
Wanda says yes people very often feel not-so-good the first few weeks on the plan as the system starts to detox and repair itself. I do recall when I tried this plan just over a year ago I got super sick. Seems too coincidental to happen twice ... a week after being on the plan. MUST be detoxing! Kinda makes sense that it's my lungs, too. Although I've had lung xrays and breathing tests done, and they came back fine, I DID smoke for 25 years! "They" say it takes about 7 years for the lungs to 100% repair/heal from smoking. I think the cleanse is trying to help that along. Good times.
I had assumed that I couldn't sleep because I took a "Natural Accelerator" pill at 4:00 pm - it works to increase your metabolism. Wanda says no, it shouldn't do that. When I read the ingredients list there doesn't seem to be caffein in it so I don't know WHAT last night was about.
Anyway - no time to feel sorry for myself (other than for the 10 minutes to post this!). Alicia has her birthday party and sleepover tonight. Give me strength! Hopefully I can get a nap in before the festivities start! Wish me luck!
So - just for today I choose to "stay the course", drink more water and "just keep swimming"!
I'll check in again soon. TTYL Girlfriend. Happy Friday! xox
Tam
Thursday, October 6, 2016
I did it again ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Popping in to share my successes … and a confession …
Yesterday was SO awesome on lots of levels. Alicia and I had a VERY nice, relaxing day at Kingsway. Of course we didn't GET there until 11:30 as my little "slug girl" (as we call them) slept in and I had to walk Koda before we left … so it was a late start but that's ok - we didn't have much to shop for anyway.
We headed right to the food court as Alicia hasn't eaten yet. She had her standard Double Buddy Burger with cheese, onion rings and root beer. I had 2 cucumber and an orange pepper with some water *lol*. The fast food didn't tempt me in the LEAST! Truth be told, as I mentioned yesterday, I often end up at Kingsway when I'm on some eating plan and I have TRIED to find healthy options there but, aside from bland salad (I LIKE slad but there rely aren't any GOOD ones I can find there!) there really aren't too many tasty, healthy options. I DID treat myself to the INSIDE onion of one onion ring .. and a half-a-pinkie-length piece of the batter. The onion was very greasy and Im very glad I just had a nibble. Satisfied my MIND (more than my tastebuds) and we moved on :)
I did super well at dinner, too. I felt like I had a bit too large a portion of spaghetti sauce … but also wanted to make sure I was getting ENOUGH calories in the day. It was probably a cup or a cup and half - seemed like an awful lot but may have been just because I hadn't eaten "real" food in 2 days. I also had a BIG salad to go with it. Even Alicia said it was really good. Crisp, fresh and yummy. After my cleanse the fresh veg tastes SO good to me. That excites me more than you know! I guess clean eating begets clean eating!
Instead of noodles (did NOT want to be gassy and bloated!) I was going to have spaghetti squash. I LOVE that stuff with ANYTHING on top - spaghettis sauce, just butter and salt and pepper or even a fried egg. SO yummy! When I was going through the fridge looking for sauce ingredients I stumbled across some yam noodles I bought about 1 - 2 months ago. They don't LOOK very appetizing but figured I'd at least OPEN them before they went bad and I was forced to throw them out. They SMELLED like fish when I opened them but I tasted one and it tasted like … nothing! Perfect! *lol*. I rinsed them off and boiled them for a minute. The whole package is only 10 calories. What???? I love the spongy/rubbery texture (my family would hate it!) and will definitely buy them again. I got them at the Lucky Supermarket on 97th and 137th. I haven't seen them at Sobeys but pretty sure most T&T ( the other Chinese Foods Supermarket) carries them as well. Here is what they look like …
I highly recommend trying these - especially if you are gluten / wheat intolerant!
So I was VERY happy with myself … and then 8:30 happened. Us gels went upstairs to watch an episode of Cake Wars before bed. Alicia made herself some Jiffy Pop popcorn we had left over from camping holidays. I didn't have any … until she said she was done and did I want some. Sigh. Popsorn is a bit of a weakness for me. I had some. No. I had a lot. Like half the bowl. I justified it at the time by saying I had probably not had more than about 1,000 calories. Maybe I had, I don't know exactly. Afterward I had eaters-guilt. Not because of the calories but because it was a crappy choice. Oh sure it wasn't a BIG deal - not like I had a greasy burger or half a cake but it was recessed popcorn with extra butter and salt. I had just finished cleaning out my system (and it wasn't easy!) so I punched myself once or twice over it.
Then I moved on.
Wasn't going to dwell.
Not dwelling now.
Remembering the bad mental feeling from that CHOICE and will learn from it moving forward. Yes, it was her birthday. Yes, it was a bit of a one-off. But I just ate too much of it - out of habit, I guess.
Moving on!
That wasn't even my confession! My confession is I weighed myself again this morning. Now I have a very good reason for that! I'm not obsession over the scale again - and the scale is now back in the downstairs bathroom so I'm not tempted to step on it. I consciously CHOSE to weigh myself. Why? I wanted to know how much water etc I had gained back after eating yesterday. My thought processes was … "what if I "gained" back a few pounds so I was "really", say 196. What if I then eat well all week and weigh myself again next Monday to see I'm, say 194. If I don't KNOW that I was up a few pounds today then I would think I hadn't lost anything after eating well and may be discouraged. If I weigh myself today then I'll know that, if I'm 194 next Monday I will have truly lost 2 pounds of fat".
Does that make sense? HArd to explain but I know what I mean.
So! I weighed myself expecting to be up about 1.5 - 2 pounds. Know what? I was only up .4! What?? I find that hard to believe but whatever. I WANT to be excited about that but keep telling myself it's not about the number. I felt RELLY good yesterday, and this morning. My pants are SO loose I was actually looking at new ones yesterday. (Too bad - I love these jeans!)
Today I will keep on keeping on. More water (I was down yesterday being out of the house most of the day), more of the fresh veg and a healthy dinner. Kinda liking this new eating gig I've got going on!
That's all I've got today - just wanted to share. Might check in again after Alicia's birthday party and/or Thanksgiving dinner just to brag about how awesome I was but if not I'll check in next week.
Love you Girlfriend. TTYS! xo
Tam
Popping in to share my successes … and a confession …
Yesterday was SO awesome on lots of levels. Alicia and I had a VERY nice, relaxing day at Kingsway. Of course we didn't GET there until 11:30 as my little "slug girl" (as we call them) slept in and I had to walk Koda before we left … so it was a late start but that's ok - we didn't have much to shop for anyway.
We headed right to the food court as Alicia hasn't eaten yet. She had her standard Double Buddy Burger with cheese, onion rings and root beer. I had 2 cucumber and an orange pepper with some water *lol*. The fast food didn't tempt me in the LEAST! Truth be told, as I mentioned yesterday, I often end up at Kingsway when I'm on some eating plan and I have TRIED to find healthy options there but, aside from bland salad (I LIKE slad but there rely aren't any GOOD ones I can find there!) there really aren't too many tasty, healthy options. I DID treat myself to the INSIDE onion of one onion ring .. and a half-a-pinkie-length piece of the batter. The onion was very greasy and Im very glad I just had a nibble. Satisfied my MIND (more than my tastebuds) and we moved on :)
I did super well at dinner, too. I felt like I had a bit too large a portion of spaghetti sauce … but also wanted to make sure I was getting ENOUGH calories in the day. It was probably a cup or a cup and half - seemed like an awful lot but may have been just because I hadn't eaten "real" food in 2 days. I also had a BIG salad to go with it. Even Alicia said it was really good. Crisp, fresh and yummy. After my cleanse the fresh veg tastes SO good to me. That excites me more than you know! I guess clean eating begets clean eating!
Instead of noodles (did NOT want to be gassy and bloated!) I was going to have spaghetti squash. I LOVE that stuff with ANYTHING on top - spaghettis sauce, just butter and salt and pepper or even a fried egg. SO yummy! When I was going through the fridge looking for sauce ingredients I stumbled across some yam noodles I bought about 1 - 2 months ago. They don't LOOK very appetizing but figured I'd at least OPEN them before they went bad and I was forced to throw them out. They SMELLED like fish when I opened them but I tasted one and it tasted like … nothing! Perfect! *lol*. I rinsed them off and boiled them for a minute. The whole package is only 10 calories. What???? I love the spongy/rubbery texture (my family would hate it!) and will definitely buy them again. I got them at the Lucky Supermarket on 97th and 137th. I haven't seen them at Sobeys but pretty sure most T&T ( the other Chinese Foods Supermarket) carries them as well. Here is what they look like …
So I was VERY happy with myself … and then 8:30 happened. Us gels went upstairs to watch an episode of Cake Wars before bed. Alicia made herself some Jiffy Pop popcorn we had left over from camping holidays. I didn't have any … until she said she was done and did I want some. Sigh. Popsorn is a bit of a weakness for me. I had some. No. I had a lot. Like half the bowl. I justified it at the time by saying I had probably not had more than about 1,000 calories. Maybe I had, I don't know exactly. Afterward I had eaters-guilt. Not because of the calories but because it was a crappy choice. Oh sure it wasn't a BIG deal - not like I had a greasy burger or half a cake but it was recessed popcorn with extra butter and salt. I had just finished cleaning out my system (and it wasn't easy!) so I punched myself once or twice over it.
Then I moved on.
Wasn't going to dwell.
Not dwelling now.
Remembering the bad mental feeling from that CHOICE and will learn from it moving forward. Yes, it was her birthday. Yes, it was a bit of a one-off. But I just ate too much of it - out of habit, I guess.
Moving on!
That wasn't even my confession! My confession is I weighed myself again this morning. Now I have a very good reason for that! I'm not obsession over the scale again - and the scale is now back in the downstairs bathroom so I'm not tempted to step on it. I consciously CHOSE to weigh myself. Why? I wanted to know how much water etc I had gained back after eating yesterday. My thought processes was … "what if I "gained" back a few pounds so I was "really", say 196. What if I then eat well all week and weigh myself again next Monday to see I'm, say 194. If I don't KNOW that I was up a few pounds today then I would think I hadn't lost anything after eating well and may be discouraged. If I weigh myself today then I'll know that, if I'm 194 next Monday I will have truly lost 2 pounds of fat".
Does that make sense? HArd to explain but I know what I mean.
So! I weighed myself expecting to be up about 1.5 - 2 pounds. Know what? I was only up .4! What?? I find that hard to believe but whatever. I WANT to be excited about that but keep telling myself it's not about the number. I felt RELLY good yesterday, and this morning. My pants are SO loose I was actually looking at new ones yesterday. (Too bad - I love these jeans!)
Today I will keep on keeping on. More water (I was down yesterday being out of the house most of the day), more of the fresh veg and a healthy dinner. Kinda liking this new eating gig I've got going on!
That's all I've got today - just wanted to share. Might check in again after Alicia's birthday party and/or Thanksgiving dinner just to brag about how awesome I was but if not I'll check in next week.
Love you Girlfriend. TTYS! xo
Tam
Wednesday, October 5, 2016
Fasting Results
Hey Girlfriend!
Is it wrong to have a piece of turkey breast first thing in the morning? *lol*. I have seriously thought of little else since Monday morning! It damn near KILLED me to make dinner for the family last night and practically sucked the skin right off my fingers after cutting up the turkey breast! I'm VERY happy the two-day fast is over!
"They" say Day 2 is supposed to be easier than Day 1. I didn't find that. I was ok until about 3:00 pm. It helped that I was out a large portion of the day (today is Alicia's birthday and I needed presents!) but once I got home I got more and more and more irritable! Was barking at everyone. It wasn't pretty! By 6:00 I couldn't take the anger anymore. I ate 2 small cucumbers … and I was better. It's true what the commercial says - "you aren't yourself when you're hungry"!
The family didn't "get" why I was putting myself through all that. Well … in an effort to detox, I suppose. I do think my body has been a toxic wasteland for the last year and wanted to clean up a bit. Now the challenge is to keep eating clean for the next week until my next cleanse. I had decided when I started this 30-Day Cleanse that I would do (3) two-day cleanses in the month. This is supposed to be the most effective way to reset the system. Now that I've done one round I'm really not sure if I will do another two day one or not. I may just do a one-day cleanse every week moving forward. I found day 1 easier in that I REALLY don't care for what I DO gt to put in my mouth (other than the delicious chocolates!). The drink is vile - I mix it with a splash of water and shoot it, followed my a glass of water to get rid of the taste. I didn't MIND the "Scooby Snacks" on day one but by the end of Day two I couldn't even eat one … I skipped the last round of "snacks". Aside from that I'm not sure if I can handle the mental aspect of it. Once again my obsessive nature was starting to rear it's ugly head. Come 6:00 pm I WANTED to eat but started to feel I had "failed" if I did. That's not good. I got a grip, realized I was being bitchy because I WANTED to eat but felt I SHOULDN'T. That's when things start to go off the rails. I can mange a one-day cleanse. Two days - not so sure. I've schedule my next one for next Thurs and Fri. I'll do one day and see where I'm at. I suspect I can make it until noon or dinner on the second day. We'll see.
So … the results.
Monday morning, if you'll recall, I weighed in at 198.4. This morning I was 193.6. So a loss of 4.8 pounds. Not BAD for a two day struggle! It's a 10.2 pound loss from last Monday morning. 10.2 pounds in 9 days. THAT I like!
I'm not going to get all stupid, though. I'm quite sure that one piece of turkey meat added back 2 pounds … so I won't be weighing myself again for a while! Ten pounds is great. I'm THRILLED to be fairly solidly under 200 … but that's just 1 week, partially water and not the main goal. So I'm gunna relax, keep doing my shakes for breakfast, shake and veg for lunch, healthy fruit/veg snacks and a really reasonable dinner moving forward. This week won't be "easy" in that Alicia and I have our "Mommy/Daughter Day Out" for her birthday. That ALWAYS means A&W for lunch for her. On the bright side I can't remember ever NOT being on some sort of diet on our day out so having a salad or protein bar instead of burger and fries won't be a problem for me. She wants spaghetti for dinner. No problem. Pasta for them, spaghettis squash for me. I really don't want to "gunk up" my system today. I KNOW I'd feel like crap if I ate badly today, of all days! Didn't starve for 2 days to go back to how things were!
It's also her Birthday party Friday/Saturday so lots of temptations … but pretty sure I can resist those. I don't even LIKE pizza and the thought of greasy junk food doesn't appeal to me at ALL!
Thanksgiving is this weekend as well. That means dinner at Mom's. No problem. Kinda gone off mashed potatoes so turkey and lots of veg for me.
Moderation is the key this week. I'm not "dieting" in my mind - I'm living healthily … without getting all crazy obsessed. I will eat slowly, monitor how I feel and if I want something I will think about if I REALLY want it, if its habit, or if it's worth having .. and then I will just have a few bites of it.
Im feeling really strong today. Focused and determined. I really DO want this to be my new lifestyle and way of eating. I'm changing my relationship with food and it feels awesome :)
Hope you're doing well - see you soon! xoxo
Tam
Is it wrong to have a piece of turkey breast first thing in the morning? *lol*. I have seriously thought of little else since Monday morning! It damn near KILLED me to make dinner for the family last night and practically sucked the skin right off my fingers after cutting up the turkey breast! I'm VERY happy the two-day fast is over!
"They" say Day 2 is supposed to be easier than Day 1. I didn't find that. I was ok until about 3:00 pm. It helped that I was out a large portion of the day (today is Alicia's birthday and I needed presents!) but once I got home I got more and more and more irritable! Was barking at everyone. It wasn't pretty! By 6:00 I couldn't take the anger anymore. I ate 2 small cucumbers … and I was better. It's true what the commercial says - "you aren't yourself when you're hungry"!
The family didn't "get" why I was putting myself through all that. Well … in an effort to detox, I suppose. I do think my body has been a toxic wasteland for the last year and wanted to clean up a bit. Now the challenge is to keep eating clean for the next week until my next cleanse. I had decided when I started this 30-Day Cleanse that I would do (3) two-day cleanses in the month. This is supposed to be the most effective way to reset the system. Now that I've done one round I'm really not sure if I will do another two day one or not. I may just do a one-day cleanse every week moving forward. I found day 1 easier in that I REALLY don't care for what I DO gt to put in my mouth (other than the delicious chocolates!). The drink is vile - I mix it with a splash of water and shoot it, followed my a glass of water to get rid of the taste. I didn't MIND the "Scooby Snacks" on day one but by the end of Day two I couldn't even eat one … I skipped the last round of "snacks". Aside from that I'm not sure if I can handle the mental aspect of it. Once again my obsessive nature was starting to rear it's ugly head. Come 6:00 pm I WANTED to eat but started to feel I had "failed" if I did. That's not good. I got a grip, realized I was being bitchy because I WANTED to eat but felt I SHOULDN'T. That's when things start to go off the rails. I can mange a one-day cleanse. Two days - not so sure. I've schedule my next one for next Thurs and Fri. I'll do one day and see where I'm at. I suspect I can make it until noon or dinner on the second day. We'll see.
So … the results.
Monday morning, if you'll recall, I weighed in at 198.4. This morning I was 193.6. So a loss of 4.8 pounds. Not BAD for a two day struggle! It's a 10.2 pound loss from last Monday morning. 10.2 pounds in 9 days. THAT I like!
I'm not going to get all stupid, though. I'm quite sure that one piece of turkey meat added back 2 pounds … so I won't be weighing myself again for a while! Ten pounds is great. I'm THRILLED to be fairly solidly under 200 … but that's just 1 week, partially water and not the main goal. So I'm gunna relax, keep doing my shakes for breakfast, shake and veg for lunch, healthy fruit/veg snacks and a really reasonable dinner moving forward. This week won't be "easy" in that Alicia and I have our "Mommy/Daughter Day Out" for her birthday. That ALWAYS means A&W for lunch for her. On the bright side I can't remember ever NOT being on some sort of diet on our day out so having a salad or protein bar instead of burger and fries won't be a problem for me. She wants spaghetti for dinner. No problem. Pasta for them, spaghettis squash for me. I really don't want to "gunk up" my system today. I KNOW I'd feel like crap if I ate badly today, of all days! Didn't starve for 2 days to go back to how things were!
It's also her Birthday party Friday/Saturday so lots of temptations … but pretty sure I can resist those. I don't even LIKE pizza and the thought of greasy junk food doesn't appeal to me at ALL!
Thanksgiving is this weekend as well. That means dinner at Mom's. No problem. Kinda gone off mashed potatoes so turkey and lots of veg for me.
Moderation is the key this week. I'm not "dieting" in my mind - I'm living healthily … without getting all crazy obsessed. I will eat slowly, monitor how I feel and if I want something I will think about if I REALLY want it, if its habit, or if it's worth having .. and then I will just have a few bites of it.
Im feeling really strong today. Focused and determined. I really DO want this to be my new lifestyle and way of eating. I'm changing my relationship with food and it feels awesome :)
Hope you're doing well - see you soon! xoxo
Tam
Monday, October 3, 2016
Here We Go ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Just thought I'd do a quick "heidi ho" and checkin as today I'm starting my two day deep cleanse. I've done this cleanse before but I can't remember if I did a one day or two day gig. I DO remember it was no big deal. I get to have "something" every two hours and I really wasn't hungry. Having said that I'm DYING for a hot drink but don't know what I can have. I know I can have "herbal decaf tea" but I don't know what that means! I have lots of decaf tea … and I have some organic decaf tea … but I want to see the words "organic herbal decaf tea" to make sure I don't have something I'm not supposed to. Guess I'll just have a glass of water .. or maybe hot water … rather than take the chance of doing it wrong!
I have a confession.
I weighed myself this morning.
I couldn't help it! I wanted to see what the cleanse would do for me so needed a starting point. Now I DID have a little chat with myself before I stepped on the scale. I told myself not to expect too much - it's only been a week. I did a self-assessment and figured (hoped?) I would be around 199.0 (when Wanda weighed me last Sunday I was 103.8). As always, I was pretty accurate (see? who needs a scale! I know my body VERY well! ..) … and the scale said 198.4. Pretty close to my 199 guess.
So there you have it. Week one down 5.4 pounds - maybe water - maybe fat - definitely mental baggage. Whatever the number I'm healthier than I was last Monday and made VERY good choices all week. Mission accomplished!
I'll check in again Wednesday with my post-cleanse weight.
Have a great day!
Tam
Just thought I'd do a quick "heidi ho" and checkin as today I'm starting my two day deep cleanse. I've done this cleanse before but I can't remember if I did a one day or two day gig. I DO remember it was no big deal. I get to have "something" every two hours and I really wasn't hungry. Having said that I'm DYING for a hot drink but don't know what I can have. I know I can have "herbal decaf tea" but I don't know what that means! I have lots of decaf tea … and I have some organic decaf tea … but I want to see the words "organic herbal decaf tea" to make sure I don't have something I'm not supposed to. Guess I'll just have a glass of water .. or maybe hot water … rather than take the chance of doing it wrong!
I have a confession.
I weighed myself this morning.
I couldn't help it! I wanted to see what the cleanse would do for me so needed a starting point. Now I DID have a little chat with myself before I stepped on the scale. I told myself not to expect too much - it's only been a week. I did a self-assessment and figured (hoped?) I would be around 199.0 (when Wanda weighed me last Sunday I was 103.8). As always, I was pretty accurate (see? who needs a scale! I know my body VERY well! ..) … and the scale said 198.4. Pretty close to my 199 guess.
So there you have it. Week one down 5.4 pounds - maybe water - maybe fat - definitely mental baggage. Whatever the number I'm healthier than I was last Monday and made VERY good choices all week. Mission accomplished!
I'll check in again Wednesday with my post-cleanse weight.
Have a great day!
Tam
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Practicing Patience ...
Hey Girlfriend!
I've been wanted to catch up all week but been too busy!! Just sitting here waiting for the kids to come home from grandma's house - my brother is in town. They totally adore him so spent the night over there to "hang with Unkey". It's been a lovely kid-free day!
SO! Let's talk about where I'm at with this new Isagenix journey of mine!
So far so good (although I must say I'm totally fighting the munchies today!)
I started the program Monday. I've stuck to two shakes a day - breakfast and lunch. I was just talking to Wanda (my health coach and cheerleader *lol*) telling her I'm SO glad I'm doing a 2-day cleanse starting tomorrow because if I have to have one more shake I might gag. Hee hee. Now don't get me wrong - up until today I've been totally on board with the shakes and/or bars. It actually was a GREAT week to start. I was so busy that I really didn't have time to stop for lunch so shakes and/or bars-on-the-go were just perfect for me! I had a stash of almonds in my purse, along with some of their healthy chocolates and snacks (Scooby Snacks as I call them!) I think three days I needed to dip into the almonds. Amazing how 8 little almonds can carry you over!! So. Shake for breakfast (2 scoops of the shake with 1 cup water; 1 scoop of some sort of other nutrient) then I add in half a banana, a few strawberries (or cinnamon) and 2 scoops of my new favourite thing "PB2", which is powdered peanut butter. LOVE it! A fraction of the fat and calories of regular peanut butter and help the flavour of the shakes immensely. I have to admit I really don't care for the taste of the shakes so if I can mask it I'm happy!
I've been drinking 2.5 litres of water a day and having ridiculously healthy snacks and dinners. Cucumbers, peppers, quinoa, salads … heck, I was out for dinner on Wednesday (Jubilations) and I actually ordered the FISH!! … moreover I took the dessert home for Alicia! Sheesh! Went out again last night to an Italian restaurant. I was beyond controlled having a teeny little piece of bread with some bruschetta, some soup and a salad! No pasta! Now that HAS to be a first for this carb whore! *lol*
Weekends I struggle to keep out of the munchies but so far so good. Tomorrow I start my 2 day deep cleanse. As I said, I'm looking forward to it.
I haven't weighed myself since starting - and I WANT to resist the urge to do so for the entire 30 days of this phase of the plan. I just don't want to know! Well .. I do … but I don't, if you know what I mean. I know I am WAY less bloated and I likely have lost a few pounds .. but, as I said to Wanda, I am NOT in this for weight loss. I'm in it for health - weight loss will be a benefit. I don't have any weight loss goals. I just want to feel better … and so far I do! So … as I said in my title I'm practicing patience .. in a lot of was. I'm being patient to let the process work and to cleanse the toxins out of my system. I'm being patient with myself if I stumble. The other day I had a (healthy) bowl of homemade tortellini soup. It was good but I felt like CRAP for the next 5 hours! I was SO thirsty (too much salt in it) and my guy blew up like a balloon. I'm being patient by trying different foods and then trying to gauge how I feel. Ate paste - felt shit. No more pasta - at least for a while! Maybe next time I'll try a corn pasta!
I'm being patient in tracking results. I WANT to jump on the scale and see I've lost 20 pounds. But that's not gunna happen. Aside from the fact that I can't lose that much that fast I don't want to jump on the scale and see I've only lot 2 pounds. That will mess with my head. The number doesn't matter, right? Truth be told I was looking in the mirror yesterday and thought I really didn't think I looked that much heavier at 200 than I did at 18 … so in my mind I'm 180. Don't the scale to confirm nor deny!
Right now the goal is to stick with this 30 day cleanse and then reassess. I think I can stick with the shakes ONCE a day - and maybe twice a day a few days a week … but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. Right now it's all about the healthy choices and I've totally nailed that part. Next up I want to increase my activity. My feet are more or less better, so I can walk .. but that bores me after a while and really, I don't WANT to walk for an hour a day, especially as it gets colder so one day soon I hope to press play on my pilates videos … not ready to commit to that quite yet. I'm still super busy with stamping, my brother in town, Alicia's birthday and on and on. Things slow down Dec 1st so I'll just take one day at a time until then and fit in what I can when I can. That's the secret to lifestyle change, right? Small, manageable changes. That's what I'm committed to … at least for today :)
Time to go baste the turkey .. hope you're well. I'll try to check in again next weekend. xoxo
Tam
I've been wanted to catch up all week but been too busy!! Just sitting here waiting for the kids to come home from grandma's house - my brother is in town. They totally adore him so spent the night over there to "hang with Unkey". It's been a lovely kid-free day!
SO! Let's talk about where I'm at with this new Isagenix journey of mine!
So far so good (although I must say I'm totally fighting the munchies today!)
I started the program Monday. I've stuck to two shakes a day - breakfast and lunch. I was just talking to Wanda (my health coach and cheerleader *lol*) telling her I'm SO glad I'm doing a 2-day cleanse starting tomorrow because if I have to have one more shake I might gag. Hee hee. Now don't get me wrong - up until today I've been totally on board with the shakes and/or bars. It actually was a GREAT week to start. I was so busy that I really didn't have time to stop for lunch so shakes and/or bars-on-the-go were just perfect for me! I had a stash of almonds in my purse, along with some of their healthy chocolates and snacks (Scooby Snacks as I call them!) I think three days I needed to dip into the almonds. Amazing how 8 little almonds can carry you over!! So. Shake for breakfast (2 scoops of the shake with 1 cup water; 1 scoop of some sort of other nutrient) then I add in half a banana, a few strawberries (or cinnamon) and 2 scoops of my new favourite thing "PB2", which is powdered peanut butter. LOVE it! A fraction of the fat and calories of regular peanut butter and help the flavour of the shakes immensely. I have to admit I really don't care for the taste of the shakes so if I can mask it I'm happy!
I've been drinking 2.5 litres of water a day and having ridiculously healthy snacks and dinners. Cucumbers, peppers, quinoa, salads … heck, I was out for dinner on Wednesday (Jubilations) and I actually ordered the FISH!! … moreover I took the dessert home for Alicia! Sheesh! Went out again last night to an Italian restaurant. I was beyond controlled having a teeny little piece of bread with some bruschetta, some soup and a salad! No pasta! Now that HAS to be a first for this carb whore! *lol*
Weekends I struggle to keep out of the munchies but so far so good. Tomorrow I start my 2 day deep cleanse. As I said, I'm looking forward to it.
I haven't weighed myself since starting - and I WANT to resist the urge to do so for the entire 30 days of this phase of the plan. I just don't want to know! Well .. I do … but I don't, if you know what I mean. I know I am WAY less bloated and I likely have lost a few pounds .. but, as I said to Wanda, I am NOT in this for weight loss. I'm in it for health - weight loss will be a benefit. I don't have any weight loss goals. I just want to feel better … and so far I do! So … as I said in my title I'm practicing patience .. in a lot of was. I'm being patient to let the process work and to cleanse the toxins out of my system. I'm being patient with myself if I stumble. The other day I had a (healthy) bowl of homemade tortellini soup. It was good but I felt like CRAP for the next 5 hours! I was SO thirsty (too much salt in it) and my guy blew up like a balloon. I'm being patient by trying different foods and then trying to gauge how I feel. Ate paste - felt shit. No more pasta - at least for a while! Maybe next time I'll try a corn pasta!
I'm being patient in tracking results. I WANT to jump on the scale and see I've lost 20 pounds. But that's not gunna happen. Aside from the fact that I can't lose that much that fast I don't want to jump on the scale and see I've only lot 2 pounds. That will mess with my head. The number doesn't matter, right? Truth be told I was looking in the mirror yesterday and thought I really didn't think I looked that much heavier at 200 than I did at 18 … so in my mind I'm 180. Don't the scale to confirm nor deny!
Right now the goal is to stick with this 30 day cleanse and then reassess. I think I can stick with the shakes ONCE a day - and maybe twice a day a few days a week … but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. Right now it's all about the healthy choices and I've totally nailed that part. Next up I want to increase my activity. My feet are more or less better, so I can walk .. but that bores me after a while and really, I don't WANT to walk for an hour a day, especially as it gets colder so one day soon I hope to press play on my pilates videos … not ready to commit to that quite yet. I'm still super busy with stamping, my brother in town, Alicia's birthday and on and on. Things slow down Dec 1st so I'll just take one day at a time until then and fit in what I can when I can. That's the secret to lifestyle change, right? Small, manageable changes. That's what I'm committed to … at least for today :)
Time to go baste the turkey .. hope you're well. I'll try to check in again next weekend. xoxo
Tam
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