Hey Girlfriend!
Happy Between-Christmas-and-New-Year!
I COULD ramble on and on and on … but I'm not gunna. Not very chatty these days (I know - NOT my norm! *lol*).
Let's just draw a line under the last two weeks.
Let's just recognize that Christmas is Christmas and (thank God) it's only once a year.
Let's just say I thoroughly enjoyed my butter tarts … and cookies … and fudge … and Craig's baklava … and chocolates … and egg nog … and bacon.
Let's just say I'm THRILLED that I no longer beat myself up over the not-so-good choices. Those were yesterday, those are over.
Let's just say Today is a New Day.
I had a bit of a pity party yesterday. Lack of sleep and achy body had me in a FOWL mood. This morning I bitch slapped myself. I made the choices. The unhealthy choices. Did I relaly expect good results from bad decisions? Did I really expect to maintain when eating my bodyweight in butter and fat? Did I really expect my jeans to fit the same as they did 2 weeks ago.
Seriously.
It's a New Day.
I got some good sleep. I DECIDED to get a grip. I DECIDED to have a better attitude and I DECIDED to do better.
In 3 weeks I'm going to Toronto for a conference.
This morning my jeans are cutting off the circulation to my belly button.
This morning I weighed myself.
This morning I was 198.6 pounds.
This morning I'm starting anew.
This morning I am not just going with "Just for Today I Choose" as my mantra. This morning I am going with "Just for this HOUR I choose".
3 weeks.
Watch this space.
Have an inspired day My Friend.
I'll touch base in 2 weeks.
Tam
Thursday, December 29, 2016
Friday, December 16, 2016
Tis the Season ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Almost read for Christmas? I am and I'm not. All the shopping had been done since Dec 1 but I can't start the wrapping until I get those 90 Christmas cards in the mail! I'm done about 60 of them. I'll get the rest done this morning so I can move on!
Now. Let's get real. Healthy Living? Ya no. Quite the shit show going on this week, I have to admit! I KNEW it was a mistake to do all that yummy baking with the girls last weekend. Ugh. I THOUGHT I could do it. I THOUGHT I could have cookies, marshmallow logs and butter tarts in the house and resist. I was wrong. WTF is WRONG with me???? I DO find the psychology of it all very interesting. I start the day off right. Every. Single. Morning. I have a nutritious shake. I am proud of myself and have grand visions of working out, eating right and staying in control. I actually DID work out twice this week. Monday and Tuesday. Lunch rolls around. I have a healthy one. Then, around 3:00 the kids are home. Two day in a row they didn't eat their marshmallow rolls … so I did. Then dinner happens. I eat my dinner … too MUCH dinner … then I have a butter tart … and maybe a cookie. Well … why stop now? Might as well have a handful of M&M's. Did someone say popcorn? I'm in!
Sigh.
Yesterday I was better. Had a wee chat with myself. Do NOT wanna gain back the 10 I lost this year so I reeled it in. I was still far from perfect. I still overate at dinner but I resisted all the baking. "Just for Today", I kept telling myself. Around 8:00 I was trolling through the pantry for something yummy. I had an Isagenix chocolate instead of the butter tart. Just for today.
Today I feel stronger, knowing I made better choices yesterday. Again, the psychology interests me. When the downward slide starts it picks up momentum and I (use to) slide for a week … or a month. Now I recognize the slide and CHOOSE to stop it. Sure, it took me two days to stop it but it's better than a week or a month. Once I start the UPWARD slide (by that I don't mean a tedious uphill climb but rather a positive slide) it TOO gains momentum. Yesterday was tough but I was strong … and today I feel stronger. SO much of success is in our self-talk and attitude. I have been a little harder on myself this week when I look in the mirror. I'm very wide! That is the truth … but I recognize it as fact .. then say something nice to myself about my curves … realize thousands of women would love to have these curves!
So today … just for today … I'm going to do my best. I'm going to try to avoid the treats and drink my water. I'm going to try to make healthy choices … but I'm also going to enjoy the season without the guilt. I do plan to have popcorn with a movie tonight with the family. I do plan to have some "naughty food" at the Open House we're going to on Sunday. But I also plan to be kind to myself. I plan to plan moderation … and I plan to maintain. i'm not chucking in the towel and I WILL do better in the new year. Until then I plan to enjoy and give myself a break.
I hope you are enjoying the run up to Christmas! It only happens once a year (I'm a little glad about that *lol*) Stay warm, Girlfriend and I'll ttys xoxo
Tam
Almost read for Christmas? I am and I'm not. All the shopping had been done since Dec 1 but I can't start the wrapping until I get those 90 Christmas cards in the mail! I'm done about 60 of them. I'll get the rest done this morning so I can move on!
Now. Let's get real. Healthy Living? Ya no. Quite the shit show going on this week, I have to admit! I KNEW it was a mistake to do all that yummy baking with the girls last weekend. Ugh. I THOUGHT I could do it. I THOUGHT I could have cookies, marshmallow logs and butter tarts in the house and resist. I was wrong. WTF is WRONG with me???? I DO find the psychology of it all very interesting. I start the day off right. Every. Single. Morning. I have a nutritious shake. I am proud of myself and have grand visions of working out, eating right and staying in control. I actually DID work out twice this week. Monday and Tuesday. Lunch rolls around. I have a healthy one. Then, around 3:00 the kids are home. Two day in a row they didn't eat their marshmallow rolls … so I did. Then dinner happens. I eat my dinner … too MUCH dinner … then I have a butter tart … and maybe a cookie. Well … why stop now? Might as well have a handful of M&M's. Did someone say popcorn? I'm in!
Sigh.
Yesterday I was better. Had a wee chat with myself. Do NOT wanna gain back the 10 I lost this year so I reeled it in. I was still far from perfect. I still overate at dinner but I resisted all the baking. "Just for Today", I kept telling myself. Around 8:00 I was trolling through the pantry for something yummy. I had an Isagenix chocolate instead of the butter tart. Just for today.
Today I feel stronger, knowing I made better choices yesterday. Again, the psychology interests me. When the downward slide starts it picks up momentum and I (use to) slide for a week … or a month. Now I recognize the slide and CHOOSE to stop it. Sure, it took me two days to stop it but it's better than a week or a month. Once I start the UPWARD slide (by that I don't mean a tedious uphill climb but rather a positive slide) it TOO gains momentum. Yesterday was tough but I was strong … and today I feel stronger. SO much of success is in our self-talk and attitude. I have been a little harder on myself this week when I look in the mirror. I'm very wide! That is the truth … but I recognize it as fact .. then say something nice to myself about my curves … realize thousands of women would love to have these curves!
So today … just for today … I'm going to do my best. I'm going to try to avoid the treats and drink my water. I'm going to try to make healthy choices … but I'm also going to enjoy the season without the guilt. I do plan to have popcorn with a movie tonight with the family. I do plan to have some "naughty food" at the Open House we're going to on Sunday. But I also plan to be kind to myself. I plan to plan moderation … and I plan to maintain. i'm not chucking in the towel and I WILL do better in the new year. Until then I plan to enjoy and give myself a break.
I hope you are enjoying the run up to Christmas! It only happens once a year (I'm a little glad about that *lol*) Stay warm, Girlfriend and I'll ttys xoxo
Tam
Thursday, December 8, 2016
Just Keep Swimming ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Figured it was high time I posted! … plus I'm procrastinating on what I SHOULD be doing, which is prepping for my kid's class in a few hours. Meh. It'll get done!
So! How am I doing? Pretty good, I'd say. Did I hit my goal of 187 by Dec 1st? Nope. Not even close. Weighed myself this morning. 192.8. Am I happy? Yup. Very! Why? A few reasons. The main one is that I'm MAINTAINING! Why I'm happy about THAT is because I've been slipping a bit - at least in my mind. By maintaining it's allowing me to let go of the beating-myself-up-for-having-a-cookie mentality I've had for so many years. I'm allowing myself the odd nibble or treat here and there. I'm VERY proud that I have a LITTLE. Not 5 cookies (which happened in the past more than I would like to admit!) but ONE cookie. Or ONE chocolate .. controlled. I enjoy and then move on. Every morning I have a "new" day clean piece of paper. I almost always have my shake for breakfast. If I'm home I have a healthy lunch - if not a protein bar. I'm slipping on my pre-dinner snacking (eating the kids' lunch leftovers .. which really is gross, when I think about it …) and I overeat at dinner. I eat my HEALTHY dinner … but can't seem to resist the kids uneaten food. Again - gross. On the bright side, despite me eating too much it is still much less than in the past. Where I get disappointed in myself is that the kids' food isn't the healthy choice. Better for me to eat more quinoa than the kids' breaded chicken strip. Again - not disastrous and at least I recognize the error of my ways *lol*. I know, a gal can't live on kale and quinoa alone … but there is not good reason for me to be eating what I am. I'm not hungry and, truth be told, it usually isn't even that tasty! I do like the clean foods! Heck, yesterday I made fried zucchini in some olive oil with Craig's home-grow garlic, salt and pepper. Had two eggs to go with it. De-LICIOUS! It's odd that I'm "good" when I'm alone but "Naughty" when the family is around. I'm sure a psychologist would have a few thoughts on THAT! *lol*
So! What's the plan for December? Well - there will definitely be a few "cheats". Going for lunch next week with friends, movie ad drinks with friends and baking tarts. Craig will be making his baklava and .. well … on it goes. It's Christmas. I'm gunna enjoy. My goal is to MAINTAIN through it all! I just got my new Country Heat DVD (for the send time - the first one got lost somewhere in the house somewhere before I even OPENED it!). I'm excited to try it out … and Becca said she'd do it with me.
I'm moving more, eating healthier and feeling pretty good overall. Think my hormones are all OVER the place with pre-menapause … given Aunt Flo hasn't been around for a few months so pretty sure that's going to stall any real gain, despite any efforts to lose.
Whatever. January always brings me 2 or 3 months of free time in the morning so I plan to exercise a lot more. Only 30 weeks until the big 5-0 … would like to be down at least 30 pounds by then. It's a tall order so I need to dig deeper very soon!
Gotta run - time to take Leeshy to school.
Have a great day. Stay warm - TTYS xo
Tam
Figured it was high time I posted! … plus I'm procrastinating on what I SHOULD be doing, which is prepping for my kid's class in a few hours. Meh. It'll get done!
So! How am I doing? Pretty good, I'd say. Did I hit my goal of 187 by Dec 1st? Nope. Not even close. Weighed myself this morning. 192.8. Am I happy? Yup. Very! Why? A few reasons. The main one is that I'm MAINTAINING! Why I'm happy about THAT is because I've been slipping a bit - at least in my mind. By maintaining it's allowing me to let go of the beating-myself-up-for-having-a-cookie mentality I've had for so many years. I'm allowing myself the odd nibble or treat here and there. I'm VERY proud that I have a LITTLE. Not 5 cookies (which happened in the past more than I would like to admit!) but ONE cookie. Or ONE chocolate .. controlled. I enjoy and then move on. Every morning I have a "new" day clean piece of paper. I almost always have my shake for breakfast. If I'm home I have a healthy lunch - if not a protein bar. I'm slipping on my pre-dinner snacking (eating the kids' lunch leftovers .. which really is gross, when I think about it …) and I overeat at dinner. I eat my HEALTHY dinner … but can't seem to resist the kids uneaten food. Again - gross. On the bright side, despite me eating too much it is still much less than in the past. Where I get disappointed in myself is that the kids' food isn't the healthy choice. Better for me to eat more quinoa than the kids' breaded chicken strip. Again - not disastrous and at least I recognize the error of my ways *lol*. I know, a gal can't live on kale and quinoa alone … but there is not good reason for me to be eating what I am. I'm not hungry and, truth be told, it usually isn't even that tasty! I do like the clean foods! Heck, yesterday I made fried zucchini in some olive oil with Craig's home-grow garlic, salt and pepper. Had two eggs to go with it. De-LICIOUS! It's odd that I'm "good" when I'm alone but "Naughty" when the family is around. I'm sure a psychologist would have a few thoughts on THAT! *lol*
I'm moving more, eating healthier and feeling pretty good overall. Think my hormones are all OVER the place with pre-menapause … given Aunt Flo hasn't been around for a few months so pretty sure that's going to stall any real gain, despite any efforts to lose.
Whatever. January always brings me 2 or 3 months of free time in the morning so I plan to exercise a lot more. Only 30 weeks until the big 5-0 … would like to be down at least 30 pounds by then. It's a tall order so I need to dig deeper very soon!
Gotta run - time to take Leeshy to school.
Have a great day. Stay warm - TTYS xo
Tam
Monday, November 14, 2016
Just For Today I ...
Morning Girlfriend!
Short and sweet. Gunna be productive today if it KILLS me!
Just for today I choose to:
Short and sweet. Gunna be productive today if it KILLS me!
Just for today I choose to:
- have a shake for breakfast
- have a shake for lunch
- have cucumbers and/or fruit for snacks
- have quinoa, fish and veg for dinner
- do my 17 minute butt and thigh DVD
- look in the mirror, smile and remind myself I'm beautiful
Just for the next 4 days I choose to:
- Repeat the above
BAM! Digging deep this week to nail the Monday - Friday healthy living and we'll deal with the weekend on the weekend.
Feeling motivated, positive and determined!
Have a great week - TTYS xo
Tam
Tuesday, November 8, 2016
Check-in ...
Hey Girlfriend!
I have about 20 minutes before my stamping class starts (immmm why aren't you here???) and have been trying to post for DAYS but … well … it's pretty non-stop once my feet his the ground these days!
Just wanted to check in. I HOPE this post doesn't set me back, like it did last time I had happy reports. Fingers crossed.
Weighed myself this morning as I felt a bit of a shift in my tummy roll … 192.2 pounds. So that's down a total of 11.6 in about 6 weeks. Pretty good! I'm really happy with that. Yes, I lost about 10 the first week … but I never trust that first week or two. I know that now after 6 weeks it is truly a loss of fat, not just water. So I'll take it!
I have to say I am SO proud of the healthy choices I've been making more and more regularly. I usually have an apple mid morning as a snack … usually have one yellow pepper and 3 mini cucumbers with my lunch, or as an afternoon snack … and I have cut out the evening snacking (at least for the last week or so). Last night I was SOOOOOO proud of myself! I was peckish at bedtime, as I often am … I grabbed about 7 little cubes of cheese I had in the fridge. I maybe ate 3 - the rest went to Koda. I then went to Alicia's room to put her clean laundry in her room. Uh oh. There on her bed was her huge bag of Halloween candy. Oooooo - chocolate! I rummaged through it, spotted a Crispy Crunch. Yum! … oh, nope, Coffee Crisp … and then I stopped and mentally bitch slapped myself! WTF was I doing??? I didn't even WANT it … it was just there and I could "get away with it" … I walked out of the room and gave myself a high five. No, one little 60 calorie chocolate wouldn't have hurt per se … but I'm pretty sure 1 would have resulted in 3 (cause once I get that taste in my mouth it' too good to resist!) It's like an alcoholic trying to have just one small glass of wine. It just doesn't work! So no, 150 calories likely wouldn't have hurt either. What WOULD have hurt would have been the mental bashing I would have given myself. Bashing avoided! Yay me!
Today/tonight similar case. I was actually hungry around 2:00 pm. I and a shake for breakfast and a bar at 11:45 … but I was HUNGRY … so I made 2 eggs with extra egg white. I worried a bit about my calories for the day and then slapped myself. Doesn't matter if I have 1200 or 1500 calories today. I've made healthy choices! I had a healthy taco salad for dinner.
I'm sitting here now drinking a cup of tea. It's my "go-to" when I feel "weak" … or think I might sneak something not-so-healthy. I craved sweet after dinner. I had a Japanese orange instead of chocolate (yes, I COULD have had one of the isagenix chocolates but haven't had a Japanese orange in almost a year so that's what I chose!) The tea really helps me. When I feel my mind mentally going through the pantry thinking what I can have I turn on the kettle. IT distracts me for 2 minutes while it heats … and then it takes me 15 minutes to drink it. By the time I'm done I'm full and the cravings have passed. Mission accomplished.
The healthy choices are getting easier and easier to make. I don't have to actually stop and think as much anymore - I reach for the apple or the kettle more automatically. Things are changing. My mentality is changing. I fell like I am really starting to reprogram my diet mentality into healthy mentality. Oh sure, last week I just HAPPENED to have 7 piece of baguette (!!! 7 … because 8 would have been ridiculous!!!) BUT .. the next day was a new day! I had no guilt, no "hangover" - started anew. In the past I would have sympathy eaten for another week … or month … before getting back on the wagon. It really is like quitting smoking. I tried to quit for YEARS. I'd quit, take it up again, 9 months later quit, take it up again, 6 months later quit, take it up again, 4 months later take it up again … and so on. Every time I would try to quit it would be less and less time between attempts … and then one day I had enough and was "done". It appears thats the way this healthy living is going too. If and when I have a little blip I get back on the horse right away and don't sabotage my progress. Woo hoo! I hear that's also the way "thin" people think (and/or women in France). Overeating on one occasion is not a catastrophe - it's life! … and they roll with it.
So there you have it … my ramble for the week. I'm doing great, I'm feeling awesome and keeping my eye on the prize - healthy living without having to think about it 24/7!
Gotta run - hope you're well. TTYS Girlfriend! xo
Tam
I have about 20 minutes before my stamping class starts (immmm why aren't you here???) and have been trying to post for DAYS but … well … it's pretty non-stop once my feet his the ground these days!
Just wanted to check in. I HOPE this post doesn't set me back, like it did last time I had happy reports. Fingers crossed.
Weighed myself this morning as I felt a bit of a shift in my tummy roll … 192.2 pounds. So that's down a total of 11.6 in about 6 weeks. Pretty good! I'm really happy with that. Yes, I lost about 10 the first week … but I never trust that first week or two. I know that now after 6 weeks it is truly a loss of fat, not just water. So I'll take it!
I have to say I am SO proud of the healthy choices I've been making more and more regularly. I usually have an apple mid morning as a snack … usually have one yellow pepper and 3 mini cucumbers with my lunch, or as an afternoon snack … and I have cut out the evening snacking (at least for the last week or so). Last night I was SOOOOOO proud of myself! I was peckish at bedtime, as I often am … I grabbed about 7 little cubes of cheese I had in the fridge. I maybe ate 3 - the rest went to Koda. I then went to Alicia's room to put her clean laundry in her room. Uh oh. There on her bed was her huge bag of Halloween candy. Oooooo - chocolate! I rummaged through it, spotted a Crispy Crunch. Yum! … oh, nope, Coffee Crisp … and then I stopped and mentally bitch slapped myself! WTF was I doing??? I didn't even WANT it … it was just there and I could "get away with it" … I walked out of the room and gave myself a high five. No, one little 60 calorie chocolate wouldn't have hurt per se … but I'm pretty sure 1 would have resulted in 3 (cause once I get that taste in my mouth it' too good to resist!) It's like an alcoholic trying to have just one small glass of wine. It just doesn't work! So no, 150 calories likely wouldn't have hurt either. What WOULD have hurt would have been the mental bashing I would have given myself. Bashing avoided! Yay me!
Today/tonight similar case. I was actually hungry around 2:00 pm. I and a shake for breakfast and a bar at 11:45 … but I was HUNGRY … so I made 2 eggs with extra egg white. I worried a bit about my calories for the day and then slapped myself. Doesn't matter if I have 1200 or 1500 calories today. I've made healthy choices! I had a healthy taco salad for dinner.
I'm sitting here now drinking a cup of tea. It's my "go-to" when I feel "weak" … or think I might sneak something not-so-healthy. I craved sweet after dinner. I had a Japanese orange instead of chocolate (yes, I COULD have had one of the isagenix chocolates but haven't had a Japanese orange in almost a year so that's what I chose!) The tea really helps me. When I feel my mind mentally going through the pantry thinking what I can have I turn on the kettle. IT distracts me for 2 minutes while it heats … and then it takes me 15 minutes to drink it. By the time I'm done I'm full and the cravings have passed. Mission accomplished.
The healthy choices are getting easier and easier to make. I don't have to actually stop and think as much anymore - I reach for the apple or the kettle more automatically. Things are changing. My mentality is changing. I fell like I am really starting to reprogram my diet mentality into healthy mentality. Oh sure, last week I just HAPPENED to have 7 piece of baguette (!!! 7 … because 8 would have been ridiculous!!!) BUT .. the next day was a new day! I had no guilt, no "hangover" - started anew. In the past I would have sympathy eaten for another week … or month … before getting back on the wagon. It really is like quitting smoking. I tried to quit for YEARS. I'd quit, take it up again, 9 months later quit, take it up again, 6 months later quit, take it up again, 4 months later take it up again … and so on. Every time I would try to quit it would be less and less time between attempts … and then one day I had enough and was "done". It appears thats the way this healthy living is going too. If and when I have a little blip I get back on the horse right away and don't sabotage my progress. Woo hoo! I hear that's also the way "thin" people think (and/or women in France). Overeating on one occasion is not a catastrophe - it's life! … and they roll with it.
So there you have it … my ramble for the week. I'm doing great, I'm feeling awesome and keeping my eye on the prize - healthy living without having to think about it 24/7!
Gotta run - hope you're well. TTYS Girlfriend! xo
Tam
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Mission Accomplished!
Hey Girlfriend!
Just a quick one to say "yay me!" Not one piece of crap passed over these lips yesterday! I ate to plan and wasn't even tempted by the candy! Around 7:30 I was a little peckish (we ate dinner early) and was heading to grab a handful of almonds then spotted the freshly roasted pumpkin seeds I made a few hours earlier. THAT kept me occupied for a while! I do wonder, however, if there is caffeine in pumpkin seeds as I had the WORST sleep! More like a nap on and off all night. Oh well, nothing on the calendar today other than Dad's birthday so I can take it easy this afternoon.
Today's plan is the same as yesterdays - NO CANDY! I MAY indulge in some scalloped potatoes later (ham dinner for Dad tonight) but nothing too crazy!
Have an awesome day - TTYL :)
Tam
Just a quick one to say "yay me!" Not one piece of crap passed over these lips yesterday! I ate to plan and wasn't even tempted by the candy! Around 7:30 I was a little peckish (we ate dinner early) and was heading to grab a handful of almonds then spotted the freshly roasted pumpkin seeds I made a few hours earlier. THAT kept me occupied for a while! I do wonder, however, if there is caffeine in pumpkin seeds as I had the WORST sleep! More like a nap on and off all night. Oh well, nothing on the calendar today other than Dad's birthday so I can take it easy this afternoon.
Today's plan is the same as yesterdays - NO CANDY! I MAY indulge in some scalloped potatoes later (ham dinner for Dad tonight) but nothing too crazy!
Have an awesome day - TTYL :)
Tam
Monday, October 31, 2016
Enough is Enough!
Hey Girlfriend!
Right. Enough is enough already! Time to give my head a shake and get real again! So remember last post I was all proud about how "good" I was? Rocking the clean eating, healthy choices etc etc. Ya. Well I don't know WTF goes on in my head but I'm seeing a pattern … every time I make a post like that I go off the rails! What. The. Fuck??? I've seen this pattern in me before. I lose a few pounds, I eat. Is it celebrate eating? Is it sabotage eating? WTF??? Someone mentions I'm looking good, or asks if I've lost weight … I go off the rails! So I posted last week and then started sliding! Oh I'd START the day off right, with a shake but then, usually mid afternoon I'd have a treat of some sort. Now I WILL admit I think SOME of it was stress eating. My schedule was all out of whack with Rebecca and all health issues and appointments. No excuse. Grow up! Get a grip!
Tomorrow is November 1st. I need a mini goal. That mini goal is to eat "to plan" (meaning healthy choices, stay out of the Halloween toxins!) from Monday to Friday. The "bigger goal" is December 1st. To make thing realistic I am striving to be 187 by December 1. This morning I weighed myself just so I had a starting point. 195. All good. I'm floating between 192 and 195. Haven't been drinking enough water etc etc. I figure 187 is doable and reasonable. I got this.
So! JUST FOR TODAY I choose to have a shake for breakfast, bar for lunch and cucumbers for snack. I choose to have a SMALL bowl of my taco soup for dinner … and JUST FOR TODAY I am committing to not having even ONE piece of Halloween Shit!
Right. Gotta run. I'm starving! Shake, tidy, walk Doodles, GO!
Have a great day Girlfriend. Stay awesome!
Tam
Right. Enough is enough already! Time to give my head a shake and get real again! So remember last post I was all proud about how "good" I was? Rocking the clean eating, healthy choices etc etc. Ya. Well I don't know WTF goes on in my head but I'm seeing a pattern … every time I make a post like that I go off the rails! What. The. Fuck??? I've seen this pattern in me before. I lose a few pounds, I eat. Is it celebrate eating? Is it sabotage eating? WTF??? Someone mentions I'm looking good, or asks if I've lost weight … I go off the rails! So I posted last week and then started sliding! Oh I'd START the day off right, with a shake but then, usually mid afternoon I'd have a treat of some sort. Now I WILL admit I think SOME of it was stress eating. My schedule was all out of whack with Rebecca and all health issues and appointments. No excuse. Grow up! Get a grip!
Tomorrow is November 1st. I need a mini goal. That mini goal is to eat "to plan" (meaning healthy choices, stay out of the Halloween toxins!) from Monday to Friday. The "bigger goal" is December 1st. To make thing realistic I am striving to be 187 by December 1. This morning I weighed myself just so I had a starting point. 195. All good. I'm floating between 192 and 195. Haven't been drinking enough water etc etc. I figure 187 is doable and reasonable. I got this.
So! JUST FOR TODAY I choose to have a shake for breakfast, bar for lunch and cucumbers for snack. I choose to have a SMALL bowl of my taco soup for dinner … and JUST FOR TODAY I am committing to not having even ONE piece of Halloween Shit!
Right. Gotta run. I'm starving! Shake, tidy, walk Doodles, GO!
Have a great day Girlfriend. Stay awesome!
Tam
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Still Here!
Hey Girlfriend! Yes, I'm still here.
Been MEANING to post for a few days but the days have just been flying by! My calendar swings between totally empty and totally full. On the empty days I have great plans to get x, y, z done but instead j, p, c gets done. You know me - do everything but what NEEDS to be done! All good. I always seem to manage to get 'er done eventually!
Let's see …. when last we chatted I was just getting over my coughing "thing". I was more or less better by Wednesday so decided to do a ONE day cleanse on Friday. Ugh. I really really REALLY can't stand the products I have to take on a cleanse day … other than the chocolates I get (super yum!) After whining to Wanda about the "Scooby Snacks", as I call them, we found a way to make them yummy. They are not-so-little chocolate (or vanilla or berry) "candy". They are VERY chalky and I can't bear them. I'd rather go hungry than eat them but they are necessary for maintaining blood sugar levels and I guess they have some protein in them. I mentioned maybe I could smash them into a powder, add some water and "shoot" it. Wanda remembered seeing a hot chocolate recipe using them. Yes, smash two or three of the snacks, add one ore chocolates we get and add hot water. It was YUMMY! So THAT part was conquered without gagging. The only other thing I can't bear is the Cleanse For Life "gack", as I call it. Truly horrible. I almost can't keep it down … and I have to take it 4 times during the day. It turns into 8 times for me because I take one scoop, add a bit of water and shoot it … then do the second scoop, add some water and shoot it. Seriously. The last shot of the day almost came back up. SO yuck! Now I don't actually get hungry on cleanse days but I DO get SOOOOO bitchy! Im fine until about 6:00 pm and then I morph into a very, very angry woman! *lol*. I had stamp class Friday night and the gals were sure to move the scissors away from me! SERIOUSLY bitchy!!
I was glad when Saturday morning rolled around. I started the day off with my usual shake and life was good. Craig and I went to a "beginners course for making sausage" class … so I did have a home-made sausage. When we got home I decided against another shake - I kind craved actual chewing! I didn't eat BADLY but not the BEST choices. I had a bit of left over pasta and just kind of snacked throughout the day. At dinner I fried up some pea pods, peppers and onions. I confess I *might* have had 3 mini chocolate bars from the Halloween stash … and then I *might* have had a small glass of wine … alate snack of 2 eggs (i had no protein at dinner so was hungry) and then *might* have had a bowl of Boom Chicka Pop popcorn before bed. In hindsight that was NOT a good combo of food products!!! I HAD to get up at 6:30 am with … shall we say "issues". Shall we also say I had "issues" ALL day (at least 8 "issues") and by bedtime was not a happy bunny. I was in a bad frame of mind, super tired, whiny, cranky and fed up. I was pretty convinced I would never do another cleanse and started seriously wondering WTH I was doing to my body on this plan! I texted Wanda. She talked me off the ledge and said it WASN'T uncommon to have "issues" like I was today. Everyone is different and it appears I have/had a lot of toxins. She pointed out Ive lost weight and inches (I'm now 192 pounds, so down almost 12 pounds in 30 days). I asked when I was gunna start feeling GOOD as everyone always seems to say they feel. I felt good the first week - the let 3 I've felt like CRAP and it was making me cranky! We agreed I would just stay the course and get some sleep.
Yes, everything seemed better in the morning. Actually, I'm quite happy to say that have FINALLY started feeling pretty good! Yes, I do have more energy and walk Koda a lot faster than I did a month ago (but I'm pretty sure that's mainly due to the caffeine in the one pill I take). I HAVE lost weight and inches. My knees AREN'T as sore (even though it'n "only" 12 pounds). I still don't sleep well but I do feel SO much lighter! I'm WAY less bloated and haven't had gas since I started. I do like the way I feel … so I'm gunna keep going :)
I have been eating REALLY healthy and NO snacking! I haven't been hungry. I'm not drinking as much water as I should but, to be honest, I'm sick of going to the bathroom 100 times a day and/or peeing every time I sneeze! I manage 1.5 - 2 litres a day. If I'm home all day I drink more (cause there's a toilet near by!) but other than that I'm cutting back in the day.
My portions have been great. My snacks have been ridiculously healthy and I have't been snacking in the evenings. I just haven't wanted to! I haven't had the kids leftovers and I haven't had desserts. It's crazy! After dinner I usually WANT more food (not because i'm hungry but because I lie to eat!) but instead of seconds or dessert I boil the kettle while washing the dishes and then sit with a cup of tea. Distracts me long enough to stay out of the fridge and mindless eating. Score!
So - yes, I'm down to 192. I REALLY want to hit 190 … and to be honest am surprised Im not that already. My stomach is much flatter and the jeans are loose. I'm not dwelling or obsessing - it will come - but I want to be at that 190 mark very soon. I'm actually WANTING to start exercising soon - my schedule is pretty nuts until November 2nd but after that I want to start my DVDs again.
So there you have it! I'm on a roll and am making progress. Losing some weight and CRUSHING the healthy eating! Well on my way to a healthier me. Can't wait to see what the next 30 days brings!
Hope you're well - I'll update again when I have something to report.
TTYL - have great evening! <3
Tam
Been MEANING to post for a few days but the days have just been flying by! My calendar swings between totally empty and totally full. On the empty days I have great plans to get x, y, z done but instead j, p, c gets done. You know me - do everything but what NEEDS to be done! All good. I always seem to manage to get 'er done eventually!
Let's see …. when last we chatted I was just getting over my coughing "thing". I was more or less better by Wednesday so decided to do a ONE day cleanse on Friday. Ugh. I really really REALLY can't stand the products I have to take on a cleanse day … other than the chocolates I get (super yum!) After whining to Wanda about the "Scooby Snacks", as I call them, we found a way to make them yummy. They are not-so-little chocolate (or vanilla or berry) "candy". They are VERY chalky and I can't bear them. I'd rather go hungry than eat them but they are necessary for maintaining blood sugar levels and I guess they have some protein in them. I mentioned maybe I could smash them into a powder, add some water and "shoot" it. Wanda remembered seeing a hot chocolate recipe using them. Yes, smash two or three of the snacks, add one ore chocolates we get and add hot water. It was YUMMY! So THAT part was conquered without gagging. The only other thing I can't bear is the Cleanse For Life "gack", as I call it. Truly horrible. I almost can't keep it down … and I have to take it 4 times during the day. It turns into 8 times for me because I take one scoop, add a bit of water and shoot it … then do the second scoop, add some water and shoot it. Seriously. The last shot of the day almost came back up. SO yuck! Now I don't actually get hungry on cleanse days but I DO get SOOOOO bitchy! Im fine until about 6:00 pm and then I morph into a very, very angry woman! *lol*. I had stamp class Friday night and the gals were sure to move the scissors away from me! SERIOUSLY bitchy!!
I was glad when Saturday morning rolled around. I started the day off with my usual shake and life was good. Craig and I went to a "beginners course for making sausage" class … so I did have a home-made sausage. When we got home I decided against another shake - I kind craved actual chewing! I didn't eat BADLY but not the BEST choices. I had a bit of left over pasta and just kind of snacked throughout the day. At dinner I fried up some pea pods, peppers and onions. I confess I *might* have had 3 mini chocolate bars from the Halloween stash … and then I *might* have had a small glass of wine … alate snack of 2 eggs (i had no protein at dinner so was hungry) and then *might* have had a bowl of Boom Chicka Pop popcorn before bed. In hindsight that was NOT a good combo of food products!!! I HAD to get up at 6:30 am with … shall we say "issues". Shall we also say I had "issues" ALL day (at least 8 "issues") and by bedtime was not a happy bunny. I was in a bad frame of mind, super tired, whiny, cranky and fed up. I was pretty convinced I would never do another cleanse and started seriously wondering WTH I was doing to my body on this plan! I texted Wanda. She talked me off the ledge and said it WASN'T uncommon to have "issues" like I was today. Everyone is different and it appears I have/had a lot of toxins. She pointed out Ive lost weight and inches (I'm now 192 pounds, so down almost 12 pounds in 30 days). I asked when I was gunna start feeling GOOD as everyone always seems to say they feel. I felt good the first week - the let 3 I've felt like CRAP and it was making me cranky! We agreed I would just stay the course and get some sleep.
Yes, everything seemed better in the morning. Actually, I'm quite happy to say that have FINALLY started feeling pretty good! Yes, I do have more energy and walk Koda a lot faster than I did a month ago (but I'm pretty sure that's mainly due to the caffeine in the one pill I take). I HAVE lost weight and inches. My knees AREN'T as sore (even though it'n "only" 12 pounds). I still don't sleep well but I do feel SO much lighter! I'm WAY less bloated and haven't had gas since I started. I do like the way I feel … so I'm gunna keep going :)
I have been eating REALLY healthy and NO snacking! I haven't been hungry. I'm not drinking as much water as I should but, to be honest, I'm sick of going to the bathroom 100 times a day and/or peeing every time I sneeze! I manage 1.5 - 2 litres a day. If I'm home all day I drink more (cause there's a toilet near by!) but other than that I'm cutting back in the day.
My portions have been great. My snacks have been ridiculously healthy and I have't been snacking in the evenings. I just haven't wanted to! I haven't had the kids leftovers and I haven't had desserts. It's crazy! After dinner I usually WANT more food (not because i'm hungry but because I lie to eat!) but instead of seconds or dessert I boil the kettle while washing the dishes and then sit with a cup of tea. Distracts me long enough to stay out of the fridge and mindless eating. Score!
So - yes, I'm down to 192. I REALLY want to hit 190 … and to be honest am surprised Im not that already. My stomach is much flatter and the jeans are loose. I'm not dwelling or obsessing - it will come - but I want to be at that 190 mark very soon. I'm actually WANTING to start exercising soon - my schedule is pretty nuts until November 2nd but after that I want to start my DVDs again.
So there you have it! I'm on a roll and am making progress. Losing some weight and CRUSHING the healthy eating! Well on my way to a healthier me. Can't wait to see what the next 30 days brings!
Hope you're well - I'll update again when I have something to report.
TTYL - have great evening! <3
Tam
Saturday, October 15, 2016
Still going strong ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Nothing too epic to report … just keeping on keeping on!
I've been sick as all get out the week with this stupid cough! Well, I SAY sick but I DID got to the doctor Wednesday and, according to her, I'm NOT sick. Ohhhhhh Kayyyyyyy. I was all over my "detoxing, not sick" theory but this has been going on for over a week now. Yesterday I think I may have coughed up my spleen … so I"m starting to think I may be sick after all. Whatever. Doesn't really matter … as long as my back doesn't go out (which I can't believe hasn't happened yet!) On the bright side my tummy muscles are getting QUITE the workout! I have a yummy cough syrup to take at bedtime - it has codeine in it. Apparently I really LIKE codeine! lol. I'll get there … Every day I think I'm a little better …. although Craig disagrees and whilst he was VERY patient and empathetic the first few days he is now ready for me to be done this gig!
So … how has this all affected my master health plan? It really hasn't! … aside from the fact that I can't do a cleanse until I'm 100% again (too hard on the body).
I am thrilled to report I have been 100% NAILING the healthy eating! Shake for breakfast, either a shake, a bar or a super healthy lunch and controlled, reasonable dinners! No snacking either! All week I have had the opportunity to eat crap (leftover potato chips and candy from Alicia's party, ice-cream, girl guide cookies, Costco sized bag of M&M peanuts AND HAlloween chocolate!) but I haven't had ANY! No, I don't have massive amounts of willpower. I don't WANT it! It's the weirdest thing! Historically, I RARELY eat or snack because I'm hungry. I usually do so because I'm bored or procrastinating on something. I also like to mindlessly pop Smarties in my mouth while crafting. This week … nuthin! Wanda TOLD me that on Isagenix you wouldn't have cravings. I didn't think much of it as I don't usually CRAVE the crap .. I just eat it! This week that hasn't happened. the BIGGEST surprise was Tuesday. I made ribs for dinner. Ribs have always been one of my favourites. I boil the ribs for a few hours. I then LOVE to have a few of them just freshly out of the pot (yes, just boiled meat) with some salt and pepper. I then usually have one when I put the sauce on … and then of course about 5 with dinner. So Tuesday I boiled them up. I ad a little nibble (like one bite) of the boiled meat. It was ok … didn't have more. Did't sneak any pre-dinner. Had 6 with dinner. Blech! I ATE them .. but as I was nearing the end I realized (when I slowed down and actually though about the taste) I wasn't really enjoying them! Afterwords I felt GROSS! SO greasy/fatty and heavy!! I guess my tastes/loves for fatty foods is changing. I guess I should be happy about that … I just don't know how to sea with it! lol. I've ALWAYS loved fatty foods - especially FAT! Steak fat, bacon fat, pork fat. Wow. This new me is going to take a whir to get to know! The way I SEE myself is starting to change. I'm starting to be one of "those" people. The ones who make good choices all the time … because they truly LIKE the healthy food.
Humph. Who'd'a'thunk?
(Oh! FY 0 weighed myself today as my jeans almost literally fall down when I walk now. I was 195.6. Thought I'd be less … but all good. My system isn't right this week - little "backed up" and Aunt Flo is just leaving … not sure why I stepped on the scale, actually but it's ok. I'm not bothered by it … just confirming I'm down from where I started.)
Off I go to start my Saturday. Craig is making hoe made hash browns and eggs. Hmmm. It IS the weekend … mane I'll have some eggs today.
Have a great weeked. TTYS!
Tam
Nothing too epic to report … just keeping on keeping on!
I've been sick as all get out the week with this stupid cough! Well, I SAY sick but I DID got to the doctor Wednesday and, according to her, I'm NOT sick. Ohhhhhh Kayyyyyyy. I was all over my "detoxing, not sick" theory but this has been going on for over a week now. Yesterday I think I may have coughed up my spleen … so I"m starting to think I may be sick after all. Whatever. Doesn't really matter … as long as my back doesn't go out (which I can't believe hasn't happened yet!) On the bright side my tummy muscles are getting QUITE the workout! I have a yummy cough syrup to take at bedtime - it has codeine in it. Apparently I really LIKE codeine! lol. I'll get there … Every day I think I'm a little better …. although Craig disagrees and whilst he was VERY patient and empathetic the first few days he is now ready for me to be done this gig!
So … how has this all affected my master health plan? It really hasn't! … aside from the fact that I can't do a cleanse until I'm 100% again (too hard on the body).
I am thrilled to report I have been 100% NAILING the healthy eating! Shake for breakfast, either a shake, a bar or a super healthy lunch and controlled, reasonable dinners! No snacking either! All week I have had the opportunity to eat crap (leftover potato chips and candy from Alicia's party, ice-cream, girl guide cookies, Costco sized bag of M&M peanuts AND HAlloween chocolate!) but I haven't had ANY! No, I don't have massive amounts of willpower. I don't WANT it! It's the weirdest thing! Historically, I RARELY eat or snack because I'm hungry. I usually do so because I'm bored or procrastinating on something. I also like to mindlessly pop Smarties in my mouth while crafting. This week … nuthin! Wanda TOLD me that on Isagenix you wouldn't have cravings. I didn't think much of it as I don't usually CRAVE the crap .. I just eat it! This week that hasn't happened. the BIGGEST surprise was Tuesday. I made ribs for dinner. Ribs have always been one of my favourites. I boil the ribs for a few hours. I then LOVE to have a few of them just freshly out of the pot (yes, just boiled meat) with some salt and pepper. I then usually have one when I put the sauce on … and then of course about 5 with dinner. So Tuesday I boiled them up. I ad a little nibble (like one bite) of the boiled meat. It was ok … didn't have more. Did't sneak any pre-dinner. Had 6 with dinner. Blech! I ATE them .. but as I was nearing the end I realized (when I slowed down and actually though about the taste) I wasn't really enjoying them! Afterwords I felt GROSS! SO greasy/fatty and heavy!! I guess my tastes/loves for fatty foods is changing. I guess I should be happy about that … I just don't know how to sea with it! lol. I've ALWAYS loved fatty foods - especially FAT! Steak fat, bacon fat, pork fat. Wow. This new me is going to take a whir to get to know! The way I SEE myself is starting to change. I'm starting to be one of "those" people. The ones who make good choices all the time … because they truly LIKE the healthy food.
Humph. Who'd'a'thunk?
(Oh! FY 0 weighed myself today as my jeans almost literally fall down when I walk now. I was 195.6. Thought I'd be less … but all good. My system isn't right this week - little "backed up" and Aunt Flo is just leaving … not sure why I stepped on the scale, actually but it's ok. I'm not bothered by it … just confirming I'm down from where I started.)
Off I go to start my Saturday. Craig is making hoe made hash browns and eggs. Hmmm. It IS the weekend … mane I'll have some eggs today.
Have a great weeked. TTYS!
Tam
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Post Thanksgiving Post
Hey Girlfriend!
Just a quickie before I wake the kids …
So I went into the weekend with a good state of mind … until about 7:00 pm Friday night *lol*. Gunna admit I had a *few* gummies and candies that were staring me down at Alicia's birthday party. I also had a teeny tiny piece of pizza.
I was a little mad t myself for eating the candy. Did't care about the calories but rather that I had just cleansed my body of a tonne of toxins and then willingly put those little bombs of sugary poison in my mouth.
Then I go over it.
Rome wasn't built in a day. Given that I've been AWESOME for 2 weeks I didn't dwell. I now know a lot of the reason was that Aunt Flo was on her way. I sense that Saturday and Sunday when I craved carbs. For the most part I resisted. Friday, I think I mentioned, I was getting sick … or detoxing - wasn't sure which. I might have to admit I am/was sick. Saturday I slept ALL DAY! Seriously! Haven't done that since I was in my 20s! I obviously needed it! I didn't have shakes but made mostly good choices.
Sunday was Thanksgiving. I was SO "good". I didn't deprive myself but passed on wine (not really into alcohol), has 1 bite of pumpkin pie and passed on potatoes. I had mainly veg and a bit of turkey. Only "cheat" was that the veg were all swimming in butter … but hey! You have to have fat, right? lol
Yesterday I did have a shake for breakfast but I did have some unnecessary food in the day - half a bun with butter (normally would be a whole one … or two) and MAYBE a few smarties. I blame Aunt Flo … and feeling sorry for my sick self!
The plan was to do a one-day cleans starting Thursday but it's not advised to cleanse when you are sick so I'll be laying it by ear. As much as the cleanse tastes yuck Im kind of looking forward to it. I DID feel lighter and less toxic and think I could use another system reboot.
Today the plan is a shake for breakfast AND lunch - and no candy for SURE. I have LOTS of cucumbers in the fridge so no excuses. I've got this!
Gotta run - TTYS
have a great day! xox
Tam
Just a quickie before I wake the kids …
So I went into the weekend with a good state of mind … until about 7:00 pm Friday night *lol*. Gunna admit I had a *few* gummies and candies that were staring me down at Alicia's birthday party. I also had a teeny tiny piece of pizza.
I was a little mad t myself for eating the candy. Did't care about the calories but rather that I had just cleansed my body of a tonne of toxins and then willingly put those little bombs of sugary poison in my mouth.
Then I go over it.
Rome wasn't built in a day. Given that I've been AWESOME for 2 weeks I didn't dwell. I now know a lot of the reason was that Aunt Flo was on her way. I sense that Saturday and Sunday when I craved carbs. For the most part I resisted. Friday, I think I mentioned, I was getting sick … or detoxing - wasn't sure which. I might have to admit I am/was sick. Saturday I slept ALL DAY! Seriously! Haven't done that since I was in my 20s! I obviously needed it! I didn't have shakes but made mostly good choices.
Sunday was Thanksgiving. I was SO "good". I didn't deprive myself but passed on wine (not really into alcohol), has 1 bite of pumpkin pie and passed on potatoes. I had mainly veg and a bit of turkey. Only "cheat" was that the veg were all swimming in butter … but hey! You have to have fat, right? lol
Yesterday I did have a shake for breakfast but I did have some unnecessary food in the day - half a bun with butter (normally would be a whole one … or two) and MAYBE a few smarties. I blame Aunt Flo … and feeling sorry for my sick self!
The plan was to do a one-day cleans starting Thursday but it's not advised to cleanse when you are sick so I'll be laying it by ear. As much as the cleanse tastes yuck Im kind of looking forward to it. I DID feel lighter and less toxic and think I could use another system reboot.
Today the plan is a shake for breakfast AND lunch - and no candy for SURE. I have LOTS of cucumbers in the fridge so no excuses. I've got this!
Gotta run - TTYS
have a great day! xox
Tam
Friday, October 7, 2016
Ugh...
Hey Girlfriend.
I lied. Posting today. Sitting here drinking my chocolate and berry shake ... kinda a gross combo ... but tolerable. Next time I'll use vanilla powder instead.
Speaking of gross, that's how I feel today. Not just gross but like a flaming pile of poo. My chest feels like I was in a smoky bar all night. Ugh. Funny thing is I'm not sick! No cold, no other symptoms - just a super crazy tight chest.
I figure I'm detoxing BIG time.
Maybe I'm wrong, but that;s my theory ... since I don't DO sick!
Started to feel a little ick Wednesday - after my cleanse. Figured I wouldn't feel great - not a big deal, though - just a slight tinge of a sore throat. Yesterday I could feel the vice taking hold and some coughing. This morning I sound like a man. Sexy? Doubtful *lol*. Doesnt help that I didn't get to sleep until around 3:00 am! That is VERY unusual for me. I usually fall asleep the second my head hits the pillow (and then wake UP around 3 am). Last night was BRUTAL! I dozed a little here and there but not a deep sleep. I got up at 2:00, took a shot of melatonin spray and feel asleep around 3:00. Again, feel like poo.
Wanda says yes people very often feel not-so-good the first few weeks on the plan as the system starts to detox and repair itself. I do recall when I tried this plan just over a year ago I got super sick. Seems too coincidental to happen twice ... a week after being on the plan. MUST be detoxing! Kinda makes sense that it's my lungs, too. Although I've had lung xrays and breathing tests done, and they came back fine, I DID smoke for 25 years! "They" say it takes about 7 years for the lungs to 100% repair/heal from smoking. I think the cleanse is trying to help that along. Good times.
I had assumed that I couldn't sleep because I took a "Natural Accelerator" pill at 4:00 pm - it works to increase your metabolism. Wanda says no, it shouldn't do that. When I read the ingredients list there doesn't seem to be caffein in it so I don't know WHAT last night was about.
Anyway - no time to feel sorry for myself (other than for the 10 minutes to post this!). Alicia has her birthday party and sleepover tonight. Give me strength! Hopefully I can get a nap in before the festivities start! Wish me luck!
So - just for today I choose to "stay the course", drink more water and "just keep swimming"!
I'll check in again soon. TTYL Girlfriend. Happy Friday! xox
Tam
Thursday, October 6, 2016
I did it again ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Popping in to share my successes … and a confession …
Yesterday was SO awesome on lots of levels. Alicia and I had a VERY nice, relaxing day at Kingsway. Of course we didn't GET there until 11:30 as my little "slug girl" (as we call them) slept in and I had to walk Koda before we left … so it was a late start but that's ok - we didn't have much to shop for anyway.
We headed right to the food court as Alicia hasn't eaten yet. She had her standard Double Buddy Burger with cheese, onion rings and root beer. I had 2 cucumber and an orange pepper with some water *lol*. The fast food didn't tempt me in the LEAST! Truth be told, as I mentioned yesterday, I often end up at Kingsway when I'm on some eating plan and I have TRIED to find healthy options there but, aside from bland salad (I LIKE slad but there rely aren't any GOOD ones I can find there!) there really aren't too many tasty, healthy options. I DID treat myself to the INSIDE onion of one onion ring .. and a half-a-pinkie-length piece of the batter. The onion was very greasy and Im very glad I just had a nibble. Satisfied my MIND (more than my tastebuds) and we moved on :)
I did super well at dinner, too. I felt like I had a bit too large a portion of spaghetti sauce … but also wanted to make sure I was getting ENOUGH calories in the day. It was probably a cup or a cup and half - seemed like an awful lot but may have been just because I hadn't eaten "real" food in 2 days. I also had a BIG salad to go with it. Even Alicia said it was really good. Crisp, fresh and yummy. After my cleanse the fresh veg tastes SO good to me. That excites me more than you know! I guess clean eating begets clean eating!
Instead of noodles (did NOT want to be gassy and bloated!) I was going to have spaghetti squash. I LOVE that stuff with ANYTHING on top - spaghettis sauce, just butter and salt and pepper or even a fried egg. SO yummy! When I was going through the fridge looking for sauce ingredients I stumbled across some yam noodles I bought about 1 - 2 months ago. They don't LOOK very appetizing but figured I'd at least OPEN them before they went bad and I was forced to throw them out. They SMELLED like fish when I opened them but I tasted one and it tasted like … nothing! Perfect! *lol*. I rinsed them off and boiled them for a minute. The whole package is only 10 calories. What???? I love the spongy/rubbery texture (my family would hate it!) and will definitely buy them again. I got them at the Lucky Supermarket on 97th and 137th. I haven't seen them at Sobeys but pretty sure most T&T ( the other Chinese Foods Supermarket) carries them as well. Here is what they look like …
I highly recommend trying these - especially if you are gluten / wheat intolerant!
So I was VERY happy with myself … and then 8:30 happened. Us gels went upstairs to watch an episode of Cake Wars before bed. Alicia made herself some Jiffy Pop popcorn we had left over from camping holidays. I didn't have any … until she said she was done and did I want some. Sigh. Popsorn is a bit of a weakness for me. I had some. No. I had a lot. Like half the bowl. I justified it at the time by saying I had probably not had more than about 1,000 calories. Maybe I had, I don't know exactly. Afterward I had eaters-guilt. Not because of the calories but because it was a crappy choice. Oh sure it wasn't a BIG deal - not like I had a greasy burger or half a cake but it was recessed popcorn with extra butter and salt. I had just finished cleaning out my system (and it wasn't easy!) so I punched myself once or twice over it.
Then I moved on.
Wasn't going to dwell.
Not dwelling now.
Remembering the bad mental feeling from that CHOICE and will learn from it moving forward. Yes, it was her birthday. Yes, it was a bit of a one-off. But I just ate too much of it - out of habit, I guess.
Moving on!
That wasn't even my confession! My confession is I weighed myself again this morning. Now I have a very good reason for that! I'm not obsession over the scale again - and the scale is now back in the downstairs bathroom so I'm not tempted to step on it. I consciously CHOSE to weigh myself. Why? I wanted to know how much water etc I had gained back after eating yesterday. My thought processes was … "what if I "gained" back a few pounds so I was "really", say 196. What if I then eat well all week and weigh myself again next Monday to see I'm, say 194. If I don't KNOW that I was up a few pounds today then I would think I hadn't lost anything after eating well and may be discouraged. If I weigh myself today then I'll know that, if I'm 194 next Monday I will have truly lost 2 pounds of fat".
Does that make sense? HArd to explain but I know what I mean.
So! I weighed myself expecting to be up about 1.5 - 2 pounds. Know what? I was only up .4! What?? I find that hard to believe but whatever. I WANT to be excited about that but keep telling myself it's not about the number. I felt RELLY good yesterday, and this morning. My pants are SO loose I was actually looking at new ones yesterday. (Too bad - I love these jeans!)
Today I will keep on keeping on. More water (I was down yesterday being out of the house most of the day), more of the fresh veg and a healthy dinner. Kinda liking this new eating gig I've got going on!
That's all I've got today - just wanted to share. Might check in again after Alicia's birthday party and/or Thanksgiving dinner just to brag about how awesome I was but if not I'll check in next week.
Love you Girlfriend. TTYS! xo
Tam
Popping in to share my successes … and a confession …
Yesterday was SO awesome on lots of levels. Alicia and I had a VERY nice, relaxing day at Kingsway. Of course we didn't GET there until 11:30 as my little "slug girl" (as we call them) slept in and I had to walk Koda before we left … so it was a late start but that's ok - we didn't have much to shop for anyway.
We headed right to the food court as Alicia hasn't eaten yet. She had her standard Double Buddy Burger with cheese, onion rings and root beer. I had 2 cucumber and an orange pepper with some water *lol*. The fast food didn't tempt me in the LEAST! Truth be told, as I mentioned yesterday, I often end up at Kingsway when I'm on some eating plan and I have TRIED to find healthy options there but, aside from bland salad (I LIKE slad but there rely aren't any GOOD ones I can find there!) there really aren't too many tasty, healthy options. I DID treat myself to the INSIDE onion of one onion ring .. and a half-a-pinkie-length piece of the batter. The onion was very greasy and Im very glad I just had a nibble. Satisfied my MIND (more than my tastebuds) and we moved on :)
I did super well at dinner, too. I felt like I had a bit too large a portion of spaghetti sauce … but also wanted to make sure I was getting ENOUGH calories in the day. It was probably a cup or a cup and half - seemed like an awful lot but may have been just because I hadn't eaten "real" food in 2 days. I also had a BIG salad to go with it. Even Alicia said it was really good. Crisp, fresh and yummy. After my cleanse the fresh veg tastes SO good to me. That excites me more than you know! I guess clean eating begets clean eating!
Instead of noodles (did NOT want to be gassy and bloated!) I was going to have spaghetti squash. I LOVE that stuff with ANYTHING on top - spaghettis sauce, just butter and salt and pepper or even a fried egg. SO yummy! When I was going through the fridge looking for sauce ingredients I stumbled across some yam noodles I bought about 1 - 2 months ago. They don't LOOK very appetizing but figured I'd at least OPEN them before they went bad and I was forced to throw them out. They SMELLED like fish when I opened them but I tasted one and it tasted like … nothing! Perfect! *lol*. I rinsed them off and boiled them for a minute. The whole package is only 10 calories. What???? I love the spongy/rubbery texture (my family would hate it!) and will definitely buy them again. I got them at the Lucky Supermarket on 97th and 137th. I haven't seen them at Sobeys but pretty sure most T&T ( the other Chinese Foods Supermarket) carries them as well. Here is what they look like …
So I was VERY happy with myself … and then 8:30 happened. Us gels went upstairs to watch an episode of Cake Wars before bed. Alicia made herself some Jiffy Pop popcorn we had left over from camping holidays. I didn't have any … until she said she was done and did I want some. Sigh. Popsorn is a bit of a weakness for me. I had some. No. I had a lot. Like half the bowl. I justified it at the time by saying I had probably not had more than about 1,000 calories. Maybe I had, I don't know exactly. Afterward I had eaters-guilt. Not because of the calories but because it was a crappy choice. Oh sure it wasn't a BIG deal - not like I had a greasy burger or half a cake but it was recessed popcorn with extra butter and salt. I had just finished cleaning out my system (and it wasn't easy!) so I punched myself once or twice over it.
Then I moved on.
Wasn't going to dwell.
Not dwelling now.
Remembering the bad mental feeling from that CHOICE and will learn from it moving forward. Yes, it was her birthday. Yes, it was a bit of a one-off. But I just ate too much of it - out of habit, I guess.
Moving on!
That wasn't even my confession! My confession is I weighed myself again this morning. Now I have a very good reason for that! I'm not obsession over the scale again - and the scale is now back in the downstairs bathroom so I'm not tempted to step on it. I consciously CHOSE to weigh myself. Why? I wanted to know how much water etc I had gained back after eating yesterday. My thought processes was … "what if I "gained" back a few pounds so I was "really", say 196. What if I then eat well all week and weigh myself again next Monday to see I'm, say 194. If I don't KNOW that I was up a few pounds today then I would think I hadn't lost anything after eating well and may be discouraged. If I weigh myself today then I'll know that, if I'm 194 next Monday I will have truly lost 2 pounds of fat".
Does that make sense? HArd to explain but I know what I mean.
So! I weighed myself expecting to be up about 1.5 - 2 pounds. Know what? I was only up .4! What?? I find that hard to believe but whatever. I WANT to be excited about that but keep telling myself it's not about the number. I felt RELLY good yesterday, and this morning. My pants are SO loose I was actually looking at new ones yesterday. (Too bad - I love these jeans!)
Today I will keep on keeping on. More water (I was down yesterday being out of the house most of the day), more of the fresh veg and a healthy dinner. Kinda liking this new eating gig I've got going on!
That's all I've got today - just wanted to share. Might check in again after Alicia's birthday party and/or Thanksgiving dinner just to brag about how awesome I was but if not I'll check in next week.
Love you Girlfriend. TTYS! xo
Tam
Wednesday, October 5, 2016
Fasting Results
Hey Girlfriend!
Is it wrong to have a piece of turkey breast first thing in the morning? *lol*. I have seriously thought of little else since Monday morning! It damn near KILLED me to make dinner for the family last night and practically sucked the skin right off my fingers after cutting up the turkey breast! I'm VERY happy the two-day fast is over!
"They" say Day 2 is supposed to be easier than Day 1. I didn't find that. I was ok until about 3:00 pm. It helped that I was out a large portion of the day (today is Alicia's birthday and I needed presents!) but once I got home I got more and more and more irritable! Was barking at everyone. It wasn't pretty! By 6:00 I couldn't take the anger anymore. I ate 2 small cucumbers … and I was better. It's true what the commercial says - "you aren't yourself when you're hungry"!
The family didn't "get" why I was putting myself through all that. Well … in an effort to detox, I suppose. I do think my body has been a toxic wasteland for the last year and wanted to clean up a bit. Now the challenge is to keep eating clean for the next week until my next cleanse. I had decided when I started this 30-Day Cleanse that I would do (3) two-day cleanses in the month. This is supposed to be the most effective way to reset the system. Now that I've done one round I'm really not sure if I will do another two day one or not. I may just do a one-day cleanse every week moving forward. I found day 1 easier in that I REALLY don't care for what I DO gt to put in my mouth (other than the delicious chocolates!). The drink is vile - I mix it with a splash of water and shoot it, followed my a glass of water to get rid of the taste. I didn't MIND the "Scooby Snacks" on day one but by the end of Day two I couldn't even eat one … I skipped the last round of "snacks". Aside from that I'm not sure if I can handle the mental aspect of it. Once again my obsessive nature was starting to rear it's ugly head. Come 6:00 pm I WANTED to eat but started to feel I had "failed" if I did. That's not good. I got a grip, realized I was being bitchy because I WANTED to eat but felt I SHOULDN'T. That's when things start to go off the rails. I can mange a one-day cleanse. Two days - not so sure. I've schedule my next one for next Thurs and Fri. I'll do one day and see where I'm at. I suspect I can make it until noon or dinner on the second day. We'll see.
So … the results.
Monday morning, if you'll recall, I weighed in at 198.4. This morning I was 193.6. So a loss of 4.8 pounds. Not BAD for a two day struggle! It's a 10.2 pound loss from last Monday morning. 10.2 pounds in 9 days. THAT I like!
I'm not going to get all stupid, though. I'm quite sure that one piece of turkey meat added back 2 pounds … so I won't be weighing myself again for a while! Ten pounds is great. I'm THRILLED to be fairly solidly under 200 … but that's just 1 week, partially water and not the main goal. So I'm gunna relax, keep doing my shakes for breakfast, shake and veg for lunch, healthy fruit/veg snacks and a really reasonable dinner moving forward. This week won't be "easy" in that Alicia and I have our "Mommy/Daughter Day Out" for her birthday. That ALWAYS means A&W for lunch for her. On the bright side I can't remember ever NOT being on some sort of diet on our day out so having a salad or protein bar instead of burger and fries won't be a problem for me. She wants spaghetti for dinner. No problem. Pasta for them, spaghettis squash for me. I really don't want to "gunk up" my system today. I KNOW I'd feel like crap if I ate badly today, of all days! Didn't starve for 2 days to go back to how things were!
It's also her Birthday party Friday/Saturday so lots of temptations … but pretty sure I can resist those. I don't even LIKE pizza and the thought of greasy junk food doesn't appeal to me at ALL!
Thanksgiving is this weekend as well. That means dinner at Mom's. No problem. Kinda gone off mashed potatoes so turkey and lots of veg for me.
Moderation is the key this week. I'm not "dieting" in my mind - I'm living healthily … without getting all crazy obsessed. I will eat slowly, monitor how I feel and if I want something I will think about if I REALLY want it, if its habit, or if it's worth having .. and then I will just have a few bites of it.
Im feeling really strong today. Focused and determined. I really DO want this to be my new lifestyle and way of eating. I'm changing my relationship with food and it feels awesome :)
Hope you're doing well - see you soon! xoxo
Tam
Is it wrong to have a piece of turkey breast first thing in the morning? *lol*. I have seriously thought of little else since Monday morning! It damn near KILLED me to make dinner for the family last night and practically sucked the skin right off my fingers after cutting up the turkey breast! I'm VERY happy the two-day fast is over!
"They" say Day 2 is supposed to be easier than Day 1. I didn't find that. I was ok until about 3:00 pm. It helped that I was out a large portion of the day (today is Alicia's birthday and I needed presents!) but once I got home I got more and more and more irritable! Was barking at everyone. It wasn't pretty! By 6:00 I couldn't take the anger anymore. I ate 2 small cucumbers … and I was better. It's true what the commercial says - "you aren't yourself when you're hungry"!
The family didn't "get" why I was putting myself through all that. Well … in an effort to detox, I suppose. I do think my body has been a toxic wasteland for the last year and wanted to clean up a bit. Now the challenge is to keep eating clean for the next week until my next cleanse. I had decided when I started this 30-Day Cleanse that I would do (3) two-day cleanses in the month. This is supposed to be the most effective way to reset the system. Now that I've done one round I'm really not sure if I will do another two day one or not. I may just do a one-day cleanse every week moving forward. I found day 1 easier in that I REALLY don't care for what I DO gt to put in my mouth (other than the delicious chocolates!). The drink is vile - I mix it with a splash of water and shoot it, followed my a glass of water to get rid of the taste. I didn't MIND the "Scooby Snacks" on day one but by the end of Day two I couldn't even eat one … I skipped the last round of "snacks". Aside from that I'm not sure if I can handle the mental aspect of it. Once again my obsessive nature was starting to rear it's ugly head. Come 6:00 pm I WANTED to eat but started to feel I had "failed" if I did. That's not good. I got a grip, realized I was being bitchy because I WANTED to eat but felt I SHOULDN'T. That's when things start to go off the rails. I can mange a one-day cleanse. Two days - not so sure. I've schedule my next one for next Thurs and Fri. I'll do one day and see where I'm at. I suspect I can make it until noon or dinner on the second day. We'll see.
So … the results.
Monday morning, if you'll recall, I weighed in at 198.4. This morning I was 193.6. So a loss of 4.8 pounds. Not BAD for a two day struggle! It's a 10.2 pound loss from last Monday morning. 10.2 pounds in 9 days. THAT I like!
I'm not going to get all stupid, though. I'm quite sure that one piece of turkey meat added back 2 pounds … so I won't be weighing myself again for a while! Ten pounds is great. I'm THRILLED to be fairly solidly under 200 … but that's just 1 week, partially water and not the main goal. So I'm gunna relax, keep doing my shakes for breakfast, shake and veg for lunch, healthy fruit/veg snacks and a really reasonable dinner moving forward. This week won't be "easy" in that Alicia and I have our "Mommy/Daughter Day Out" for her birthday. That ALWAYS means A&W for lunch for her. On the bright side I can't remember ever NOT being on some sort of diet on our day out so having a salad or protein bar instead of burger and fries won't be a problem for me. She wants spaghetti for dinner. No problem. Pasta for them, spaghettis squash for me. I really don't want to "gunk up" my system today. I KNOW I'd feel like crap if I ate badly today, of all days! Didn't starve for 2 days to go back to how things were!
It's also her Birthday party Friday/Saturday so lots of temptations … but pretty sure I can resist those. I don't even LIKE pizza and the thought of greasy junk food doesn't appeal to me at ALL!
Thanksgiving is this weekend as well. That means dinner at Mom's. No problem. Kinda gone off mashed potatoes so turkey and lots of veg for me.
Moderation is the key this week. I'm not "dieting" in my mind - I'm living healthily … without getting all crazy obsessed. I will eat slowly, monitor how I feel and if I want something I will think about if I REALLY want it, if its habit, or if it's worth having .. and then I will just have a few bites of it.
Im feeling really strong today. Focused and determined. I really DO want this to be my new lifestyle and way of eating. I'm changing my relationship with food and it feels awesome :)
Hope you're doing well - see you soon! xoxo
Tam
Monday, October 3, 2016
Here We Go ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Just thought I'd do a quick "heidi ho" and checkin as today I'm starting my two day deep cleanse. I've done this cleanse before but I can't remember if I did a one day or two day gig. I DO remember it was no big deal. I get to have "something" every two hours and I really wasn't hungry. Having said that I'm DYING for a hot drink but don't know what I can have. I know I can have "herbal decaf tea" but I don't know what that means! I have lots of decaf tea … and I have some organic decaf tea … but I want to see the words "organic herbal decaf tea" to make sure I don't have something I'm not supposed to. Guess I'll just have a glass of water .. or maybe hot water … rather than take the chance of doing it wrong!
I have a confession.
I weighed myself this morning.
I couldn't help it! I wanted to see what the cleanse would do for me so needed a starting point. Now I DID have a little chat with myself before I stepped on the scale. I told myself not to expect too much - it's only been a week. I did a self-assessment and figured (hoped?) I would be around 199.0 (when Wanda weighed me last Sunday I was 103.8). As always, I was pretty accurate (see? who needs a scale! I know my body VERY well! ..) … and the scale said 198.4. Pretty close to my 199 guess.
So there you have it. Week one down 5.4 pounds - maybe water - maybe fat - definitely mental baggage. Whatever the number I'm healthier than I was last Monday and made VERY good choices all week. Mission accomplished!
I'll check in again Wednesday with my post-cleanse weight.
Have a great day!
Tam
Just thought I'd do a quick "heidi ho" and checkin as today I'm starting my two day deep cleanse. I've done this cleanse before but I can't remember if I did a one day or two day gig. I DO remember it was no big deal. I get to have "something" every two hours and I really wasn't hungry. Having said that I'm DYING for a hot drink but don't know what I can have. I know I can have "herbal decaf tea" but I don't know what that means! I have lots of decaf tea … and I have some organic decaf tea … but I want to see the words "organic herbal decaf tea" to make sure I don't have something I'm not supposed to. Guess I'll just have a glass of water .. or maybe hot water … rather than take the chance of doing it wrong!
I have a confession.
I weighed myself this morning.
I couldn't help it! I wanted to see what the cleanse would do for me so needed a starting point. Now I DID have a little chat with myself before I stepped on the scale. I told myself not to expect too much - it's only been a week. I did a self-assessment and figured (hoped?) I would be around 199.0 (when Wanda weighed me last Sunday I was 103.8). As always, I was pretty accurate (see? who needs a scale! I know my body VERY well! ..) … and the scale said 198.4. Pretty close to my 199 guess.
So there you have it. Week one down 5.4 pounds - maybe water - maybe fat - definitely mental baggage. Whatever the number I'm healthier than I was last Monday and made VERY good choices all week. Mission accomplished!
I'll check in again Wednesday with my post-cleanse weight.
Have a great day!
Tam
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Practicing Patience ...
Hey Girlfriend!
I've been wanted to catch up all week but been too busy!! Just sitting here waiting for the kids to come home from grandma's house - my brother is in town. They totally adore him so spent the night over there to "hang with Unkey". It's been a lovely kid-free day!
SO! Let's talk about where I'm at with this new Isagenix journey of mine!
So far so good (although I must say I'm totally fighting the munchies today!)
I started the program Monday. I've stuck to two shakes a day - breakfast and lunch. I was just talking to Wanda (my health coach and cheerleader *lol*) telling her I'm SO glad I'm doing a 2-day cleanse starting tomorrow because if I have to have one more shake I might gag. Hee hee. Now don't get me wrong - up until today I've been totally on board with the shakes and/or bars. It actually was a GREAT week to start. I was so busy that I really didn't have time to stop for lunch so shakes and/or bars-on-the-go were just perfect for me! I had a stash of almonds in my purse, along with some of their healthy chocolates and snacks (Scooby Snacks as I call them!) I think three days I needed to dip into the almonds. Amazing how 8 little almonds can carry you over!! So. Shake for breakfast (2 scoops of the shake with 1 cup water; 1 scoop of some sort of other nutrient) then I add in half a banana, a few strawberries (or cinnamon) and 2 scoops of my new favourite thing "PB2", which is powdered peanut butter. LOVE it! A fraction of the fat and calories of regular peanut butter and help the flavour of the shakes immensely. I have to admit I really don't care for the taste of the shakes so if I can mask it I'm happy!
I've been drinking 2.5 litres of water a day and having ridiculously healthy snacks and dinners. Cucumbers, peppers, quinoa, salads … heck, I was out for dinner on Wednesday (Jubilations) and I actually ordered the FISH!! … moreover I took the dessert home for Alicia! Sheesh! Went out again last night to an Italian restaurant. I was beyond controlled having a teeny little piece of bread with some bruschetta, some soup and a salad! No pasta! Now that HAS to be a first for this carb whore! *lol*
Weekends I struggle to keep out of the munchies but so far so good. Tomorrow I start my 2 day deep cleanse. As I said, I'm looking forward to it.
I haven't weighed myself since starting - and I WANT to resist the urge to do so for the entire 30 days of this phase of the plan. I just don't want to know! Well .. I do … but I don't, if you know what I mean. I know I am WAY less bloated and I likely have lost a few pounds .. but, as I said to Wanda, I am NOT in this for weight loss. I'm in it for health - weight loss will be a benefit. I don't have any weight loss goals. I just want to feel better … and so far I do! So … as I said in my title I'm practicing patience .. in a lot of was. I'm being patient to let the process work and to cleanse the toxins out of my system. I'm being patient with myself if I stumble. The other day I had a (healthy) bowl of homemade tortellini soup. It was good but I felt like CRAP for the next 5 hours! I was SO thirsty (too much salt in it) and my guy blew up like a balloon. I'm being patient by trying different foods and then trying to gauge how I feel. Ate paste - felt shit. No more pasta - at least for a while! Maybe next time I'll try a corn pasta!
I'm being patient in tracking results. I WANT to jump on the scale and see I've lost 20 pounds. But that's not gunna happen. Aside from the fact that I can't lose that much that fast I don't want to jump on the scale and see I've only lot 2 pounds. That will mess with my head. The number doesn't matter, right? Truth be told I was looking in the mirror yesterday and thought I really didn't think I looked that much heavier at 200 than I did at 18 … so in my mind I'm 180. Don't the scale to confirm nor deny!
Right now the goal is to stick with this 30 day cleanse and then reassess. I think I can stick with the shakes ONCE a day - and maybe twice a day a few days a week … but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. Right now it's all about the healthy choices and I've totally nailed that part. Next up I want to increase my activity. My feet are more or less better, so I can walk .. but that bores me after a while and really, I don't WANT to walk for an hour a day, especially as it gets colder so one day soon I hope to press play on my pilates videos … not ready to commit to that quite yet. I'm still super busy with stamping, my brother in town, Alicia's birthday and on and on. Things slow down Dec 1st so I'll just take one day at a time until then and fit in what I can when I can. That's the secret to lifestyle change, right? Small, manageable changes. That's what I'm committed to … at least for today :)
Time to go baste the turkey .. hope you're well. I'll try to check in again next weekend. xoxo
Tam
I've been wanted to catch up all week but been too busy!! Just sitting here waiting for the kids to come home from grandma's house - my brother is in town. They totally adore him so spent the night over there to "hang with Unkey". It's been a lovely kid-free day!
SO! Let's talk about where I'm at with this new Isagenix journey of mine!
So far so good (although I must say I'm totally fighting the munchies today!)
I started the program Monday. I've stuck to two shakes a day - breakfast and lunch. I was just talking to Wanda (my health coach and cheerleader *lol*) telling her I'm SO glad I'm doing a 2-day cleanse starting tomorrow because if I have to have one more shake I might gag. Hee hee. Now don't get me wrong - up until today I've been totally on board with the shakes and/or bars. It actually was a GREAT week to start. I was so busy that I really didn't have time to stop for lunch so shakes and/or bars-on-the-go were just perfect for me! I had a stash of almonds in my purse, along with some of their healthy chocolates and snacks (Scooby Snacks as I call them!) I think three days I needed to dip into the almonds. Amazing how 8 little almonds can carry you over!! So. Shake for breakfast (2 scoops of the shake with 1 cup water; 1 scoop of some sort of other nutrient) then I add in half a banana, a few strawberries (or cinnamon) and 2 scoops of my new favourite thing "PB2", which is powdered peanut butter. LOVE it! A fraction of the fat and calories of regular peanut butter and help the flavour of the shakes immensely. I have to admit I really don't care for the taste of the shakes so if I can mask it I'm happy!
I've been drinking 2.5 litres of water a day and having ridiculously healthy snacks and dinners. Cucumbers, peppers, quinoa, salads … heck, I was out for dinner on Wednesday (Jubilations) and I actually ordered the FISH!! … moreover I took the dessert home for Alicia! Sheesh! Went out again last night to an Italian restaurant. I was beyond controlled having a teeny little piece of bread with some bruschetta, some soup and a salad! No pasta! Now that HAS to be a first for this carb whore! *lol*
Weekends I struggle to keep out of the munchies but so far so good. Tomorrow I start my 2 day deep cleanse. As I said, I'm looking forward to it.
I haven't weighed myself since starting - and I WANT to resist the urge to do so for the entire 30 days of this phase of the plan. I just don't want to know! Well .. I do … but I don't, if you know what I mean. I know I am WAY less bloated and I likely have lost a few pounds .. but, as I said to Wanda, I am NOT in this for weight loss. I'm in it for health - weight loss will be a benefit. I don't have any weight loss goals. I just want to feel better … and so far I do! So … as I said in my title I'm practicing patience .. in a lot of was. I'm being patient to let the process work and to cleanse the toxins out of my system. I'm being patient with myself if I stumble. The other day I had a (healthy) bowl of homemade tortellini soup. It was good but I felt like CRAP for the next 5 hours! I was SO thirsty (too much salt in it) and my guy blew up like a balloon. I'm being patient by trying different foods and then trying to gauge how I feel. Ate paste - felt shit. No more pasta - at least for a while! Maybe next time I'll try a corn pasta!
I'm being patient in tracking results. I WANT to jump on the scale and see I've lost 20 pounds. But that's not gunna happen. Aside from the fact that I can't lose that much that fast I don't want to jump on the scale and see I've only lot 2 pounds. That will mess with my head. The number doesn't matter, right? Truth be told I was looking in the mirror yesterday and thought I really didn't think I looked that much heavier at 200 than I did at 18 … so in my mind I'm 180. Don't the scale to confirm nor deny!
Right now the goal is to stick with this 30 day cleanse and then reassess. I think I can stick with the shakes ONCE a day - and maybe twice a day a few days a week … but we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. Right now it's all about the healthy choices and I've totally nailed that part. Next up I want to increase my activity. My feet are more or less better, so I can walk .. but that bores me after a while and really, I don't WANT to walk for an hour a day, especially as it gets colder so one day soon I hope to press play on my pilates videos … not ready to commit to that quite yet. I'm still super busy with stamping, my brother in town, Alicia's birthday and on and on. Things slow down Dec 1st so I'll just take one day at a time until then and fit in what I can when I can. That's the secret to lifestyle change, right? Small, manageable changes. That's what I'm committed to … at least for today :)
Time to go baste the turkey .. hope you're well. I'll try to check in again next weekend. xoxo
Tam
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Checking in ...
Morning Girlfriend!
I know, I know - haven't been posting. Just. So. Busy! I haven't forgotten about you … or my goals but I have to say, I have been a total shit show for the last few weeks. The only thing I've managed to stick to is taking my vitamins (most days, anyway). Water - mmmm - maybe a litre a day. Exercise - my standard half hour walk with Doodles. Eating …. well …. let's just say Craig mara a carrot cake and I haven't measured/weighed anything in weeks.
That's ok.
I made those choices.
I'm not weak. I'm still a good person. My family still loves me. My jeans still fit, Nothing in my life has changed.
Having said that I'm DONE with feeling the way I do. I'm comfortable MENTALLY with my shape/size but I'm telling you my joints, energy, skin … they are all in the tank! My body simply can't take this weight. So. I've spent a lot of time over the last 2 weeks figuring out what to do and how to do it. See, the problem is, I'm not "disgusted" with the way I look … so I haven't been as dedicated to the healthy eating/exercise gig. But I NEED to be … so then the same old panic-mode kicks in. How do I lose the weight FAST so I feel better in two days.
Ugh.
There's the problem. The "fast" part. So. My thinking has taken longer than usual. In the past I would just jump into any sort of diet plan believing I couldn't do it any other way. I now acknowledge I CAN, I just was choosing not to. Like 50% of the women out there I was looking for the quick fix - the magic pill - the easy way out. We all know there isn't one.
Let's zoom ahead a bit (cause I seriously have SO much to do before heading to camp with Alicia tomorrow - for 3 days!).
I want to lose weight; I want to do it in a healthy way; I don't want to diet; I'm not patient.
I decided it was "ok" to be on a "plan" … but not a Jenny Craig or Ideal Protein or Atkins Diet. It's ok to be on a supplement plan that is NOT a diet but WILL result in weight loss … and if I stick to it the weight WILL come off and in a more regulated, safe time line.
I bought the 30 day plan for Isagenix. Now only the people reading this blog plus one dear friend know I'm going on this plan. Why? Not because I'm embarrassed but because I don't want it to be a big deal! I don't want anyone to think, or see, that anything drastic will change. I don't want my daughters to think I'm dieting. I don't want the pressure of "oh! how much have you lost already". I don't want ANY sort of diet mentality. I simply can't handle it. Yes, this system does have a "60 day challenge" associated with it … if I want it. I don't. I've told my "dealer" that yes, she/I can weigh and measure me on day one but I want nothing to do with scales or measurements for a very long while. No X-day challenges. NO timelines. I want to just quietly get healthier.
The gist of the plan is a 1 day cleanse per week. A shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch and a sensible dinner - with supplements. I think the calorie intake goal is around 1,200 a day. Whatever - 1,200 - 1,500. All good.
I chose this plan because it really won't be drastically different than what I do now (minus the carrot cake!) I currently HAVE a shake for breakfast and (generally) soup for lunch. A shake for lunch isn;t a big change. A sensible dinner will be close to what I have now too - I'll just watch my portions a little closer … and I'll feed the family in a healthier way as well. Craig has been feeling the aches and pains of being another year older and recently asked if he was getting fat! The girls still have too much processed food/grains and although they get lots of fruit I need to step up their vegetable game a bit. So this plan will be good for everyone (of course they won't "see" that I'm on shakes as well) and I'll feel like I have support of the family by everyone eating the same, healthy meals.
I plan to start Monday(ish). I'm at camp until Friday, have a stamping get together Saturday morning so hope to pick up my products on the weekend.
That's the plan.
Just for today I choose to eat like a "healthy" woman does. First step - always the hardest.
I'll be AWOL again until next week but will check in once I start the plan to let you know how I'm doing.
Thanks for sticking with me, Girlfriend! Love you!
Tam
I know, I know - haven't been posting. Just. So. Busy! I haven't forgotten about you … or my goals but I have to say, I have been a total shit show for the last few weeks. The only thing I've managed to stick to is taking my vitamins (most days, anyway). Water - mmmm - maybe a litre a day. Exercise - my standard half hour walk with Doodles. Eating …. well …. let's just say Craig mara a carrot cake and I haven't measured/weighed anything in weeks.
That's ok.
I made those choices.
I'm not weak. I'm still a good person. My family still loves me. My jeans still fit, Nothing in my life has changed.
Having said that I'm DONE with feeling the way I do. I'm comfortable MENTALLY with my shape/size but I'm telling you my joints, energy, skin … they are all in the tank! My body simply can't take this weight. So. I've spent a lot of time over the last 2 weeks figuring out what to do and how to do it. See, the problem is, I'm not "disgusted" with the way I look … so I haven't been as dedicated to the healthy eating/exercise gig. But I NEED to be … so then the same old panic-mode kicks in. How do I lose the weight FAST so I feel better in two days.
Ugh.
There's the problem. The "fast" part. So. My thinking has taken longer than usual. In the past I would just jump into any sort of diet plan believing I couldn't do it any other way. I now acknowledge I CAN, I just was choosing not to. Like 50% of the women out there I was looking for the quick fix - the magic pill - the easy way out. We all know there isn't one.
Let's zoom ahead a bit (cause I seriously have SO much to do before heading to camp with Alicia tomorrow - for 3 days!).
I want to lose weight; I want to do it in a healthy way; I don't want to diet; I'm not patient.
I decided it was "ok" to be on a "plan" … but not a Jenny Craig or Ideal Protein or Atkins Diet. It's ok to be on a supplement plan that is NOT a diet but WILL result in weight loss … and if I stick to it the weight WILL come off and in a more regulated, safe time line.
I bought the 30 day plan for Isagenix. Now only the people reading this blog plus one dear friend know I'm going on this plan. Why? Not because I'm embarrassed but because I don't want it to be a big deal! I don't want anyone to think, or see, that anything drastic will change. I don't want my daughters to think I'm dieting. I don't want the pressure of "oh! how much have you lost already". I don't want ANY sort of diet mentality. I simply can't handle it. Yes, this system does have a "60 day challenge" associated with it … if I want it. I don't. I've told my "dealer" that yes, she/I can weigh and measure me on day one but I want nothing to do with scales or measurements for a very long while. No X-day challenges. NO timelines. I want to just quietly get healthier.
The gist of the plan is a 1 day cleanse per week. A shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch and a sensible dinner - with supplements. I think the calorie intake goal is around 1,200 a day. Whatever - 1,200 - 1,500. All good.
I chose this plan because it really won't be drastically different than what I do now (minus the carrot cake!) I currently HAVE a shake for breakfast and (generally) soup for lunch. A shake for lunch isn;t a big change. A sensible dinner will be close to what I have now too - I'll just watch my portions a little closer … and I'll feed the family in a healthier way as well. Craig has been feeling the aches and pains of being another year older and recently asked if he was getting fat! The girls still have too much processed food/grains and although they get lots of fruit I need to step up their vegetable game a bit. So this plan will be good for everyone (of course they won't "see" that I'm on shakes as well) and I'll feel like I have support of the family by everyone eating the same, healthy meals.
I plan to start Monday(ish). I'm at camp until Friday, have a stamping get together Saturday morning so hope to pick up my products on the weekend.
That's the plan.
Just for today I choose to eat like a "healthy" woman does. First step - always the hardest.
I'll be AWOL again until next week but will check in once I start the plan to let you know how I'm doing.
Thanks for sticking with me, Girlfriend! Love you!
Tam
Monday, September 12, 2016
I Don't Like It!
Hey Girlfriend!
Sorry I haven't posted in so long - no TIME! Between my Open House Friday night, Rebecca being home throwing up Monday, Alicia home sick as a dog Friday and "life" in between it was hectic, to say the least.
This week is stupid-crazy busy. Today is my only day to have a full day of uninterrupted productivity for the next 2 1/2 weeks. Seriously non-stop, back-to-back "stuff". Meet the Teacher, Dog Grooming, Doctor Appointments, Classes, Stamp-a-Stack, Anniversary Dinner … and on and on and on … Not gunna lie - taking care of myself will (and has) taken a series backseat this month! It's not all bad - being so busy means I don't have time to stand in front of the fridge trolling for food I don't need .. and no time for mindless munching whilst watching TV. If I'm not moving I'm sleeping - so that's good. The down side is not as much time to prep healthy options … BUT I DO have lots of cut up veg from Friday night so I'm good for a few days.
I weighed myself this morning. I was curious. The weekend was a bit of a shit show for eating - Open House snacks … and wine … chinese take-away Saturday, weekend breakfasts … I didn't watch my portions .. so I wanted to see how I did. The good news is I'm still under 200. Just barely. 199.8 *lol* Although I'm pretty ok mentally with my size these days (remember I'm at my heaviest in my life) I did see a picture of myself from Saturday and I've gotta be honest. I don't like it.
I'm not down on myself, I'm not depressed - none of the usual self-hate thoughts I use to have. I've embraced my curves and am feeling more confident than ever … but I just didn't like what I saw because it just doesn't feel right for me to be this size. I've been about 160 for the last few years. THAT'S my "natural" size, I think. This just doesn't feel right to me so it's time to shed the extra. The question is how. I'm grappling with that this week. I think I've nailed the "how to maintain" over the last few months … I need to switch to "lose" mode but without getting all stupid and unhealthy about it.
I can't afford to spend any mental power on it too much for the next few weeks so I'll keep doing what I'm doing but I AM toying with a few programs to help me along. Yes, it involves money … and I HAVE tried to stay away from just throwing money at my problem/issues. I'm not jumping into anything yet … but I'm starting some research. I need to be patient with results … but I have to KNOW that whatever I'm doing will definitely result in losing about 2 pounds a week. If I don't KNOW that I seem to fall apart and yo-yo. So watch this space …
Just for today I choose to …
Sorry I haven't posted in so long - no TIME! Between my Open House Friday night, Rebecca being home throwing up Monday, Alicia home sick as a dog Friday and "life" in between it was hectic, to say the least.
This week is stupid-crazy busy. Today is my only day to have a full day of uninterrupted productivity for the next 2 1/2 weeks. Seriously non-stop, back-to-back "stuff". Meet the Teacher, Dog Grooming, Doctor Appointments, Classes, Stamp-a-Stack, Anniversary Dinner … and on and on and on … Not gunna lie - taking care of myself will (and has) taken a series backseat this month! It's not all bad - being so busy means I don't have time to stand in front of the fridge trolling for food I don't need .. and no time for mindless munching whilst watching TV. If I'm not moving I'm sleeping - so that's good. The down side is not as much time to prep healthy options … BUT I DO have lots of cut up veg from Friday night so I'm good for a few days.
I weighed myself this morning. I was curious. The weekend was a bit of a shit show for eating - Open House snacks … and wine … chinese take-away Saturday, weekend breakfasts … I didn't watch my portions .. so I wanted to see how I did. The good news is I'm still under 200. Just barely. 199.8 *lol* Although I'm pretty ok mentally with my size these days (remember I'm at my heaviest in my life) I did see a picture of myself from Saturday and I've gotta be honest. I don't like it.
I'm not down on myself, I'm not depressed - none of the usual self-hate thoughts I use to have. I've embraced my curves and am feeling more confident than ever … but I just didn't like what I saw because it just doesn't feel right for me to be this size. I've been about 160 for the last few years. THAT'S my "natural" size, I think. This just doesn't feel right to me so it's time to shed the extra. The question is how. I'm grappling with that this week. I think I've nailed the "how to maintain" over the last few months … I need to switch to "lose" mode but without getting all stupid and unhealthy about it.
I can't afford to spend any mental power on it too much for the next few weeks so I'll keep doing what I'm doing but I AM toying with a few programs to help me along. Yes, it involves money … and I HAVE tried to stay away from just throwing money at my problem/issues. I'm not jumping into anything yet … but I'm starting some research. I need to be patient with results … but I have to KNOW that whatever I'm doing will definitely result in losing about 2 pounds a week. If I don't KNOW that I seem to fall apart and yo-yo. So watch this space …
Just for today I choose to …
- get back to my 2.5 litres of water a day (haven't done that over the weekend and I AM thirsty!)
- have a protein shake for breakfast and my soup for lunch - veg for snacks
- keep my thoughts positive - not gunna freak out and jump into any crazy programs on a knee-jerk reaction
- look at my ass in the mirror and remember that Craig loves my curves :)
Gotta run - LOTS to accomplish today.
Have a great week Girlfriend! xoxo
Tam
Sunday, September 4, 2016
Soup is the Answer
Hey Girlfriend!
Just touching base. Love our long chats but can't afford the time right now. STUPID busy … but just the way I like it! Of course I SHOULD be prepping for my stamping Open House Friday but that's SO not how I operate. In procrastinating on THAT I'm getting so much done in other areas! Reorganizing the bonus room, drafting 4 hour emails, catching up on the girls' diaries … and now having my parents over for dinner.
Things are still going really well. Except for yesterday I got those 3 litres of water in every day. No - still haven't managed the pilates DVD's … maybe next week? No - who am I kidding … I really DO need to get on that Open House stuff soon … and it's a long weekend so the pressure is on for Tues, Wed, Thurs. All good.
I DID stumble a bit one day last week. After being all proud of myself and my restraint and focus I totally binged after dinner. Ice cream, 2 cookies, popcorn. As always I felt like crap afterwards - both physically and mentally. But! … I didn't wallow for long. Next morning I woke up and started again. Right back on track. I recognized, and was right, that Aunt Flo was due any minute. That, as always, explains the carb cravings that I just can't seem to control … and I don't. Yesterday and this morning I everything I truly craved were carbs … so I had them, guilt free. No point resisting. If I had substituted with, say, protein I would STILL be trolling through the pantry looking for something that satisfied … so I just went with it. Had some toast. Had a few crackers. Nothing too out of control, just fed the craving. Aunt Flo arrived and that's the end of THAT!
Onward and upward!
On reflection I see why I was so successful last week. I didn't have to pre-plan or think about what I was going to eat for most meals. Shake for breakfast, lots of water, borscht for lunch, lots of water, sensible dinner. Done! That borscht was the key! Filling, took me a long time to eat and healthy! So … in an effort to recreate the success I will do the same again this week. I will pre measure the water (but think I will reduce it to 2.5 litres. Three just has me going through too much toilet paper and peeing every time I sneeze! Over-share. Sorry.
I'm done with borscht - had it almost every day for two weeks … so I made up a big match of another of my favourite soups - Weight Watchers Hot and Sour. Now it's not what you get in the restaurants by ANY stretch of the imagination … but I love it! I LOVE the texture of tofu … and the mushrooms .. and it's low calorie and filling. Perfect! I go to the Lucky Supermarket and grab lots of fresh mushrooms there - they are the BEST for freshness and price. Brown mushrooms, shitake, oyster, king … and extra firm tofu. This batch I also used Mushroom broth I got at Costco a few months ago. I don't use dried mushrooms (fresh is faster and less gritty) and, after testing, I often throw in a lot more hot sauce and/or rice vinegar. Anything goes - hard to screw it up. Here's the recipe …
Super yummy!
So that's the plan for the next few days. I'm walking with a lot less pain so I may try to increase my walk by 10-15 minutes next week. That's what I chose to do … just for this week :)
Have an awesome Sunday Girlfriend! Love you :)
Tam
Just touching base. Love our long chats but can't afford the time right now. STUPID busy … but just the way I like it! Of course I SHOULD be prepping for my stamping Open House Friday but that's SO not how I operate. In procrastinating on THAT I'm getting so much done in other areas! Reorganizing the bonus room, drafting 4 hour emails, catching up on the girls' diaries … and now having my parents over for dinner.
Things are still going really well. Except for yesterday I got those 3 litres of water in every day. No - still haven't managed the pilates DVD's … maybe next week? No - who am I kidding … I really DO need to get on that Open House stuff soon … and it's a long weekend so the pressure is on for Tues, Wed, Thurs. All good.
I DID stumble a bit one day last week. After being all proud of myself and my restraint and focus I totally binged after dinner. Ice cream, 2 cookies, popcorn. As always I felt like crap afterwards - both physically and mentally. But! … I didn't wallow for long. Next morning I woke up and started again. Right back on track. I recognized, and was right, that Aunt Flo was due any minute. That, as always, explains the carb cravings that I just can't seem to control … and I don't. Yesterday and this morning I everything I truly craved were carbs … so I had them, guilt free. No point resisting. If I had substituted with, say, protein I would STILL be trolling through the pantry looking for something that satisfied … so I just went with it. Had some toast. Had a few crackers. Nothing too out of control, just fed the craving. Aunt Flo arrived and that's the end of THAT!
Onward and upward!
On reflection I see why I was so successful last week. I didn't have to pre-plan or think about what I was going to eat for most meals. Shake for breakfast, lots of water, borscht for lunch, lots of water, sensible dinner. Done! That borscht was the key! Filling, took me a long time to eat and healthy! So … in an effort to recreate the success I will do the same again this week. I will pre measure the water (but think I will reduce it to 2.5 litres. Three just has me going through too much toilet paper and peeing every time I sneeze! Over-share. Sorry.
I'm done with borscht - had it almost every day for two weeks … so I made up a big match of another of my favourite soups - Weight Watchers Hot and Sour. Now it's not what you get in the restaurants by ANY stretch of the imagination … but I love it! I LOVE the texture of tofu … and the mushrooms .. and it's low calorie and filling. Perfect! I go to the Lucky Supermarket and grab lots of fresh mushrooms there - they are the BEST for freshness and price. Brown mushrooms, shitake, oyster, king … and extra firm tofu. This batch I also used Mushroom broth I got at Costco a few months ago. I don't use dried mushrooms (fresh is faster and less gritty) and, after testing, I often throw in a lot more hot sauce and/or rice vinegar. Anything goes - hard to screw it up. Here's the recipe …
So that's the plan for the next few days. I'm walking with a lot less pain so I may try to increase my walk by 10-15 minutes next week. That's what I chose to do … just for this week :)
Have an awesome Sunday Girlfriend! Love you :)
Tam
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
Feeling Great Again!
Hey Girlfriend!
Woke up feeling great this morning. About time! Oh sure, my back still aches a little (but had a DEVINE massage yesterday to help it a lot) and ya, my feet still bark if I don't wear my shoes to the bathroom but I feel really great. "Why, Tam?" I hear you cry! Well … a few reasons, really.
I suppose the MAIN one is I feel in control again. Control of the household (Craig is back at work this week so I'm getting a BIT of routine back), control of my schedule (My "One Touch Rule" was a great success and has me feeling less overwhelmed) and control of my eating/healthy living. Now that last one has a number of things that have me feeling great. a) I feel great MENTALLY! I am not a 5 year old - I CAN control myself and I AM controlling myself b) The controlling what I put in my mouth had me waking up this morning with my stomach feeling very flat (well, when I'm laying down obviously!) and not bloated and c) the scale confirmed that eating properly for just TWO DAYS has a hug impact on my …. well, we'll say weight but more than that, how my body processes the food. Yes, I weighed myself this morning. I don't know why, really … I weighed myself Monday, remember? Ya - 201.4 pounds of awesomeness *lol* (Oh … as an aside … yesterday was the 14 year anniversary of when I found out I was pregnant with Rebecca. I was reading parts of the diary I kept that year and discovered that when I went into labor with her I was 212 pounds. Oh. Great. So I'm 10.5 pounds less than when I was full term with a human being inside of me. I say again. Great. *lol*) … but I digress …
Yesterday, after eating well for just 24 hours, I felt like my pants were looser when I was walking Koda (another aside - I walked further than usual yesterday - thank you feet!). This morning, after eating well for 48 hours I felt lighter. Now you have to understand that I. Know. My. Body. I can usually tell you within .2 of a pound how much I weigh. No scale required. YEARS of weighing myself multiple times a day have given me that super power thank you very much. It's actually kind of creepy. This morning I thought it was safe to test my "I don't weigh 200 pounds" theory and sure enough … 198.8. Yes, I *may* have smiled a little … but I'm to just ailing because the number is under 200. While that's great it just slaps me in the face with what I've been saying all along. THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE IS IRRELEVANT! … another tangent here … stay with me …
When I was taking Rebecca to her psychologist to help her with her anxieties we were given a new tool. We were told to "be a detective" and look at the facts. Rebecca was terrified of throwing up at school so didn't want to eat. The psychologist asked her how many days, approximately, in her life she had gone to school. We did the math … about 200 days a year … times 5 years, so roughly 1,000 days. How many times had she thrown up at school. One. So! What are than chances that she will throw up at school tomorrow? The tool worked quite well … be a detective. Now, back to our story …
So I get on the scale and it is down 2.6 pounds in 2 days. Should I get excited? No. I should not. What does that 2.6 pounds MEAN? Be a detective. Did I burn and extra 3,500 calories each day (spa total of an EXTRA 7,000 calories) in two days to lose 2 pounds of fat? No I did not. Did I pee about 47 times a day due to drinking 3 litres of water per day when I had previously been drinking about half a litre a day? Yes I did. So what do our results tell us. Well, the way I see it I lost 2.6 pounds of water.
So? So the scale being down is NOT permission for me to have a cookie today. It IS an indication that I am on the right track again and THAT is what needs celebrating, not the number. My pants feel looser. Yay! My stomach is less bloated. Yay! I am mentally MUCH lighter. Wa-hoo! Log may it continue!
I realized something else last night. In my epic healthy eating for just two days I have had very few healthy grains. I've had carbs in the form of fruit and my protein shakes but I haven't had any rice, pasta, bread .. just a bit of quinoa on Monday. The result? I am WAY less gassy! Craig was begging me t never make borscht again as I was stinking out the family with some epic-stinky farts … but I now realize I have had borscht for lunch the last two days but no gas. Interesting! Maybe I AM sensitive to gluten … or something else in wheat/grains. I love that I'm making connections between my eating, digestion and how I feel. I sure hope I can stay on this path. I feel so much happier when I take care of myself!
So - Just for Today I Chose to …
Woke up feeling great this morning. About time! Oh sure, my back still aches a little (but had a DEVINE massage yesterday to help it a lot) and ya, my feet still bark if I don't wear my shoes to the bathroom but I feel really great. "Why, Tam?" I hear you cry! Well … a few reasons, really.
I suppose the MAIN one is I feel in control again. Control of the household (Craig is back at work this week so I'm getting a BIT of routine back), control of my schedule (My "One Touch Rule" was a great success and has me feeling less overwhelmed) and control of my eating/healthy living. Now that last one has a number of things that have me feeling great. a) I feel great MENTALLY! I am not a 5 year old - I CAN control myself and I AM controlling myself b) The controlling what I put in my mouth had me waking up this morning with my stomach feeling very flat (well, when I'm laying down obviously!) and not bloated and c) the scale confirmed that eating properly for just TWO DAYS has a hug impact on my …. well, we'll say weight but more than that, how my body processes the food. Yes, I weighed myself this morning. I don't know why, really … I weighed myself Monday, remember? Ya - 201.4 pounds of awesomeness *lol* (Oh … as an aside … yesterday was the 14 year anniversary of when I found out I was pregnant with Rebecca. I was reading parts of the diary I kept that year and discovered that when I went into labor with her I was 212 pounds. Oh. Great. So I'm 10.5 pounds less than when I was full term with a human being inside of me. I say again. Great. *lol*) … but I digress …
Yesterday, after eating well for just 24 hours, I felt like my pants were looser when I was walking Koda (another aside - I walked further than usual yesterday - thank you feet!). This morning, after eating well for 48 hours I felt lighter. Now you have to understand that I. Know. My. Body. I can usually tell you within .2 of a pound how much I weigh. No scale required. YEARS of weighing myself multiple times a day have given me that super power thank you very much. It's actually kind of creepy. This morning I thought it was safe to test my "I don't weigh 200 pounds" theory and sure enough … 198.8. Yes, I *may* have smiled a little … but I'm to just ailing because the number is under 200. While that's great it just slaps me in the face with what I've been saying all along. THE NUMBER ON THE SCALE IS IRRELEVANT! … another tangent here … stay with me …
When I was taking Rebecca to her psychologist to help her with her anxieties we were given a new tool. We were told to "be a detective" and look at the facts. Rebecca was terrified of throwing up at school so didn't want to eat. The psychologist asked her how many days, approximately, in her life she had gone to school. We did the math … about 200 days a year … times 5 years, so roughly 1,000 days. How many times had she thrown up at school. One. So! What are than chances that she will throw up at school tomorrow? The tool worked quite well … be a detective. Now, back to our story …
So I get on the scale and it is down 2.6 pounds in 2 days. Should I get excited? No. I should not. What does that 2.6 pounds MEAN? Be a detective. Did I burn and extra 3,500 calories each day (spa total of an EXTRA 7,000 calories) in two days to lose 2 pounds of fat? No I did not. Did I pee about 47 times a day due to drinking 3 litres of water per day when I had previously been drinking about half a litre a day? Yes I did. So what do our results tell us. Well, the way I see it I lost 2.6 pounds of water.
So? So the scale being down is NOT permission for me to have a cookie today. It IS an indication that I am on the right track again and THAT is what needs celebrating, not the number. My pants feel looser. Yay! My stomach is less bloated. Yay! I am mentally MUCH lighter. Wa-hoo! Log may it continue!
I realized something else last night. In my epic healthy eating for just two days I have had very few healthy grains. I've had carbs in the form of fruit and my protein shakes but I haven't had any rice, pasta, bread .. just a bit of quinoa on Monday. The result? I am WAY less gassy! Craig was begging me t never make borscht again as I was stinking out the family with some epic-stinky farts … but I now realize I have had borscht for lunch the last two days but no gas. Interesting! Maybe I AM sensitive to gluten … or something else in wheat/grains. I love that I'm making connections between my eating, digestion and how I feel. I sure hope I can stay on this path. I feel so much happier when I take care of myself!
So - Just for Today I Chose to …
- keep doing exactly what I'm doing
Oh … and a little trick I've been using when making dinner - 4:00 - 5:00 is my danger time - the time when I start mindlessly munching on stuff … when I catch myself standing in front of the open fridge or pantry door I turn on the kettle and make a cup of tea. Half the time it goes cold and I totally forget to drink it but I distracts me enough to keep me from popping crap in my mouth that don't need … or even want! Try it - it works!
OK - gotta run. Off to chiro at 11:00 and need to walk Koda.
Have a FABULOUS day Girlfriend! It's beautiful out! Take a minute to stop and smell the roses for a few minutes today. GINORMOUS hug! xoxox
Tam
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
Let's Do That Again!
Morning Girlfriend!
Just popped in to say yesterday was a raging success! I had most of my water finished by noon! Not really sure how THAT happened given that I subsequently spent met of the morning heading to the bathroom but …
Today I will apply the same strategy but try to space it out a little better. I don't think it really counts as getting a good, healthy dose of water in if all 3 litres are done in the first 3 hours of the day and then nothing more afterwards *lol*. I didn't PLAN it that way it just happened … and I'm not really convinced I NEED that much water. Aside from the fact that I'll pee every time I sneeze if I keep up that amount I'm not sure it serves much purpose when I'm obviously hydrated (pee is clear - not yellow at all!) and is just going right through me. (Over-share, I'm sure but hey - you know me … no topic of limits in Tamara-world!)
I DID plan to get my DVD in .. alas … I got pretty focused on getting things done with my "One Touch Rule" … essentially, if I touch something I have to DEAL with it. That e-mail in my inbox? Gotta deal with it. That form that need filling out and mailing? Gotta deal with it. That vehicle recall notice? Gotta deal with it. I got SOOOO much done … and kinda forgot about the workout. No worries - today :)
Was great on eating clean yesterday too! Had my shake for breakfast, borscht for lunch and didn't even THINK of snacking until dinner prep. Old habits die hard. Wasn't really hungry per se but wanted to munch … so snacked on some raw cauliflower while making dinner. I DID eat SLIGHTLY more than I should have. I had 5 ounces of my grilled chicken and my fried zucchini (made into noodles with my "vegetti" cutter). Resisted the corn and egg noodles I made for the family … until they were "full" … they offered me their few bites that were left … and I took them. Argh! Why do I DO that?? I didn't NEED it, I was totally satisfied with my dinner yet in my mouth it went. Now granted, it wasn't high-calorie junk food but still - I didn't NEED it. Gotta really dig deep on eating everyone else's garbage. Seriously. I've asked them before not to offer me what they don't eat … gotta reinforce that again.
So today I really plan to just "do it again" and try to be a little more mindful of portions. Oh! … I also didn't have popcorn at bed time. I WAS hungry come 9:00 pm … and planned to have an apple … then I saw some grapes on the counter. Grapes are like crack to me and I couldn't resist. Again, a better choice than chocolate but grapes are so high in sugar … and I had a few earlier so I really should have opted for the apple. Next time.
Today I choose to …
Just popped in to say yesterday was a raging success! I had most of my water finished by noon! Not really sure how THAT happened given that I subsequently spent met of the morning heading to the bathroom but …
Today I will apply the same strategy but try to space it out a little better. I don't think it really counts as getting a good, healthy dose of water in if all 3 litres are done in the first 3 hours of the day and then nothing more afterwards *lol*. I didn't PLAN it that way it just happened … and I'm not really convinced I NEED that much water. Aside from the fact that I'll pee every time I sneeze if I keep up that amount I'm not sure it serves much purpose when I'm obviously hydrated (pee is clear - not yellow at all!) and is just going right through me. (Over-share, I'm sure but hey - you know me … no topic of limits in Tamara-world!)
I DID plan to get my DVD in .. alas … I got pretty focused on getting things done with my "One Touch Rule" … essentially, if I touch something I have to DEAL with it. That e-mail in my inbox? Gotta deal with it. That form that need filling out and mailing? Gotta deal with it. That vehicle recall notice? Gotta deal with it. I got SOOOO much done … and kinda forgot about the workout. No worries - today :)
Was great on eating clean yesterday too! Had my shake for breakfast, borscht for lunch and didn't even THINK of snacking until dinner prep. Old habits die hard. Wasn't really hungry per se but wanted to munch … so snacked on some raw cauliflower while making dinner. I DID eat SLIGHTLY more than I should have. I had 5 ounces of my grilled chicken and my fried zucchini (made into noodles with my "vegetti" cutter). Resisted the corn and egg noodles I made for the family … until they were "full" … they offered me their few bites that were left … and I took them. Argh! Why do I DO that?? I didn't NEED it, I was totally satisfied with my dinner yet in my mouth it went. Now granted, it wasn't high-calorie junk food but still - I didn't NEED it. Gotta really dig deep on eating everyone else's garbage. Seriously. I've asked them before not to offer me what they don't eat … gotta reinforce that again.
So today I really plan to just "do it again" and try to be a little more mindful of portions. Oh! … I also didn't have popcorn at bed time. I WAS hungry come 9:00 pm … and planned to have an apple … then I saw some grapes on the counter. Grapes are like crack to me and I couldn't resist. Again, a better choice than chocolate but grapes are so high in sugar … and I had a few earlier so I really should have opted for the apple. Next time.
Today I choose to …
- get that water in but more spread out throughout the day
- do that pilates DVD
- prep my spaghetti squash to have on hand
- watch portions
- NOT EAT THE KIDS' LEFTOVERS!!
I get to go for a massage this afternoon. Ask me how much I'm loving THAT idea?? Can't wait!
Hope you have a great day - TTYS xox
Tam
Monday, August 29, 2016
New Strategy ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Would love to chat but seriously - need to get off this stupid computer and get some shit DONE today!!! So short and sweet.
Weighed myself last Monday. 199.6 (I think).
Weighed myself today. 201.4. For God's sake Tamara. Get a grip!
I can't BELIEVE I'm not freaking out that the scale is actually over the 200 mark. Seriously. But I'm not.
Whatever.
Have I done well making healthier choices since I got back from holidays?
Actually I have!
The family had take out last week. Subway. Sure I could have had one … didn't want one! Bought them theirs, took it home and had a big bowl of healthy borscht.
Yesterday for luck there was some EPIC spaghetti and sauce leftover from dinner. Healthy, but pretty high carb and lots of oil in it … opted for fried zucchini and quinoa instead.
Resisted lots for things I would normally have eaten.
Success.
Scale doesn't say so, though. I'm going with "water retention". Is the scale higher this week? Yes. Did I eat 7,000 extra calories last week to gain 2 pounds of fat? Nope.
Digging deeper and focusing more today as I can get a BIT more structure to my week with Craig being back at work (and next week will be even better with the kids back at school).
So! Just for THIS WEEK I choose to …
Would love to chat but seriously - need to get off this stupid computer and get some shit DONE today!!! So short and sweet.
Weighed myself last Monday. 199.6 (I think).
Weighed myself today. 201.4. For God's sake Tamara. Get a grip!
I can't BELIEVE I'm not freaking out that the scale is actually over the 200 mark. Seriously. But I'm not.
Whatever.
Have I done well making healthier choices since I got back from holidays?
Actually I have!
The family had take out last week. Subway. Sure I could have had one … didn't want one! Bought them theirs, took it home and had a big bowl of healthy borscht.
Yesterday for luck there was some EPIC spaghetti and sauce leftover from dinner. Healthy, but pretty high carb and lots of oil in it … opted for fried zucchini and quinoa instead.
Resisted lots for things I would normally have eaten.
Success.
Scale doesn't say so, though. I'm going with "water retention". Is the scale higher this week? Yes. Did I eat 7,000 extra calories last week to gain 2 pounds of fat? Nope.
Digging deeper and focusing more today as I can get a BIT more structure to my week with Craig being back at work (and next week will be even better with the kids back at school).
So! Just for THIS WEEK I choose to …
- take my vitamins daily (was doing really well on this one until holidays - have totally forgotten for the last 2 weeks!)
- have a protein shake for breakfast (I have lots in the cupboard and want to start using up some of he healthy stuff I've got!)
- track my food in My Fitness Pal
- do my pilates DVD 3 times this week (seriously - it's only 17 minutes!!!)
- DRINK 3 LITRES OF WATER!!!!!!!! This seems to be a hurdle I just can't get over … so new strategy … remeasuring 3 litres and leaving it on the counter!
That's it! Nothing too new or earth shattering …. just the basics.
I've got this!
Gotta run (... have to pee from that first glass of water! lol ) …
TTYS xo
Tam
Thursday, August 25, 2016
Hanging in there ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Kinda miss our chats this week …. but not stressing over not posting. It's a fine line between keeping my mind and focus on my goals and becoming a slave to them and/or obsessing over them so I'm trying to find a good balance on that.
I'm happy to report that I've been MUCH healthier since last week. Oh sure, I've grabbed the odd "Nutter Butter" cookie (HAD to buy a *few* things in the States that we can't get here!) and yes, I took Alicia out for Vietnamese food Tuesday night BUT I was more disciplined than usual. For once I didn't eat everything they gave me. Yes, I should have stopped about 10 bites sooner but I'm making progress … we took our leftovers home. Small success!
I got out for a walk with Koda yesterday too. Haven't "formally" walked him since before holidays and with my foot problems have had to take it easy but yesterday we managed a short-route stroll. My feet are much MUCH better than they were but I still have to be careful not to over-do it so shorter walks, in good shoes, is a must for now.
I'm feeling pretty good about everything this week. Still a *little* stress eating due to Dad still being in the hospital but again, nothing too off-the-charts, which is good. We still aren't sure what's "wrong" with Dad - got some test results yesterday which had the doctor say they couldn't find any reason for his dizziness and heart beat fluctuations. He doesn't think a pacemaker is necessary and suggested Dad get a walker. WTF??????? Seriously? The man's heart beat drops down to 35 beats per minute and a WALKER is going to help with that?? His heart beat freaks out in the middle of the night setting alarms off and having staff running to his aid and everything is FINE? Fuck. SO not impressed! I believe there is one more doctor to weigh in on an action plan. He better have a better grip on things than the first doctor or they're going to have ME to answer to … and although my Mom can hold her own in a den of hungry lions they haven't had to to face ME when I'm riled. Will NOT be pretty, I can promise you THAT!
Oh. My. Apparently I'm a little worked up now *lol*
So. I've been doing a lot of thinking over the last week (when do not, right?)
I've said it before, I'll say it again. I'm quite comfortable with my body these days. I truly, truly am! I know some people believe I'm just saying that … but I'm NOT just saying that. Yes in the past I WOULD say that but deep down I really was just trying to convince myself I was comfortable.
Would I like to be thinner, lighter, smaller? Ya, I guess if I'm being honest I would like to be. If someone said they could wave a magic wand I could be my dream size/shape would my current size/shape be what I picked? No. I'd likely go for the 140 pound size 6 or 8. Why? WHY is that always the goal?? What's WRONG with being a curvy size 14 or 16 with hips and thighs to match the boobs? What's WRONG with being 200 pounds? Waaaaaaayyyyy back THAT was the desired size/shape/weight. Being "bigger" meant you had wealth. You could afford food and luxuries that the lower classes couldn't afford. Bigger was better. Things are different now. NOW bigger means you are weak. You don't have self control. You're lazy. You're unhealthy. THAT'S what's wrong with being "bigger" these days. I'm not fighting what I want to look like or eat, I'm fighting what THEY think I should look like or eat. I'm worrying about what other people, STRANGERS, think about me! Why do I give a flying FUCK what people think about me?? DO I even KNOW what they are thinking? NO! I ASSUME I know! Maybe I'm wrong! Actually, something that was said to me yesterday has be realizing that I'm likely VERY wrong a large majority of the time! I went for a much needed massage to help my feet as well as undo-the pains from *sleeping* in a recliner on holidays, and, as the masseuse was working on my hips she said (totally out of the blue) "so many women would kill to have your body type". ???!!! I almost fell off the table! What? I asked "What body type is that?" She said wide hips, a small waist, balanced boobs …". Oh! Okayyyyy. So here is a complete stranger. Yes, she has noticed my features and processed that info enough to comment on them … but not in a negative way! Was she lying? No. She certainly didn't HAVE to comment. IF she was thinking negative things she could have just thought what she thought and not said a word … but she didn't. Hmmmmm. So. If SHE looks at me and sees positive things could other people be thinking the same thing? Could hundreds of women be looking at me and wishing they had my curves?? Could women larger than me be looking at me and wishing they were as "thin" as I am.
Yes.
A thousand times yes.
I'm fighting (dare I say SOCIETY is fighting) what other people think of them as much, or more, than what we think of ourselves. I have been working very hard at ignoring what other people may or may not think about me. How does that phrase go? "What other people think of me is none of my business"? It's true. I think I'm pretty much there on not concerning myself with others' thoughts. My MAIN struggle lately seems to be with me comparing myself to my YOUNGER me. Now THAT is one that is going to take a bit more time but I'm getting there.
I think I'll stop there for today. I WILL do a post about just that - comparing myself to my younger self … and comparisons in general … but another day. Have a few things I need to get on with today and I have a stamping session with some young stampers in a few hours so …
Just for today I chose …
- to drink my fucking water!!!! Argh! I seriously have had maybe 500 ml a day all week. TODAY I WILL drink 2 litres of water!!
That's all! That's all I'm committing to today. Yes, I'll make mostly healthy food choices (I still have a HUGE bucket of low-calorie, delicious borscht in the fridge!) but water intake is my main goal today. That and continuing to love myself just the way I am … cause size 8 or size 16 … I'm pretty awesome :)
Nice chatting with you, Girlfriend - TTYS! xox
Tam
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
Let's Try This Again ...
Hey Girlfriend!
Yup I'm back from holidays. Yup, I survived *lol*. Having said that I'm VERY much looking forward to my massage and chiropractor appointments in 2 hours. GAWD my back is killing me! I *slept* in a recliner all week as the concrete slabs they called beds were NOT an option for getting more than 10 minutes of sleep! On the bright side my feet aren't too bad. I think not walking Koda for the week helped my muscles/fascia relax a bit. Oh sure, if I stand or shop for more than about 30 minutes they start to bark at me but I'm definitely on the mend. I'm positive today's appointments will help a lot.
So. I don't have a lot of time (or energy) for a major ramble today. I have SO much to do in the next week and a half. Aside from back-to-school prep I have some major projects on the go, classes and volunteer work to plan and on top of everything else my dad is in the hospital :(
While we were away (and off the grid with no cell service unless we went 20 minutes into town) dad was having heart problems. He's been there almost a week. His heartbeat and blood pressure are all over the place so he's there getting lots of tests done. My guess is he'll need a pacemaker but time will tell. So my time and energy revolves around taking the girls to visit him (they are quite distressed over the whole thing), checking on mom and so on.
Needless to say between holidays and stress my health living has taken a bit of a beating.
While away my eating was a total shit show. That's ok. I expected it. Maybe that's why I ate pretty much non-stop for 7 days. I had given myself permission to … and I took full advantage of it. I'm not upset about it. I enjoyed it for the most part. I know WHY I was doing it, really. Firstly it was because I really don't "do nothing" well. I always seem to need to do SOMETHING … so I ate. Most of the time it was M&M peanuts … or chips. Secondly it's because I don't smoke anymore. Holidays and relaxing have been a part of every holiday for 25 years, barring the last two years. I don't smoke anymore … so I substituted it with snacks. Again. All good. I would much rather have to deal with extra weight than lung cancer. Overeating isn't healthy but it's probably a little better than smoking - at least that's what I tell myself.
So we start again.
While away I tried to thin about moving forward and how that was going to look. Again - I'll save that ramble for another day but let's just say I need a bit of a new approach. My body is telling me that I NEED to lose some weight, My legs just don't have any strength to them lately and I know that's from the extra weight I've gained. It really is funny. This is by FAR the heaviest I've ever weighed … but, as I've said before, I'm really quite okay with it! That's HUGE for me!! I don't LOVE the way I look but I seem to have embraced my curves and I certainly don't HATE the way I look. I bought some great looking jeans on holidays and I was quite comfortable wearing a bathing suit that didn't hide my hips and thighs …
I decided I need to have one-week goals … and weigh-ins moving forward. Whist I love the "just for today" mini commitments it seems to allow me to deviate from my goals with the "oh well, tomorrow is a new day" mentality. I need to see real progress on the scale to know I'm *succeeding* in a bit of weight loss.
I weighed myself yesterday. 199.6 pounds. Sigh. Again - not too upset but I guess surprised - and disappointed. Not really going the right direction now, am I? Mentally I'm doing well (which was half the goal) but physically not-so-much.
Yesterday I made a HUGE vat of healthy, delicious borscht. Since we've gotten home I've eaten a little more reasonably so I'm feeling positive about that. I'm not going to commit to daily things this week - but I will commit to the week …
Just for this week I choose to …
Yup I'm back from holidays. Yup, I survived *lol*. Having said that I'm VERY much looking forward to my massage and chiropractor appointments in 2 hours. GAWD my back is killing me! I *slept* in a recliner all week as the concrete slabs they called beds were NOT an option for getting more than 10 minutes of sleep! On the bright side my feet aren't too bad. I think not walking Koda for the week helped my muscles/fascia relax a bit. Oh sure, if I stand or shop for more than about 30 minutes they start to bark at me but I'm definitely on the mend. I'm positive today's appointments will help a lot.
So. I don't have a lot of time (or energy) for a major ramble today. I have SO much to do in the next week and a half. Aside from back-to-school prep I have some major projects on the go, classes and volunteer work to plan and on top of everything else my dad is in the hospital :(
While we were away (and off the grid with no cell service unless we went 20 minutes into town) dad was having heart problems. He's been there almost a week. His heartbeat and blood pressure are all over the place so he's there getting lots of tests done. My guess is he'll need a pacemaker but time will tell. So my time and energy revolves around taking the girls to visit him (they are quite distressed over the whole thing), checking on mom and so on.
Needless to say between holidays and stress my health living has taken a bit of a beating.
While away my eating was a total shit show. That's ok. I expected it. Maybe that's why I ate pretty much non-stop for 7 days. I had given myself permission to … and I took full advantage of it. I'm not upset about it. I enjoyed it for the most part. I know WHY I was doing it, really. Firstly it was because I really don't "do nothing" well. I always seem to need to do SOMETHING … so I ate. Most of the time it was M&M peanuts … or chips. Secondly it's because I don't smoke anymore. Holidays and relaxing have been a part of every holiday for 25 years, barring the last two years. I don't smoke anymore … so I substituted it with snacks. Again. All good. I would much rather have to deal with extra weight than lung cancer. Overeating isn't healthy but it's probably a little better than smoking - at least that's what I tell myself.
So we start again.
While away I tried to thin about moving forward and how that was going to look. Again - I'll save that ramble for another day but let's just say I need a bit of a new approach. My body is telling me that I NEED to lose some weight, My legs just don't have any strength to them lately and I know that's from the extra weight I've gained. It really is funny. This is by FAR the heaviest I've ever weighed … but, as I've said before, I'm really quite okay with it! That's HUGE for me!! I don't LOVE the way I look but I seem to have embraced my curves and I certainly don't HATE the way I look. I bought some great looking jeans on holidays and I was quite comfortable wearing a bathing suit that didn't hide my hips and thighs …
I weighed myself yesterday. 199.6 pounds. Sigh. Again - not too upset but I guess surprised - and disappointed. Not really going the right direction now, am I? Mentally I'm doing well (which was half the goal) but physically not-so-much.
Yesterday I made a HUGE vat of healthy, delicious borscht. Since we've gotten home I've eaten a little more reasonably so I'm feeling positive about that. I'm not going to commit to daily things this week - but I will commit to the week …
Just for this week I choose to …
- be very, VERY kind to myself
- no negative self talk
- do my best to make healthy choices
- healthy breakfasts, simple lunches, clean dinners
- TRY to have healthy snacks on hand for when I'm away from home
- TRY not to have processed food … but may allow myself a small popcorn if Alicia and I got to the movies
- TRY to drink a few litres of water a day
Next week I'll have my shit together a little better. The kids go back to school Thursday so within the next 2 weeks life will get back into a routine - I'll start exercising again and have more time to focus on healthy. Hopefully by then Dad's health will be sorted out and my stress levels will go down. Stress inhibits weight loss so I'll be keeping that in mind too. Gunna be a tough few weeks mentally but I will do my very best to do my very best … and if I stumble I will be kind and gentle with myself. Just a little blip in the plan.
K. Gotta run. I likely won't post every day over the next few weeks - but now that I'm thinking about you and will post when I can.
Miss you Girlfriend - TTYS
Tam
Friday, August 12, 2016
Heading Off the Grid
Hey Girlfriend!
Oh look! It's 4:05 am. Sigh. Need I say more?
Guess I forgot to post again yesterday. My bad. Can you tell my focus and excitement are faltering a bit? Ya. I need a bit of a re-set. It's coming. We're off on holidays tomorrow … so I'm a *bit* in the "holiday mode" regarding relaxation and increased calorie counts the last few days. Had a bit out for lunch Wednesday … and dinner out last night with my BFF. Was a *little* hard on myself for eating too much. Knew I was doing it but just didn't stop. Argh! Why can't I just step away from the plate??? It's not like it's my last meal out EVER. I CAN take some home. Dunno. I guess I just enjoy it so much at the time I can't get enough. I'll work on it. Promise … but not today *lol*.
I'm going to be totally "off the grid" for a week so you won't see any post from me. When we get back Craig will still be off for another week .. then 1.5 weeks later the girls are back at school. Yay! LOVE getting back into a routine even if it DOES mean having to put pants on by 7:30 am and pack lunches. I'm actually super excited to get back on track Sept 1 - back to healthy living … and exercise! I'm ready to take that little plunge again. Nothing too crazy but this SPring I worked out every days for 3-4 months. I just can't seem to do that with the kids home so bring on September, I say!
So holidays … I'm not going to set myself any restrictions. I'm just going to TRY to be conscious of the calories a *bit* but I'm not going to NOT have a cooler because it's high sugar. I'm GOING to have a amore or two and ya, I'll most likely check out a few chip / chocolate treats that we can't get here in Canada. I'll TRY not to snack too much and, feet permitting, I'll try to move my body more than too and from the beach chair … but no promises *lol*
I'm going to do my best, relax and just enjoy. Just for this week :)
Thanks for popping in - TTY in a week xox
Tam
Oh look! It's 4:05 am. Sigh. Need I say more?
Guess I forgot to post again yesterday. My bad. Can you tell my focus and excitement are faltering a bit? Ya. I need a bit of a re-set. It's coming. We're off on holidays tomorrow … so I'm a *bit* in the "holiday mode" regarding relaxation and increased calorie counts the last few days. Had a bit out for lunch Wednesday … and dinner out last night with my BFF. Was a *little* hard on myself for eating too much. Knew I was doing it but just didn't stop. Argh! Why can't I just step away from the plate??? It's not like it's my last meal out EVER. I CAN take some home. Dunno. I guess I just enjoy it so much at the time I can't get enough. I'll work on it. Promise … but not today *lol*.
I'm going to be totally "off the grid" for a week so you won't see any post from me. When we get back Craig will still be off for another week .. then 1.5 weeks later the girls are back at school. Yay! LOVE getting back into a routine even if it DOES mean having to put pants on by 7:30 am and pack lunches. I'm actually super excited to get back on track Sept 1 - back to healthy living … and exercise! I'm ready to take that little plunge again. Nothing too crazy but this SPring I worked out every days for 3-4 months. I just can't seem to do that with the kids home so bring on September, I say!
So holidays … I'm not going to set myself any restrictions. I'm just going to TRY to be conscious of the calories a *bit* but I'm not going to NOT have a cooler because it's high sugar. I'm GOING to have a amore or two and ya, I'll most likely check out a few chip / chocolate treats that we can't get here in Canada. I'll TRY not to snack too much and, feet permitting, I'll try to move my body more than too and from the beach chair … but no promises *lol*
I'm going to do my best, relax and just enjoy. Just for this week :)
Thanks for popping in - TTY in a week xox
Tam
Wednesday, August 10, 2016
Eat that Frog!
Hey Girlfriend!
MAN I'm in a great mood today! It's a great-mood-hangover from yesterday! SUCH a great day I had!
After a LOVELY start to the day having coffee and a LIVE chat I ran a few errands before returning to "the slug people" as I like to call the girls. I was thrilled that they were up before the crack of noon … and were even DRESSED! *lol* I had hoped they had eaten something relatively healthy (or NORMAL!) for brunch alas their grand creation was chips and salsa! LMAO. Kids! Well - I guess it's better than chocolate chips! hee hee.
After I had a bite to eat (zucchini omelette!) I checked my phone messages and found I had a message. Rewind … background story …
Last month when I was toying with starting this blog …and my journey to a better me in 50 weeks … I knew I wanted to push my limits. Grow. Learn. Leave my comfort zone. I'd been "comfortable" for too long and I felt like the gerbil on the wheel. Going nowhere, bored, lacking purpose …
Part of this journey is to leave the comfort zone … so that's what I decided to do.
I wanted to push my stamping business in a bit of a different direction. I still want to do clubs and classes but I also want to share what I love with others. I wanted to meet new people and reach new customers but without doing the traditional home parties. I wanted more from my business but, up until now, haven't been willing to do what needs to be done to grow it.
I saw a message on the Stampin' Up! website for their Business Development Program. They were accepting applicants. I've been in the program before - about 5 years ago and decided to apply for another round. Essentially SU assigns you a coach. They call you every two weeks and help you achieve what you want to achieve. I knew I needed the program. I've had LOTS of grey ideas to grow my business but I just haven't ACTED on them. I need to push myself and I need to be accountable to do the things I say I want to do. I applied. I was accepted. I had my first call last week. One of the goals I wanted to achieve was to get into some Senior Care Facilities and help the residents get their pictures into albums. Project Life. I don't want to do so in order to make a million dollars or get new customers per se … I just want to volunteer and help people document their lives. As my parents age I realize how important that is. Seems everyone has a shoebox of pictures with no names, dates or information on the back. What happens to these pictures when the owner pass away??? I hate the thought of finding a box like this in my parents' basement one day.
My coach set the goal for me to "get 'er done". Ugh. I DREADED making the cold call. I was SO busy! *insert eye roll and sarcasm here*. That's the problem - I've been "SO busy" for about 8 months now … and I haven't done what I want to do! WTF was the big deal??? Since we are heading on holiday Saturday I needed to make that call SOON … and then it happened. I had about 15 things on my to-do list. THAT'S when I work best No time to think - just DO! I googled the Senior Facility and dialled the number, not even knowing what I was going to say. I was all hyped up. It rang .. and rang .. and rang. I got the answering machine. Sigh. I hung up. Didn't leave a message.
Chicken shit.
I tried half an hour later. Machine again. Sigh again. This time I LEFT a message. Yay me! Not gunna lie - I was kinda glad when no one called me back. Oh well! Did what I said I was gunna do! Coach can't say I didn't try! *lol*
So! Back to our story … so I come home yesterday and there's a message on my phone. They had called me back. Ok. I can do this. Picked up the phone and dialled … and got through to who I needed to talk to.
This is where I need to give myself a serious slap. WTF was holding me back??? I had a LOVELY conversation with a LOVELY young lady who was new to the job. She LOVED my idea and was HAPPY to meet with me to show her what I had in mind and go through the fine details!
I ATE THAT BIG UGLY FROG AND IT TASTED GREAT! (Craig was confused by my "I ate a frog today" text … so in case you, too, don't *get* it …" How do you eat a frog? One bite at a time … "and it's best to eat the biggest, ugliest frog on our plate first thing in the morning so it's done, out of your way and your biggest obstacle is over with - the rest of the day ROCKS!)
Once I hung up I was seriously on top of the world! I was excited, energized, proud, happy, full of ideas … WHY DID I WAIT SO LONG?? Why was I fearing rejection so much? What was the WROST that could have happened? They may have said "no thanks". And?? Life would not have ended! What would happen if they said "yes, please"? Well … now I know!
So I ate the frog, I moved myself forward and it feels fanTASTIC! Did I drink my 1.5 litres of water yesterday? Nope. Was yesterday a success? Yup. It's not all about food and exercise. It's about being a better me. I'm a better me this morning than I was yesterday morning. Will I try to move forward a little more today than yesterday? Yup. Maybe I'll get that water in yet :)
Love you Girlfriend. Have a FAB day!
Tam
MAN I'm in a great mood today! It's a great-mood-hangover from yesterday! SUCH a great day I had!
After a LOVELY start to the day having coffee and a LIVE chat I ran a few errands before returning to "the slug people" as I like to call the girls. I was thrilled that they were up before the crack of noon … and were even DRESSED! *lol* I had hoped they had eaten something relatively healthy (or NORMAL!) for brunch alas their grand creation was chips and salsa! LMAO. Kids! Well - I guess it's better than chocolate chips! hee hee.
After I had a bite to eat (zucchini omelette!) I checked my phone messages and found I had a message. Rewind … background story …
Last month when I was toying with starting this blog …and my journey to a better me in 50 weeks … I knew I wanted to push my limits. Grow. Learn. Leave my comfort zone. I'd been "comfortable" for too long and I felt like the gerbil on the wheel. Going nowhere, bored, lacking purpose …
Part of this journey is to leave the comfort zone … so that's what I decided to do.
I wanted to push my stamping business in a bit of a different direction. I still want to do clubs and classes but I also want to share what I love with others. I wanted to meet new people and reach new customers but without doing the traditional home parties. I wanted more from my business but, up until now, haven't been willing to do what needs to be done to grow it.
I saw a message on the Stampin' Up! website for their Business Development Program. They were accepting applicants. I've been in the program before - about 5 years ago and decided to apply for another round. Essentially SU assigns you a coach. They call you every two weeks and help you achieve what you want to achieve. I knew I needed the program. I've had LOTS of grey ideas to grow my business but I just haven't ACTED on them. I need to push myself and I need to be accountable to do the things I say I want to do. I applied. I was accepted. I had my first call last week. One of the goals I wanted to achieve was to get into some Senior Care Facilities and help the residents get their pictures into albums. Project Life. I don't want to do so in order to make a million dollars or get new customers per se … I just want to volunteer and help people document their lives. As my parents age I realize how important that is. Seems everyone has a shoebox of pictures with no names, dates or information on the back. What happens to these pictures when the owner pass away??? I hate the thought of finding a box like this in my parents' basement one day.
My coach set the goal for me to "get 'er done". Ugh. I DREADED making the cold call. I was SO busy! *insert eye roll and sarcasm here*. That's the problem - I've been "SO busy" for about 8 months now … and I haven't done what I want to do! WTF was the big deal??? Since we are heading on holiday Saturday I needed to make that call SOON … and then it happened. I had about 15 things on my to-do list. THAT'S when I work best No time to think - just DO! I googled the Senior Facility and dialled the number, not even knowing what I was going to say. I was all hyped up. It rang .. and rang .. and rang. I got the answering machine. Sigh. I hung up. Didn't leave a message.
Chicken shit.
I tried half an hour later. Machine again. Sigh again. This time I LEFT a message. Yay me! Not gunna lie - I was kinda glad when no one called me back. Oh well! Did what I said I was gunna do! Coach can't say I didn't try! *lol*
So! Back to our story … so I come home yesterday and there's a message on my phone. They had called me back. Ok. I can do this. Picked up the phone and dialled … and got through to who I needed to talk to.
This is where I need to give myself a serious slap. WTF was holding me back??? I had a LOVELY conversation with a LOVELY young lady who was new to the job. She LOVED my idea and was HAPPY to meet with me to show her what I had in mind and go through the fine details!
I ATE THAT BIG UGLY FROG AND IT TASTED GREAT! (Craig was confused by my "I ate a frog today" text … so in case you, too, don't *get* it …" How do you eat a frog? One bite at a time … "and it's best to eat the biggest, ugliest frog on our plate first thing in the morning so it's done, out of your way and your biggest obstacle is over with - the rest of the day ROCKS!)
Once I hung up I was seriously on top of the world! I was excited, energized, proud, happy, full of ideas … WHY DID I WAIT SO LONG?? Why was I fearing rejection so much? What was the WROST that could have happened? They may have said "no thanks". And?? Life would not have ended! What would happen if they said "yes, please"? Well … now I know!
So I ate the frog, I moved myself forward and it feels fanTASTIC! Did I drink my 1.5 litres of water yesterday? Nope. Was yesterday a success? Yup. It's not all about food and exercise. It's about being a better me. I'm a better me this morning than I was yesterday morning. Will I try to move forward a little more today than yesterday? Yup. Maybe I'll get that water in yet :)
Love you Girlfriend. Have a FAB day!
Tam
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